...the first time I sucked was

Your first sexual relationship was with a friend from uni. You had known each other in school and college, but not very well. Since starting at uni you both hit it off really well and a friendship formed within the first few weeks of the first term.

You had been round at his house studying with him in his room. You knew that he liked you. Matt was his name. You liked him too but you were a bit intimidated by the fact that he was from a really rich, respectable family, wheras you had practically had to raise yourself from a broken, impoverished home. On this particular day his parents were out and after a few hours studying Matt had brought a few bottles of cider up into the room. You had both had enough of studying and you drank together, chatting, laughing, shooting the shit. You think you had three bottles of cider, you could certainly feel it warming your blood, your head a little fizzy. You sat on the bed scrolling on your phone while Matt was sat at his computer, browsing the net.

He had clicked on a link that one of his friends had sent him and it had taken him to a pornographic video, the camara looking down on a naked and beautiful woman with large breasts, sucking with gusto on a huge penis. The noises made you look up and you both burst out laughing.

"What the actual fuck!" you exclaimed. wrinkling up your face. "Oh.. my.. god.."

"What? you're not telling me you haven't watched porn before?" Matt had said.

You had seen a LOT of porn before, but you were too embarrassed to admit it to Matt. You remember, one of your older step brothers was always showing you porn, women being degraded, humiliated, on his phone and he would laugh at your reaction. You kind of thought it was normal for a long time growing up, seeing your alcoholic mum being ill treated by all her patners. It wasn't untill you saw how other 'normal' people lived that you realised how wrong your expectations from men were. But by then, even though you didn't know it at the time, your heart of hearts found gratification in humiliation, degradation and debasement.

"I've seen some things but not... that. How does she even do that?" you said through laughter as the woman on the screen let the whole length of the kingsized dick slide down her throat.

"Lots of practice I expect" Matt said, then "wait, watch this bit now, watch, watch" the woman had sat back on her haunches with her tongue flat out along her chin while the man behind the camera wanked his dick just a few inches from her face. You knew what was comming. You'd seen many similar videos. You couldn't tell Matt, he'd think Im a fucking slut! but you found watching men cum strangley arousing.

Of course, the dick had exploded porn star amounts of cum. And in a few seconds the woman's face was covered in thick white ropes, her tongue barely visable at all untill she retracted it into her mouth, swallowed, then stuck it back out to catch the last few dribbles of cum, which she again quickly swallowed.

That was fucking hot, you thought, but you said instead "Ewwww, what the fuck Matt" you jumped up and sped over to turn the thing off while Matt laughed at your predictable reaction. As you had reached for the mouse Matt playfully grabbed your arm to stop you and so you reached over the top with your other arm, laughing "hey perv, I'm turning that off". Your other arm too, was intercepted, and in the tussle you fell into his lap. Both your arms were wrapped around you and he held on to your wrists from behind so you could not get up off his lap. The video was still playing and now it was another beautiful woman getting her face plastered in cum.

You laughed and shouted playfully "For fuck's sake, let me go you little pervert" but he held you tight while the video played. Another woman on her knees. These women are so beautiful! you thought to yourself, as she worked her magic on a curved dick for a few seconds before the moans reached a cresendo, and the white goo started to leak out of her mouth and down her chin, while she still sucked on and on.

You felt a hardness underneath you that you hadn't noticed before. As you pretended to struggle you felt it even more. There was no mistaking it, Matt had an erection and you were sat right on top of it! If not for Matt's jeans and your leggings you would surley have been implailed on it!

You pretended not to notice, and stopped your struggles. You returned your attention to the video, still playing. "Massive load cumplilation" you read from the screen. "Is this seriously a 40 minute video of men squirting cum on women's faces? Why does anyone watch this?" even as you say the words a large part of you can understand fully why someone would watch this, the submissivenous of the beautiful women, the depravity of it, the cum... why am I so hot?

"It is kind of sexy though, you gotta admit?" Matt says as he shuffles in the chair, trying, but failing to move your weight off his erection. "Yeah, if you'r a fucking pervert" you retort, still aware of the bulge pressing into your rear. "don't tell me you're a pervert Matt?" you taunt him, turning your head round to try to look his way. The way he almost squirms under you gives you a new sense of power. He lets your arms go and you are now sat sideways in his lap looking him in the face. He is smiling but you can sense he is nervous, ****. Like he has just shared with you a secret, something near to his heart.

You suddenly notice that his hands are resting on you, one on your thigh, the other on your hip. You feel his desire. God, am I really this arousing? He is hard for me... am I as sexy as those women? I bet he would burst out of his own skin if he saw me doing what those women do! These thoughts race through your mind as you look at him, trying to read him. He starts to lean in towards you. Is he? Wait... he's going to kiss me?

Matt leans in and kisses you on the lips, softly and pauses. You stay still. His right hand moves upward and cups your face, then he kisses you again, firmer. You realise that you half kissed back this time. He then pulls you in and you feel his tongue enter your mouth. Your hands are on him too now and you are kissing him back with everything you have. You both writhe around awkwardly on the chair, tongues wrestling, hands exploring, chests heaving, hearts racing.

You feel electric, like you are charged with some **** that you were till now unaware of. "whoa, Emily,...-mmphh- you're so hot! -mmmph- I can't -mppphh- believe you can kiss like that!" Matt eventually says, as you try to glue your tongue to his. Your body moves on its own volition, your hips rise and fall with your kisses, your groin rubbing up and down Matts shaft. His hands move to your waist and he watches you dry riding him while you kiss him, you tilt your head the other way, kiss again, tilt again, trying to find your way into him, deeper, wanting his tongue deeper in you. Lust overcomming you.

The video still plays. You hear a man groaning off to your side and your mind's eye pictures another beautiful woman on her knees, mouth open, cum landing on her tongue. God I'm so fucking horny! You pull your head away for a second, your heart beats hard and you feel it throb in your head, Shit how much cider did I drink? You shift your weight back on to your feet and start to lower yourself down, down to you knees, in front of his lap. "Wh.. What're you doing?" Matt managed to say, he could not believe what he was seeing. In answer your hands rubbed over his cock, tenting in his jeans, you looked at him and said quietly "take them off."

Matt's hands scrambled to unbotton his jeans, he stood briefly to pull them down and quickly sat back down "Fuck Emily, are you sure? Like, I think your hot and fucking awsome already, you don't have to..." he cut off and moaned as you squeezed his cock through his underpants. You could see the outline of his manhood now right in front of you, the thick shape of it pressing along his tight pants, a dark, damp gooey patch had formed on the fabric at the end of his dick and the sight of it excited you further. You swear you could smell it. My God I want to taste that. I'm going to taste it. He is mine, all his attention is on me, I can make him moan if I chose to. If I can make him cum he might even ask me out, I know he likes me. But what if he thinks I'm a slut?

Shit, too late to back out now...

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