I dump Kaitlyn

Something is happening that I never thought possible. I am standing in the room of my former enemy Becca Davenport and she has her arms around me because I am crying. Before today, I would have only thought that the sorority girl would put her arms around me so she could stick a knife in my back. My new friend is trying to calm me down and rubbing my back with her right hand because I have decided to break up with my girlfriend. There have just been too many obstacles in our relationship for me. The problem is that I am scared to have this talk with suite mate. What if she doesn't want to be my friend anymore after I break up with her? I couldn't bear that.

"I would like to give you something," Becca commented while letting go of me.

"What?" I choked out through my remaining tears.

"I find teddy bears very soothing when I am upset and I would like you to have one of mine," Becca implored while getting a pink toy from inside her closet. "This is Susie."

"You don't have to..." I started to refuse while holding up my hands.

"Please, I want to," Becca insisted while holding the bear out for me with both hands. "It is my way of thanking you for being my friend even after the rotten way that I've treated you. Why did you it?"

"I just like to help people," I answered while shrugging my shoulders.

"I thought there was a reason why you have so many friends," Becca said with a chuckle while handing me my new toy.

"I just hope that I don't lose one tomorrow," I grumbled.

"Kaitlyn might be hurt for a while, but I am sure that she will get over it," Becca guessed.

"She is the last person that I would ever want to hurt," I whined. "She is my best friend and the first friend that I made at Hartfeld."

"Isn't it better that you are honest with her rather than string her along?" Becca advised.

"You are right," I sighed as Becca handed me a box of tissues so I could blow my nose.

"Do you want to go back to sleep?" my buddy implored.

"Do you have a sleeping bag?" I requested. "I won't be comfortable sleeping in your bed after having that dream about you."

"I don't have one, but Madison does," Becca replied while getting up from her bed. "I'll get it for you."

"Thanks for the bear," I acknowledged. "I have a feeling that I am going to need it tonight."

"You're welcome," Becca spoke back with a smile.

Becca came back with a yellow sleeping bag that was decorated with red flowers and a blue pillow. It took me two hours filled with tossing and turning to get to sleep since I was so nervous about what I had to do in the morning. What if Kaitlyn hated me after I broke up with her? I don't think that I could stand life without her. After I woke up, I worked the kinks out of my shoulders and then Becca let me use her shower to get a bath. She wanted me to eat breakfast with her and Madison, but I wanted to get what I had to do over with so I wouldn't have to worry about it anymore. I must have looked like I was facing the electric chair while I was walking home except for the fact that I was carrying a stuffed toy with me. When I got home, I found all of my friends eating breakfast including Kaitlyn who immediately got up and approached me when she saw me.

"Portia, I am very sorry I got mad at you after the riot," Kaitlyn whined. "I had no right to treat you that way."

"I forgive you," I accepted.

The brunette and wacky girl who I was about to break up with thought that everything was okay and approached me for a kiss. I could tell that is what she wanted because of the look she had in her eyes. It broke my heart to have to stop her, but I had **** in the matter.

"No!" I shot out while putting up both of my hands halfway.

"What do you mean?" Kaitlyn choked out. "Don't you want to kiss me?"

"What I want is to talk to you outside," I let out in as firm of a voice as I could muster which wasn't very much of one.

I walked back out of my dorm with the wait of the world on my shoulders. I just knew that this was not going well when I heard my former girl walking up behind me. I felt a ball of emotion override me and a tear came out of my right eye.

"Why are you crying?" Kaitlyn demanded.

"Kaitlyn..." I wheezed.

"Damn it, just tell me!" Kaitlyn shrilly commanded as a tear came out of her eye. I think that she knew what was coming but I still had to say it.

"We have had a lot of bumps in our relationship," I began.

"Portia..." Kaitlyn coughed.

"I'm sorry, but I can't be your girlfriend any longer," I finished.

"NNOOOOOO!" Kaitlyn shrieked while running back into the dorm in tears.

I started to shake as tears started pouring out of my eyes. The only thing that I could do was sit on the ground and wrap my hands around my knees since I had hurt my best friend. After a few seconds, I felt an arm wrap around my shoulders. I knew it had to be Chris because of the strength of the arm, but I just did not want to look up at him. I now have to face the possibility of losing my best friend.