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Diana woke up the next day with a slight hangover. She knew that it had been years since she had drank to the point of being sloppy. College, to be exact. Meeting Tony again after all the years apart had caused her to panic and after walking away from her husband, she had hit the bar a third time and drank herself silly. After that, everything became fuzzy. Diana slowly got out of bed and dressed in some fuzzy pajamas before making her way to the kitchen. Jack was already up and had started preparing breakfast. Diana took a seat at the table and smiled up at Jack as he put a cup of coffee in front of her.

"Thank you Honey," she said weakly.

"I figured you would need it. I've also got a veggie omelet with your name on it. Extra mushrooms and spinach."

"You know me so well."

"Yeah... I guess for the most part I do."

The emotions that flashed across Jack's face gave Diana pause. Had something happened last night that had him concerned about her?

"Jack? Did... Did I do something?"

"What do you remember?"

"I drank too much. After that I really don't remember anything."

"I'm not surprised. You drank so much that you thought someone else was me."

"What do you mean?"

"Love, you kissed Tony. We found you in an empty room. You called out for me, but Tony was closer. You leaned up and grabbed him and next thing I know, you two are making out."

"Oh... Oh god... Jack, I'm so sorry! I wouldn't have..."

She couldn't believe what she had done. Her history with Tony was one thing, but to do something like that, especially in front of Jack?

"It's ok Love," Jack reassured her as he put her plate in front of her. "But I have to ask, what happened in college? I've left it alone because you never wanted to talk about it, but I really need to know. After you saw Tony, something in you changed. You never drink that much, and honestly it looked to me like you were scared. Then on the way home, you were a bit more forceful than usual."

"What do you mean?"

"Love, we were barely out of the parking lot before you pulled out my dick and sucked me almost the whole way home. You've never done that. I'm not necessarily complaining, but it wasn't your normal behavior."

"I-I see. That was... Wow. I haven't done that in a long time."

"I'm guessing Tony, back in college?"

"Ye-... No wait... Last time was in college, but it would have been Mikey."

"What?"

"Ok... I guess you need to know after how weird I acted. You've met my parents, really conservative and proper. It drove me nuts as a child, so once I hit college, it felt like I was free to explore. I started with parties and changing my cloths. Soon I was coming out of my shell and drinking or occasionally smoking weed. One night during my first year, I met Tony. He was confident and the life of just about any party he went to. He swept me off my feet so quickly that it made my head spin. I thought it was a one night stand at first, but he actually liked me. We started dating a few weeks later, but there were some things that were understood between us..."

Diana paused, trying to organize her thoughts. Jack took a sip of his own coffee to give her time, but she could see that he wanted answers. She took a deep breath and continued.

"Tony wasn't a "One woman" kind of guy. I was his girlfriend, but he made it clear from the start that he didn't belong to me, just preferred me. Nights he wasn't with me, he had another woman with him. A couple of times, it was multiple women. Not only that, he wasn't usually gentle. I was his toy, to play with as he pleased. Sex was often rough, and he was a big fan of bondage. I had a safe word, but I was too prideful to ever use it, so he pushed me harder and harder. Eventually, he decided that he didn't mind sharing his toy. I got passed around to all his friends, but they always had to have his permission. The last time I gave road head was to his buddy Mikey. Mikey's birthday rolled around and I was the gift for the evening. On the way back to my dorm the next morning, I gave him road head. We almost got busted by campus security, so I stopped doing that."

"So you didn't want to talk about college because you didn't want to tell me about all of this?"

"Pretty much."

"So what changed Love? You weren't like that when we met."

"You're right. All of the fun eventually led to a pregnancy scare. I missed a period, and then the test came back positive. For three weeks I thought I was carrying a baby that could have belonged to one of ten guys. It was sort of a wake up call in a few different ways. I started thinking about being a mom, having a family. I knew I needed to calm down with the drinking and sex. After I found out that I wasn't pregnant, I was relieved that I had the chanced to do things the right way. I tried to talk to Tony, but he didn't want kids or marriage. I saw that we had decided on different paths, so we separated amicably. I focused on school and by the time I graduated, I was a lot more level headed. I still hooked up with Tony occasionally to blow of steam, but it was never the same as it had been. When he graduated, Tony left the state to explore his options, and I eventually found you and my job."

Jack was quiet for a bit as he soaked in the information. Diana worried that he was going to be angry, but after a bit he sighed and it looked as if the tension in his face and shoulders drained away.

"So last night, you were confronted by your past and it shook you. I think I can understand that. I'm a bit concerned though. If you were so into that kind of lifestyle and rough sex, how come you never asked me to be rough?"

"Because it's not you. I love you for how you are. I've never been left unsatisfied and I enjoy everything we do together. I don't want you to compromise who you are for a side of me that I thought I was done with."

"Thought?"

The realization of what she had said struck her at that moment. She was done with it. Right?

"I... Oh god. Jack, I did love it. I loved being submissive and being treated like a toy. I think I panicked last night because I saw the chance to have it again and it just made me snap."

"You want it again? I'm assuming with Tony?"

"Jack, please just listen to me. I don't know what came over me. I should be done with it. I love you, I want a life with you. I just... Part of me wants both. I don't love Tony, I just want to have that wild side come back into play, but with you I want all the love and romance and future we've built together. I shouldn't be feeling like this!"

Jack's eyes had grown wide and his hand was shaking as he set his coffee cup aside. Diana could see something building in him, but she didn't know what.