Talk to mom

". . .mom"

Yes, my mom not only is she the wisest person I know, but she might also actually understand what I am feeling. It would be awkward talking to her about this sort of thing but nowhere near as awkward as what actually happened later that day.

Finally, I threw back the covers and climbed out of bed. Dressed in my t-shirt and boxer shorts, I crept out of my room and down the hall to my mom's room. Her light was still on, so I knocked.

"Mom?" I called out to her

"Give me a sec" she yelled. I heard some noise in the room, and then she called me in, "Come in."

She was in bed, with her blankets pulled up to her stomach. She wore a purple nightgown the same one from that time . . . hold up stay focused!

"Hi," I said.

"What's up? when I came home you were already asleep! something wrong?" she asked.

"I need to talk to you about something? is that ok?" I said.

"Baby, I am your mother, I will be here for you! come sit next to me and tell me what’s wrong" I then do as she told me and go and sit next to her on the edge of the bed.

"You know, I know men are supposed to be comfortable with this, you know with the sex-ed I took . . . but I always thought of myself as a straight man, you know? to not follow the trend and be my own man", I then start explaining what happened to me today

"I know how you feel, when I was just graduating high school I went into a phase where I suddenly was attracted to girls, I even went out with a few during my school years before I met your father" she then grabs my cheek "It's ok it doesn't matter what you like I always love you! and even now since you and Ruth have accepted me"

"The most important thing is to remember that no matter what sexual activities you do, you are who you are! and nothing will stand in your way! but if this truly bothers you, you just need to test it out "

"And how do I do that?" I tell her

"By experimenting! try out everything that's out there and see what makes you excited" she then gives me a huge smile and tells me

"Hey let's try something," she asks

"What is it," I tell her, she then stands up and goes to turn on the tv and open an app on her phone "You see dear ever since I've made the change I'm sure you realties that my needs have become . . . excessive, I have been following the procedures that the doctor gave me and recorded me to masturbate a lot"

"MOM! " I say ask shyly

"Oh, dear calm down! you just told me about masturbating this morning". she says, I guess she is right

"This should help you explore more of your sexuality, let's watch a porno together! huh, what do ya say?"