DIVERSE OPPORTUNITY

Although I have had men by using the internet most encounters have been outside in parks or similar outdoor settings .

The outdoor settings are more exciting for me as I like the feeling of being visible to men as a woman - and one who is **** to their sexual instincts .

And it isn't hard to attract men in that way . Other than the risk of disease ( lucky so far ) I have not met any danger . What I have met is different desires - every time , it seems .

There is a behaviour I have met several times that although it has a label ( voyeurism ) is driven differently in different men . I'll describe the encounters and what I think of them .

Simplest first . Someone taking pictures . Initially when I realized what he was up to I was worried .I was walking the path ( an approximate dirt oval about 300 yards long around an open grassed area , outside the path were trees and bushes from which the path was visible , and into which I could venture if beckoned ) . As waiting men are generally lurking invisibly I like to solicit them actively by colorfull clothes - usually a skirt ( I do like wearing dresses but getting them on and off - sometimes hurriedly , is more difficult ) and a matching top . And even if it is unlikely to get me even more attention I get a frisson from flaunting my underwear by swishes of the skirt - or , if wearing stockings by stopping to adjust the suspender straps

It was while doing just that that I saw a guy had been following me . He stopped when I stopped and I saw he was holding what could be a camera . As I walked on he followed by a distance of thirty feet and when I turned again , he was holding it up to take a picture of me . Later , when I was standing in a path back from the main path he appeared on a bicycle and looked at me , as if waiting . I gave him full value . I lifted up the front of my skirt so he could take in my stocking tops and loose fluttering knickers . He drank that in before , startled by someone else , he took off without having used his camera .

As long as my face doesn't appear on Facebook I have no problem with this . Actually I quite like the idea of a man somewhere going through a collection of photographs and masturbating to the fantasies he associates with my appearance . I'm sure he was timid or afraid of actual physical contact and the camera allowed the sex to be remote . A pity . If only he had known I would have been happy to pose for the most titillating actions that he later got off on .

One man who wanted to look at me seemed , I think , to show signs of internal conflict . That he was there , and that he stood as I approached showed interest in homosexual contact . But he recoiled from actual physical contact . He liked looking at me . He couldn't take his eyes off me as I flaunted my underwear at him , and seeing that was the case I made suggestive fuck-me gestures , but when I reached out to touch his pants , he moved back again . He didn't masturbate , but he wanted more looking .

Why this ? Quite a percentage of men find sissy-dressed men off-putting . I think it comes from disgust at the notion of anal sex which I think they assume is what sissy-dressing is proposing to them . But there will be some who are borderline on the matter . They may like the idea of cross-dressing for themselves ( quite a lot of men , when I have undone their pants to take out their cock I have found to be in panties ), and are intrigued to seeing it done and are curious to know if that sissy is enjoying his flaunting . ( He is ). So , if that's you , be braver next time . Just say ' I don't want to fuck you in the ass , but I'd like you to suck my cock ' . Problem solved !

Another man did want to touch me , and in some ways his version of voyeurism is close to answering my sexuality . It didn't include the verbal humiliation part , nor the physical humiliation implicit in having a man calling you bitch while rutting away up your ass , but you can , and I did , supply some of that by writhing and wriggling in enjoyment in panties for him to watch . As ever , the panties are important . The ones I had were a new aquisition that I was pleased with ( probably what prompted me to go out looking for a man ) . They were bright red . The material was not quite mesh-like but just see-through . They clung and curved nicely round my bum and were more towards the bikini end height-wise . I felt very fuckable in them .

I'm not sure how he managed it as I was on the ground while he stood above me , but as I made bump and grind movements he intermittently reached down to ping the panties or briefly masturbate me through them . What I liked ( and like ) is having my womanly things ( in this case just panties - it was all I had on ) noted - preferably touched as if they are a source of arousal . Which is what he did .

I eventually could not continue without release and started masturbating myself whereupon he nicely took over and got me to ejaculate - then went away . - A perfect baptism for those panties !

I have more on voyeurs to describe , but will leave it to the next chapter .