I want to be yours

As I began getting dressed i realized i forgot to grab a change of pants. I only had the (still) baggy shirt and boyshorts that I brought with me. Not having much of a choice, I got dressed in the revealing setbefore exiting the bathroom. Chad was now sitting upright on his bed and had a pair of joggers and a tank top on, he probably cleaned up with wipes.

I took a seat across from him on my bed. We both waited for the other to speak, and as I felt the awkward silence creeping in once again, but Chad broke it

“Alex...I’ve been thinking about our situation…and I want you to know why I acted the way I did”

Chad got up and walked over to my bed, taking a seat beside me and looking me in the eye.

“I’ve…always been a bit of a playboy…I think you’ve known that from day 1”

I couldn’t help but let a small giggle at the obvious statement. “Heh, yea I’ve gotten that over time”

“Then believe me, I’ve had my fair share of girlfriends, friends with benefits and one night stands. But you, you’re special”

He reached one hand over and rested it on my bare thigh

“I saw you as a friend. But, lately, you’ve been dressing different, acting different, and honestly, when you look like this I can’t see you as the Alex I first met. You’re cuter than most girls I’ve fucked”

He put emphasis on the last word, and his hands started moving up and down my leg, causing my breathing to become heavy

“So…what I want to say is..I don’t want to stop..I want to see where this thing goes. What do you say”

What am I supposed to say when you have me like putty in - literally- the palm of your hands. That’s not playing fair. I placed my hand over his and took it off

“Well…first of all…stop trying to get in my pants while we’re having a serious conversation”

Chad looked stunned for a moment, then started bursting out laughing. I stared at him for a bit, but soon I couldn’t help myself and started giggling as well. Soon, we were both laughing.

“Hahahahahah….god, I’ve never had a girl say that to me when I had my charm turned on”

“Well…I’m not like other girls am I”

“No…no you’re certainly not”

We dialed down into light laughter, and as we made eye contact and I started into his blue orbs. I felt clarity

“Fuck it”

I pushed him down on my bed and straddled him, sitting on his crotch and leaning over so his face was below mine.

“So…I guess this means you feel the same way” Chad whispered huskily

“I..I don’t have all the answers. All I know is…I like this version of me…and I want to explore where it takes me”

“It’s going to make living complicated…It’s going to make your life complicated”

“I’ll figure it out” I started moving mouth closer to his

“Mhmm Alex, I know you will”

I paused as our lips were a hair width apart

“Call me Alexis” I whispered

I finally closed the gap as I caught his lips against mine. This kiss was unlike the ones we shared before- it wasn’t aggressive, it was careful yet passionate. Both our tongues intertwined, neither dominating the other, but dancing together, as I tangled my hands in his hair, while he gently caressed my waist. As we separated, I saw in his eyes acceptance, and a silent understanding of more to come.