Sorting out your feelings

Are we really ready for this?

The question rolls around in your head well after accepting Jackie's invitation in the bath. After you had finished scrubbing her body from head to toe, the two of you toweled off and dawned a pair of bathrobes to retire to the study for a nightcap. After pouring your drinks, Jackie excused herself to make some phone calls and send some messages ahead of her... your trip, leaving you to the company of your own thoughts.

What's the problem? You've always thought about how great it would be to have an open marriage. This is your golden opportunity! No more sneaking around and feeling guilty about it later, you tell yourself in your inner dialogue.

Would it really be that simple though? It sounds fantastic, but how am I going to feel in the moment? What happens when I watch some other man slide his dick into Suzy? Will I be angry? Jealous? Horny beyond belief?

Don't fool yourself. You know there's a good chance Greg is plowing her beneath the sheets right now.

That's the thing though. I don't know for sure. Right now, she's like Schrödinger's cat.

More like Schrödinger's pussy.

You chuckle at yourself.

The point is, opening that box is going to change our marriage, and there's no going back.

What's the alternative though, you just keep cheating behind her back while she's probably doing the same behind yours? What happens when one of you finally catches the other? You can't hide the truth or hide from the truth forever.

I don't know. Things are good right now, but they probably won't be the day that happens, and it's bound to happen eventually. You're right. This is a golden opportunity and there's no reason not to take it. It's just...

Scary?

Yeah.

Change is scary.

True.

But it's also part of life. You can either worry about it or embrace it. Let's embrace this one.

You swallow, pushing down your fears and doubts.

Okay, let's do it.

Jackie walks back into the room. Her stunning, confident smile commands your attention as she strides toward you. Instantly, you're feeling more confident about this decision.

"I was going to leave tonight to secure the venue for Suzy's surprise, but I've just arranged to have Greg take care of it instead so we can have some more time to... get to know each other a little better. We'll fly out together in the morning. Don't worry about going home to pack. I'll have Geoffrey send along everything you'll need. I'm sure he will pick out something tasteful and appropriate for you to wear." She winks. "In the meantime..." The corner of her mouth draws up in a crooked smile. Taking her glass, she lifts it towards you.

"To love, lust, and living in the moment," she proclaims as she clinks her glass against yours and takes a healthy sip. You do the same. The **** warms your throat and calms your nerves. She looks at you over the rim of her glass. You can feel the heat of her lust for you smoldering in her eyes. Moment after moment passes as you begin to burn with anticipation before she finally speaks again.

"So, what are we waiting for?"