Waking Ivan

I found myself staring at Ivan as I laid on my side watching him sleep happily. My roommate, why did he have to come off as cute and with a sexy ass? What did I have with him? I guess it’s time to ask myself that and take a good look at myself.

In truth, I’m not sure. Ivan approached me like a guy interested in a good fuck and that’s all, but then he introduced me to his friends. I ended up hitting it off well with him and Gabi, that part became obvious after last night. But then I messed up with Carl and Ivan offered to stay with me. Was that the first sign, was that when I should’ve figured I meant more than a fuck to him? I suppose it’s not fair what I did to him too, I mean I didn’t stop him from having his way and I too encouraged that. I mean... I did like him. I do like him, he has a warm aura around him that made me accept him easily. He’s happy, not once have I seen him in any other emotion. I kind of envy that, I wish I could be like him in a way. I want to be open, I want to be a crowd pleaser yet be happy on my own. I want to be able to leave that positive impact the way he does.

I slid my hand over to grab his, gently holding it. I remember holding his hand last night when I took him. It’s true now that Gabi mentioned it, the first day he went down on David but two weeks later I’ve never seen him be with anyone else. Or mention anyone for that matter. His hand felt soft and warm, just like his body. It suites him perfectly, a feeling of inviting comfort, someone you want to hold in your arms and carry with you always. He sounded so peaceful too, he has this adorable look to him when he’s sleeping. This is dumb, why am I watching him sleep? This is just creepy and weird, but still he was cute.

I felt his hand grab mine as he groaned and leaned forward, pulling his body over my arm trapping me there. He opened his eyes and smiled once he saw me. “Eeey, how chu slip?” That was cute, that made me smile at how tired he still was. “Pretty good haha, how about you?” He rubbed his eyes. “Mmmm... goooood.” He lifted his hand and caught me holding it, making him giggle. “Aww, no wonder I slept well haha. I thought you were holding me though.” I pull him close and have him lean on me, much to his surprise. “Like this?” “Oooh, just like that haha. Mmm.” He shut his eyes and laid his head on my chest, groaning happily. This was nice.