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Chapter 357 by XarHD XarHD

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The Hearth, Rekindled, Part 1

VP and BP Standings
Erin - 99 VP - 5100 BP - 2 Achievs
Liesa - 96 VP - 3200 BP - 3 Achievs
Sam - 95 VP - 7700 BP - 2 Achievs
Norah - 94 VP - 1850 BP - 3 Achievs
Claire - 87 VP - 8900 BP - 2 Achievs
Emi - 86 VP - 6050 BP - 3 Achievs
Emily - 81 VP - 5600 BP - 3 Achievs (2 used)
Marissa - 77 VP - 5000 BP - 2 Achievs
Dawn - 75 VP - 5800 BP - 3 Achievs
Myra - 52 VP - 4300 BP - 2 Achievs
Chloe - 45 VP - 7350 BP - 1 Achiev
Riley - 42 VP - 7100 BP - 3 Achievs
Laura - 18 VP - 6950 BP - 1 Achiev

Andy woke to the faint tinkle of seashell chimes and the soft brush of Myra’s hair on his shoulder. Morning in the Master’s Suite was always a half-lit dream—curtains drawn, the world outside washed pale and quiet, but today the room felt softer. Maybe it was the way Myra slept, fox tail curled around her knee, mouth slack and peaceful, blind eyes shut but flickering with whatever vision her dreams allowed. She looked younger when she was asleep. Less like someone who had clawed her way to the top of the world and more like a girl who’d finally, finally stopped running.

He let himself watch her for a few minutes. The light made her skin glow, every shift of the sheet tracing new lines on her thigh, the fur at her ears trembling each time a draft teased the shells in the doorway. Last night’s marathon left him a little numb, but he didn’t mind. If anything, it made him want to be still, to savor the moment before the day came for both of them.

The chimes in the door frame sang again, and Myra blinked awake. She didn’t flinch, or recoil; instead she listened, her lips curving at the sound. “Still there?” she mumbled, voice rough but calm.

Andy stroked the hair from her face. “Always.”

She scooted closer, head tucked under his chin, arms and tail wrapped around him with a **** that said she didn’t want to let go. He kissed the top of her head and breathed her in, the scent of salt and sleep and some citrusy ghost from the spa yesterday. She hummed, content.

“Can we just… not?” she said after a bit.

He raised an eyebrow. “Not what?”

“Not get up for a while. I don’t have anywhere to be.” Her hand found his, squeezing.

“Sure,” Andy said. He could feel her relax, the tension that usually hummed under her skin gone, replaced by something warm and heavy and slow. He was so used to Myra’s alertness, her tension, that this lazy version felt like a secret she only shared with him.

They lay like that for a long time, the only noise the faint pulse of the AC and the chimes, sometimes a shift of sheets or a soft snore when she really let go. He traced tiny circles on her lower back, just above the tail’s base, and felt rather than heard her contented sigh.

She slept long and hard, awakening only when the chimes sang especially bright. For a few minutes, she just lay there, listening.

Then, with a suddenness that felt deliberate, Myra flipped onto her back, arms thrown wide, hair fanned out in wild brown spirals that caught the dawn light. “I used to think sleep was a waste,” she said, voice echoing the ceiling. “In med school, I’d do these monster shifts, like forty-eight hours in the ER, then crash on a cot for four and do it again. Even then, I’d wake up feeling like I owed the world something. Like there was never enough time to really rest.”

“I’m pretty sure you’re owed a few hundred hours, easy,” Andy said. He tried to sound light, but Myra’s words clung to the corners of the room.

She snorted. “Yeah. But I think it’s more than that.” She turned, her blind eyes finding his face, even if she couldn’t see it. “There’s a theory that sleep debt—chronic deprivation—can damage the blood supply to the optic nerve. Like, it literally starves your vision out of you.” She shrugged, lips quirked. “I think I was halfway blind before it even happened. This is just the logical conclusion.”

He didn’t know what to say, so he let his hand slip down to her shoulder, thumb tracing the delicate bone, anchoring her to the here and now. “You’re not broken,” he said.

She smiled at the ceiling, lips drawn in a crooked line. “You keep saying that like you’re the only one allowed to decide.”

He propped himself up on an elbow to face her. “I’m not the only one. But I do get a say. And I’ll keep saying it until you believe it.”

She rolled onto her side, face close, breath warm on his cheek. “Thank you,” she said, voice almost a whisper.

She studied his face with her hands, fingers mapping his features like she was learning a new language. Sometimes she’d pause, the tips of her fingers resting on his jaw or lips, as if she was listening for something beneath the skin. “You know what sucks about being blind, even with the Emotion’s Map upgrade?” she said at length.

He tilted his head. “What?”

“I’ll never know what you look like when you’re actually happy. Or if you’re rolling your eyes at my stories. I just have to trust you’re not faking it.”

He caught her wrist, pressing a kiss to the soft, delicate skin there. “I have a terrible poker face,” he said. “You’d probably know even if you could see.”

She smiled, and for a second he could almost believe she could see him. “That’s the second-worst thing about being blind,” she went on. “All the compliments. Nobody can resist, and you never know if they mean it.”

