Your exgirlfriend

The sun blares on your freshly shaven face. Standing on your exgirlfriends balcony as she smokes and talks about her most recent elden ring run. You weren't listening, The night before whilst having dinner she told you that she was transgender sending you into a spiral of confusion, Anger and sadness. She was perfect. The most beutiful woman you had ever met, Kind and caring and most importantly into everything that you enjoy. In all aspects you should of married her on first sight. But she has a dick. Why did that bother you so much. Why did it make you feel so strange. You were scared, What did it mean. What would others say. What would it make you. It made you a coward, So scared about everything you were feeling you tossed her aside on that balcony. You've never met a girl as perfect as her again. You ruined it because of ego, Fragility and a fuilty sense of erroding masculinity. You know Hannah is still friends with her, But you just can't fathom seeing her again. What would you say. you were so mean. So wrong and so horrible. The girl you know should have been your wife, Now too scared to contact.

"I thought you were differnt, I thought you cared. I loved you"

You awaken shaking and sweating. You cant tell whether it is because of the dream or how much you cock hurts in its cage. You get out of bed, Ready for your first day of seven locked up. Unable to pleasure yourself. Getting dressed you tuck it into your boxers but they feel so uncomfortable now. So loose the keep on snagging and pulling on weird corners of the cage. Deciding theirs nothing you can do you finnish dressing and walk to the kitchen. Hannah is making food whilst on the phone. Looking up momenteraly she becons you to sit, As she plates up the food she says goodbye to her mysterios caller and sits opposite you. "So who were you talking too." She gives you a pityful look. "Listen before i say this i should worn you it may hurt you, It was Blair. She came out as a lesbian." She pulls you into a hug. You always knew she was into women but she said she was bi. You realised it was final. You will never have a chance with Blair again. You lost your only love on that balcony.