Well.... not as perfect as i hoped and it's not even morning yet >.<

It was somewhere around 3 o'clock in the morning when I woke up for two reasons. Reason number one beeing that it was cold sleeping on top of my blanket instead of under it and two I heard someone silently crying in the bathroom. I am ashamed to admit it but it took me several seconds before it occured to me that the one I heard crying was Sam. but as soon as this hit me I rushed to the bathroom to see something that sended a shiver through my spine. (and I don't mean the good kind of shiver.) Sam was sitting on the toilet hugging her knees as she kept her wings spread as wide form her (still nude) body as if afraid to touch them but the thing that shocked me was the fact that the tips of all the feathers on her wings suddenly had a rusty red color as if there was dried blood on them. "W-What happened?" I didn't think when I said these words and in the (not counting Sam's crying) quite house my words seemed rude and out of place.

Sam looked up at me. S-Simoun.... I-I.... She couldn't finish her sentence when she burst out in crying again. I think my brain stopped working because again without thinking I rushed over to her and hugged her tight whispering nonsense like "it's okay lett it all out" and "shhh i'm here for you everything is going to be okay" I didn't believe my own words at that moment and I wouldn't know if she believed them but she hugged me back and after a while she slowly quite down and made some little hiccups as she silently shook from grief. "sssshhh i'm here I won't go anywhere let's get you back to bed okay?" I don't know why I thought that would help but she nodded and we manouvered her out of the bathroom and into the bedroom. (which was extremly difficult since she didn't wanted to fold her wings back keeping them strechted as wide as she could in my house)

We cuddled a bit as she was visibly trying to find someway to explain to me what's wrong with her wings. I-I..... I kissed her gently. "sssshhh we don't have to talk if you are not ready. don't **** yourself." Sam shaked her head. I got to tell you. I.... I have fallen.... "Fallen? as in slipped and hurted yourself or something else?" S-Something else..... I nodded not understanding what she meant exactly but I got a pretty good clue that it had something to do with her wings. Y-You see... I comited a sin a-and now i'm tainted m-my wings a-are the first sign. "What was the sin? Maybe we can find a way to get you forgiveness" She hugged me tighter. what we did tonight...... "You mean... that this is my fault for loving a girl?" I started to curse myself. I took away Sam's whole beeing for my own selfish needs that was till she kissed me and look at me with a sad little smile. No you silly.... Heaven doesn't discriminate based on your gender, religion, sexual oriantation, nationality and so on. No I am tainted because I had sex before marriage. "I see...." She hugged me tighter. but I don't regret a thing.... I.... I am just sad i'm not an Angel anymore. "Isn't there a way to turn you back?" No unless I went to Heaven with some kind of proof that this is pernament. "What kind of proof?" She hugged me tight. _That's something I don't know either.... _We hugged each other in silence for the rest of the night till the sun started to rise.