He laughed. “I mean it.”

She relaxed against him, their legs tangled together as if the world had shrunk to just this—a suite, a bed, the faint salt tang of the sea and the hush of unhurried conversation.

For a long while, neither spoke. Andy traced his thumb along her arm, feeling the tension drain out of her body. She rested her cheek on his shoulder, her breath warm against his skin.

“I’m glad I came here,” she said. “To the show. I mean, it’s probably going to fuck up my life forever, but… I haven’t felt this good in years. Maybe ever.”

He wanted to argue, but she squeezed his hand, silencing him.

“I don’t just mean the sex,” she said, a blush creeping up her chest. “It’s the other stuff. The women. The pranks. The upgrades.” She rolled her eyes. “God, I never thought I’d say that. But I can rest, finally.”

He smiled.

"I mean it, you know," she said. "I thought my life was done, after the blindness. That maybe I'd get by, but I'd never really want to be in my body again." She flexed her hand, fingers splayed on his chest like she was anchoring herself there. "Now I actually like it. The way I see things, the way I feel. The way you make me feel." A blush crept up her neck, but she didn't hide.

He squeezed her tight, savoring the contact. "You're not the only one," Andy said, thinking of Erin’s words from their last date night, and how even the most **** among them had shed a little bit of their old pain, or at least grown past the part that kept them from touching the world.

Myra smiled, and for a second the fox in her showed—mischief and a hint of dare. "So you like my upgrades, then?" she teased.

He laughed. "I do," he said, not hiding it. "I like all of you."

She rolled, pinning him with her body, legs tangled in the sheets. "Let’s see," she said, and before he could react, she wrestled him onto his back, her hands braced at his shoulders, her hair a halo around her face. The chimes in the doorway sang as a draft caught them, and Myra grinned down at him, ears forward. "Still think I can't see you?"

He reached up, traced a finger along the line of her jaw, then cupped her cheek. "Not even a little."

She lowered herself, kissing him with a heat that left no doubt about what she wanted. This time, there was no hesitation, no caution. She was all hunger and confidence, her hands everywhere at once. Andy let her take the lead, let her map every muscle and scar and secret patch of skin she wanted. For a while, nothing existed but the sound of their breaths and the slow, tidal press of their bodies, the heat of her bare skin, the soft, wild scent that seemed to cling to her even after last night’s soak.

He slid his hand down her back, feeling the tension and strength there, the way she shivered when he grazed the base of her tail. She arched, making a low sound that vibrated through both of them. Her hips met his, slow at first, and she rode the rhythm, building it with purpose. The chimes rattled again as the air shifted, as if keeping time for them.

They didn’t rush. Myra set the pace—sometimes slow and savoring, sometimes urgent, sometimes pausing to laugh as her hair caught in his mouth or her tail wrapped his calf and pulled. When she came, she bit his shoulder, stifling her own scream, and her whole body shook. Andy held her through it, hands tracing gentle circles until the shuddering slowed.

She collapsed against him, panting, her cheek pressed to his chest, sweat cooling in the dawn air. After a long minute, she shifted, then slid down beside him, curling her arms and tail around his waist. "I can feel it," she said, voice dreamy. "How much you care."

He stroked her hair, let her rest there as long as she needed. He wanted to tell her she could have this for as long as she wanted—maybe forever—but instead, he just held her, memorizing the shape and weight of the moment.

She nuzzled closer, then pulled back, propping herself up on one elbow. "I want to try something," she said, and the look on her face was both serious and a little wicked.

He grinned. "Yeah?"

She reached for him, her hand finding his cock, still hard, a little slick from before. She wrapped her fingers around him and began to stroke, her movements slow and deliberate, eyes tracking his reactions. "I want to know what you feel like," she said. "Not just guess. I want to memorize it, so I can always bring it back when I need to. Science, you know."

Andy groaned, the sensation a bright, sudden spike that left him unable to think for a second. She was good at this—very good, maybe from her medical training, maybe just because she cared enough to be careful. Her hand was warm, steady, each stroke matched to his breathing. She watched his face, reading every twitch and shiver. When he got close, she tightened her grip, added a subtle twist, and leaned down to kiss him, deep and greedy. He came with a grunt, hips bucking, and she caught every bit of it, her smile wide and proud.

Handjob! +3 VP
Swallowed! +2 VP

She wiped her hand on the sheet, then lay back, arms behind her head, looking more satisfied than he’d ever seen her. "Science," she said again, almost giggling.


They drifted toward breakfast when the hunger finally overrode the urge to lounge. Myra pulled on a robe, the tie crooked but secure, and made her way to the kitchen. Andy followed, content to let her lead, admiring the way she moved—still careful, but confident now, her steps light, her tail swinging easy behind her.

She made scrambled eggs, toast, and coffee, refusing help except when she needed him to grab a plate from the highest shelf. Her hands were sure on the knife now, the stove, the coffee pot. When she accidentally spilled eggshell into the bowl, she laughed it off, not caring about the mistake. "Perks of being blind," she said. "Nobody expects you to be perfect. I wish I’d figured that out sooner."

