You talk to Carrie

After Carrie’s finished her story you both lie in bed not saying anything. It had taken her about twenty minutes to tell it from beginning to end. You have so many questions, but don’t know where to start, or even if you should. It sounds like she is still processing the experience to make sense of it.

“It sounds like Maud took care of you very well,” you say.

“She did,” says Carrie. “She’s really interested in how different people respond when they are aroused.”

“Does she get turned on by it?” you ask.

“I think so. But not in a porn type of way. She’s getting turned on by getting inside people’s minds and rewiring them. It’s almost a vicarious pleasure. She was turned on by how **** and needy you were getting when you were being ruined time after time. I think that’s why she climbed on you towards the end and rode your cock the way she did.”

“I didn’t know that was her,” you say.

“Well you were fairly far gone by then. We both rode you. Hey I’m disappointed you couldn’t tell when it wasn’t me!”

You can tell she’s joking.

“And what about the nipple clamps, were they not really sore?”

“They really pinched at first, but I got used to them quickly. Then I only really noticed them if I bumped them with an arm when I was thrashing around. But I think they continued to have an effect on my body, keeping it on edge.

“Maud said that many people use the ‘experience’ section for what she called ‘pain play’, but she didn’t think that was for me, well not yet anyway.”

“I guess the cuffs were the same?” you ask.

“I think they were more about control and loss of control, a little like tossing the coin. Once they were on I had to submit. It’s been interesting to learn how much I enjoy giving up control and how much it just lets me enjoy myself without shame or self judgement.”

“Did you arrange to see Maud again?”

“It didn’t seem the right time to discuss it. When we were finished I was pretty emotional and spent and I just wanted her to hold me and take care of me, but that seemed to cross all sorts of boundaries. She certainly left it open as an option and I really trust her and feel safe with her. I probably do want to explore more now that I’ve had a taste of it. Don’t you feel the same after what she taught you?”

“I guess so,” you start. “At the time it was so intense and I wanted it to go on and on, but crossing the line again and giving into it all still feels a little scary. Without the coin I wouldn’t know how to decide.

“You should take a nap while I make some food for us both.”

“Thanks,” says Carrie. “Take my phone and if Antoine sends his dick pick again toss for me. With any luck Jane will have gone back for seconds.”

You take her phone and leave the room.