She's smiling

Walking was hard. God I felt good. Though still horny for some reason. I didn't know why but didn't really care either. My body was spent. Horny or not I had no more in me. It wasn't even near my curfew time but I headed to Clara's place just so I wouldn't be **** to later.

Kat was there. I didn't know where she was actually.

Tessa Brooks, Rule when Katherine Turner uses the phrase "Tessa my love" she will be compelled to do what Kat next suggests

I just went to my room and crashed.

The next morning I woke up and my anger was back and I was sore. Oh God! Why! I got up and ran to the mirror and looked at myself. What was that shit.

It was almost like the mirror was speaking to me. I knew it was this calm bitch inside me but what I wasn't sure of was if this bitch was even part of me.

She'd enjoy the idea of Samuel touching me? God, I think I'd rather be a lesbian than do that. Not really but what was I supposed to think when it came to two different things that I equally hated the idea of.

It was that damn trigger. It turned me into some bimbo version of myself. While the anger in my heart was lit I had to keep that fire away.

I went into the kitchen and found Katherine cooking. "Since when do you cook?"

"Just trying something new," she said smiling as she served a plate of eggs and bacon.

"Thanks," I said as I sat down and took a bite. My entire body quivered. My fingertips I could kind of handle but the feeling of my lips touching anything just sent shivers down my spine.

God damn it.

"Are you okay? Your shaking?" Kat asked.

"I'm fine. It's nothing," I said.

This was that damn triggers fault. Without this fire in me. Was I even Tessa anymore?

But I was back. Though, the other side did provide and interesting opportunity. 4 days of no manipulation. I just needed to add three days to it. If I used the 4 days and then got him locked up on some kind of psych hold. That could work.

I would need to think about it more. If I wasted this chance... I was worried I might be in trouble. But I sure as hell didn't want to have to live with that bastard controlling any more of myself.

Working out would be a good way to work through some of my energy.

I stood up, even if the work outs were intense I think I could handle at least one more. Then the day break could be used. That way I didn't need to worry about the god damn play date.

"Tessa. Are you going to work out again? Two days in a row?" Kat asked.

"Yeah. It's okay. I can handle it," I said.

"Your legs are already shaking," she said.

"It's fine okay? Don't about me okay?" I shouted.

"Oh course I'm going to worry. I love you!"

"You don't love me. You were manipulated into thinking that Kat. You have to deal with it because you decided to keep it," I said walking towards the door.

"Tessa my love, please do the other thing today. Okay?"

My body froze. "Kat. What did you do?" It was like a whirlwind was blowing in my head. The idea of working out was so distance. I couldn't hold it. I needed to do what Kat asked. My mind tried to justify it but I had enough mind fuckery to know something had just happened. Kat was looking away. Guilt. "Katherine. What did you do to me!"

Clara came downstairs and looked at me. "I feel a tug. Did someone get manipulated to play with me?"

I raised my hand. "Guilty as charged," I said. I had a bloody smile on my face. That was right. I had to convince her I wanted this.

"Yay!" Clara said.

I tried to ask Kat again but I just felt myself looking at the toy chest. It was hard to look away. I walked over and sat down.

Fucking fuck! Kat why would you do this to me! I was so fucking pissed!