Rowena

As the evening’s proceedings go by, Finola’s stomach seems to draw more and more **** out of the mead in her belly, causing her to become progressively more and more drunk. I am honestly kinda worried about her. Apparently, Dunla is concerned about her as well. She even followed Finola towards the torches to make sure she got out the right way. Or maybe to prevent her from accidentally burning herself on the torches. Thank goodness I only drank one mug of mead. Imagine I was like that right now. I am totally getting embarrassed in Finola’s place right now.

“Will you go next, Rowena?” Dunla asks

I was hoping to go second to last, but with Dunla asking me so directly, I don’t feel I can say no. “I am.” I reply. “You can ring me.”

So, Dunla rings her bell, signifying it is my turn to start walking. As I go towards the torches, I wonder how many guys are still hidden at the edges of the glade, staring at us. I bet a lot of them should have already left. But those who know Dunla is leading the event might just want to stay until the very end, just to catch her. That means those guys could be watching me now. Oh gods, this is the first-time guys will be seeing me nude. The idea just makes me feel so small.

As I pass the torches, I look ahead, wondering if Finola is still here being drunk. But she is nowhere to be seen. I hope she followed the path and went straight home. It would be wrong if some guy catches her when she is all drunk like that. I look left and right, curious if there might be some guys around, but I see nothing. Gee, with the forest all dark like this, it feels so scary.

Well then, I have a choice to make. To stray or not to stray. And if I do stray, I also have to choose which side. Do I choose left, or right? I mean, I am kindof curious about how sex is like. I have heard some of the girls talk about wanting to do it, even though it wasn’t Samhain. So, I guess it must be enjoyable enough that some girls want to do it just for the enjoyment. But there are also my brother and my uncle. Though I guess if those two catch me, I could always offer them to use my hand. But then there are some hot guys. Like Merlan and Owen. I would be fine with it if those guys catch me. Ahh, I am so conflicted. I don’t know what to do.