She was done for the day

Hannah finally let herself relax as she glanced over her apartment. It was better than before, certainly, but she couldn’t help but feel like this was an unstable equilibrium. Was it possible to keep hiding things in the long run? To never let him find out about this hidden side of her?

Then again, maybe it wasn’t about hiding it, but changing herself. Leaving some old habits behind, changing her ways… If she really was a different woman then she wouldn’t be lying to him, would she? But the line between lying to Ashton and changing herself felt blurry to her. {if Commitment > 50}But she was willing to do the sacrifice necessary to prove she wasn’t lying. It was painful to say goodbye to the remnants of her old life, she had to admit. But it was worth it, to be with her boyfriend, and to keep him. {endif}{if Commitment < 40}It was harder than she thought, to change herself, and she even wondered if it was possible at all. Maybe she was always going to be a horny, {if Porn Star = True}kinky porn star{endif}{if Hardcore Party Girl = True}wild party girl{endif}{if Hotwife = True}cheating hotwife{endif}. Would her boyfriend still accept her, even if she didn’t change? {endif}When she thought of Ashton, {if Love = True}her heart grew tight with affection and worry. The thought of him breaking up with her was painful, like cutting off a part of her own, and when he smiled and looked happy, she felt happy too. This was a first for her, even after so many partners, and it made her giddy and scared for what the future might bring. {endif}{if Denial = True}she worried that this was her one chance at getting a husband. Someone who could respect her and love her, instead of just giving her a good fucking… Even if she did enjoy a good fucking. But no! Hannah shook her head. She was changed now, and she hoped desperately that he would stay with her, despite it all. {endif}{if Manipulation = True}she sighed and wondered how long it would take before he proposed to her. He didn’t look to be in any hurry, but maybe she could put pressure on him? Get him to finally tie the knot? After that at least she would be able to relax and work on making Ashton a good partner for her. She was sure that with a little effort she could get him eating off the palm of her hand in no time.{endif}

But in the meantime there were other things that needed to be done. Like a last-minute report from work that was due tomorrow, she might as well get started on that now. As for the future, who knew what it could hold?