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Laura called you into her classroom after school. You went, heart racing like a nervous habit, wondering if something had happened, if Marcus had found out, if—

"I want to talk about you," she said, closing the door.

Your stomach dropped. "What about me?"

"You're miserable," she said simply. She was sitting on the edge of her desk, and there was genuine concern in her voice. "And I know why. And I hate that I'm the cause of it."

"You're not—"

"I am," she interrupted gently. "Because I let this go too far. I should have been clearer from the beginning, but I wasn't, and now you're... stuck. Waiting for me. Turning down opportunities. I can see it happening and I can't just watch you do that to yourself."

"I'm fine," you said.

"You're not fine. You're in love with me, and you're hoping that eventually I'll feel the same way, and I won't. And every day you wait for that is a day you're not living your life."

You didn't say anything. What could you say?

"I have a proposal," she said. "And I want you to really listen to what I'm saying, because I'm coming from a place of love. Real love. Best friend love."

"Okay," you said quietly.

"I think you should start dating," she said. "Someone your own age. Someone who can actually be with you."

"I don't want to date anyone else."

"I know," she said, and there was sadness in her voice. "That's exactly the problem."

She stood up and moved closer to you. "Tim, even if I weren't your teacher, even if none of the logistics were impossible, I still wouldn't be the right person for you. Do you know why?"

You shook your head.

"Because you deserve someone who loves you the way you love them. Someone who prioritizes you. Someone who doesn't have to hide you." She reached out and tucked a strand of hair back from your face—a gesture so tender it made you want to cry. "And I can't give you that. Not because I don't care about you. But because I'm not in love with you. And you deserve better than to settle for less than that."

"I don't want better. I want you."

"I know," she said softly. "But you're wrong about what you want. You think you want me, but what you actually want is to feel wanted. And there are so many people out there who would want you, who would make you feel valued, who would be your age and your partner and everything I can't be."

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The Setup

One week later, you were sitting in Laura's living room when she brought it up again.

"I met someone," she said casually. Too casually. "Or rather, I remembered someone. My friend Sarah from college? She has a daughter, Emma. She's a senior at Lincoln High, so she goes to a different school than us. She's smart, funny, and when Sarah was showing me pictures, I thought of you."

You felt something twist in your chest.

"Laura, no—"

"Hear me out," she said. "I'm not trying to replace me. I'm trying to... open you up to possibility. Emma's going to be at a coffee shop on Saturday. Just coincidentally. And if you happened to be there, you could run into her. Or not. But I really think you'd like her."

"This is weird," you said.

"It's not weird," Laura said. "It's called caring about someone and wanting them to be happy. Which, by the way, you're not. You're miserable. And I'm tired of watching you be miserable because of me."

"So you're setting me up with a girl to what? Get rid of me?"

"No," she said, and her voice was sharp now. "I'm setting you up because I want you to know what it's like to have someone be excited to see you. To have someone want you the way you deserve to be wanted."

She softened. "And because I'm worried about you. You're obsessing. It's not healthy."

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Saturday at the Coffee Shop

Emma was pretty—blonde, artistic looking, the kind of girl who would have made 17-year-old Randall immediately interested. She was sitting alone with a coffee and a sketchbook when you "coincidentally" ran into her.

"Oh my God, Tim?" She smiled. "My mom showed me your picture. She and Laura are friends from college."

It was like a stage play. Everything felt scripted, which you later realized was because it kind of was. Laura had orchestrated this. She'd texted Emma. They'd planned it.

You were the only one not in on the setup until you got there.

"Yeah, uh, Laura mentioned your mom," you said, sitting down. "Said I should get coffee here."

"She's so cute," Emma laughed. "Trying to play matchmaker. I appreciate the effort, but my mom's always doing this. She thinks everyone needs to be paired off."

But then she kept talking. And she was actually interesting. She talked about her art portfolio, about applying to colleges, about how weird it was that her mom kept mentioning this "really nice boy" named Tim. And she had this way of looking at you—not like you were the answer to her prayers, but like she was genuinely curious about you.

By the end of an hour, she'd given you her number.

"In case you want to hang out sometime," she said. "As friends or whatever. No pressure. But I think Laura would be insufferable if we didn't at least try."

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When You Told Laura

"She's nice," you admitted, sitting on her couch. Marcus's jacket was draped over the back of a chair—he was clearly staying over. "But I'm not interested in dating anyone."

"Yes, you are," Laura said. She was in the kitchen, making tea. "You just don't know it yet. Give it time. Get to know her. See where it goes."

"I just want—"

"I know what you want," she interrupted, bringing the tea over. "And I need you to stop wanting it. Not because I don't care about you. But because I do. Because watching you wait for something I can't give you is killing me."

She sat down next to you. "Emma's a good person. She's smart and creative and she's your age. And when you're with her, you won't be thinking about me all the time."

"I like thinking about you all the time."

"That's the problem," she said gently. "I don't want to be your whole world, Tim. And you shouldn't want me to be. It's not healthy."

She reached over and squeezed your hand. "Let me be your best friend. Let me care about you. But let someone else be your person. The way Marcus is becoming mine."

"And we'll just... stop?" you asked.

"Not immediately," she said carefully. "But yeah. Eventually. Because you're going to graduate and go to college and meet people and realize that what you felt for me was real, but it was also temporary. You were infatuated with your best friend's body and a woman who paid attention to you. That's understandable. But it's not love. Not really."

"How do you know?"

"Because love doesn't make you miserable," she said. "And you've been miserable for months."

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Two months later

You were at Emma's house when Laura texted you about prom.

Laura: have you asked emma to prom yet?

You: we're taking it slow

Laura: take it less slow. you should ask her. she's waiting for you to.

You: how would you even know that?

Laura: because i'm a woman who understands women. also sarah told me. ask her. trust me.

When you asked Emma, she said yes immediately. Too immediately, like she'd been waiting.

And when you took her to prom in April, looking at her in her dress, feeling her hand in yours as you danced to a song that wasn't about anyone else—you realized Laura had been right about something.

You couldn't have had this with her. Your best friend would never be in this gym in a dress, dancing with you, nervous about whether you liked her. Your teacher would never slow dance with a student in public.

It was only with Emma that any of this was real.