Sex

"Are you going to do it?"

"Do what?" I asked confused

"You know" Susan ran a finger through a hole she made with the other. I quickly put together what she was insinuating.

"I don't know...I don't think im ready for that, I only just turned 18"

"You know you don't have to fuck anybody... you can have fun in other ways"

"Like..."

"Most guys are happy if you just suck them off"

"Eww that's gross hard pass" I dry heaved at the thought

"It's not as bad as you think is actually kinda fun, empowering even"

"I can't imagine that to be either of those things"

"You would be surprised and guys love it" Susan did have a point it could allow me to keep my "innocence" while still being able to do something

"When did you do it?"

"Oh a couple years back at a one shelby's parties"

"Did you just suck him?"

"No, Jeremy was his name he was my first we actually fucked in Shelby's bed that was fun"

"What was it like"

"Honesty not as ground breaking as I thought it would be. It only got better after that though" I never talked so openly about anything so lewd before. The talk combined with the **** was seriously turning me on and I didn't know how I felt about it.

I thought taking about it would build my confidence but in reality it only made me even more nervous"

"I need another drink do you want one?" Susan asked.