They ate at the bar, side by side, legs pressed together. Myra talked about the House of Quiet Waters, about the way the gold lines helped her remember the world was breakable, but still beautiful. She asked about the other women—how they were holding up, if he thought any of them wanted to leave when the show was over.

Andy answered as honestly as he could, talking about how each of them seemed to be changing, growing, finding something they’d never had before. He didn’t mention Laura by name, but the thought of her hovered between them, a silent third in every conversation.

When breakfast was done, Myra washed the dishes, humming a song Andy didn’t recognize. He watched her, feeling a strange mix of gratitude and awe at how easily she fit into the rhythm of the Suite, remembering the scared girl she’d been, in this same place, just three weeks earlier.

When she dried her hands, she turned to him, face serious. "I want to go see the others," she said. "I want to be around people again. I want to show them I’m not the ghost I used to be."

He nodded, understanding. "You should."

She stepped forward, pulling him into a hug, her fox tail wrapping around his waist. "Thank you," she whispered, her voice rough. "For trusting me. For caring. For helping."

He kissed her hair, holding her tight. "You’re worth it," he said, and meant every word.

She lingered a moment, then let go, her step sure as she moved toward the door. As she reached the threshold, the chimes rattled, and she paused, smiling.

Andy followed her, then reached up and plucked one of the strands from the doorway. "Take this," he said, pressing the chime into her hand.

She ran her fingers over the shells, reading the shape of them. "A souvenir?"

He grinned. "A reminder."

She laughed, a sound clear and alive, then kissed him, quick and fierce, before turning and striding off, the chimes singing in her wake.


The Forest of Beginnings held its own kind of sunrise, a light that didn’t come from any sun but rather from within the trees themselves. By seven a.m. the ground was already ribboned with blue and gold, each step pressing spirals into the mossy loam. The air was sharp and cold, a shock after the hush of the Master’s Suite, and Emi felt it down to the bones of every one of her arms. She liked it best in the early hours, before the rest of the world found its way here.

The Forest felt especially awake today—like it was expecting something.

She sat on a boulder at the edge of the largest of the shallow pools, sketchbook open, six hands working in a slow, steady rhythm. One hand held a tin of soft lead pencils; two shaded in the branches of a glass tree, another dabbed color onto a tiny bunny perched mid-leap on a mushroom. Her bottom left hand rested on her lap, idly picking at a snag in her leggings. It was the most peaceful she had felt in days.

She was so focused on the linework that she didn’t notice the other woman approaching until Laura’s reflections shimmered in the pool, ghosting against the false stars.

“I didn’t mean to scare you,” Laura said, her two voices gentle in perfect unison.

Emi startled anyway, a pencil slipping from her upper left hand and rolling into the moss. She scrambled for it, more embarrassed than alarmed. “You didn’t,” she lied, eyes flicking up to meet Laura’s reflections in the water.

On both bodies, Laura’s hair was loose, still damp at the ends, and the breeze caught it so it fanned out around their faces. She wore jeans and a green hoodie that looked at least two sizes too large on both figures, the sleeves swallowing her hands. Laura didn’t look angry. She didn’t look volatile. She looked… small. Contained. Like someone trying not to spill.

Her gaze wasn’t on Emi at first. It traveled upward, following the refracted light through the glass trunks. Both faces tilted back slowly, identically, tracking the way the color shifted from blue to gold to something almost violet at the canopy.

“Mildred said you were here,” Laura murmured. “I didn’t know this place existed.” She took a cautious step closer to the water, watching how her reflection split and rejoined in the ripples. “It’s like the island remembered something and decided to keep it.” The air seemed to settle around her—as if the Forest recognized its own.

“Couldn’t sleep?” Emi asked, tucking her knees to her chest.

Laura considered the question—both forms tilting in identical fashion—then shrugged with both sets of shoulders. “I didn’t try.” A faint breath left her. “After yesterday, I didn’t really feel like closing my eyes.”

Emi understood immediately. Marissa. The apologies. The way Laura had looked afterward—not explosive, just hollowed out.

“It’s nice here in the morning,” Laura added. She stayed standing, two forms side by side, hands buried in the pockets of that oversized hoodie, watching the light spread over the water.

Emi waited, expecting Laura to say more—to announce the real reason she was here, to make a joke about the six arms, to suggest they head back inside. But both Lauras remained still, staring at the pool, lips slightly parted.

After a while, Emi said, “You can sit, if you want.” She patted the moss beside her, bottom left hand making room on the boulder. “I don’t bite.”

Laura grinned—quick and shy on both faces—but the grin faded almost immediately, like she’d remembered something heavy. Both bodies lowered themselves in perfect sync, sitting close enough that Emi could feel the warmth of their combined presence, but not quite touching. Laura’s eyes kept moving. The trees. The moss. The way the glass fox across the clearing flickered as if mid-step. She was cataloguing it. Grounding herself.

They were quiet for a while. The Forest was never silent: a faint glassy chime from the trees, a hum in the air, the slow, patient drip of water into the pool. Emi worked on her sketch, careful not to crowd Laura’s space, but aware of her every breath. The memory of what happened in the Garden of Glass, its impossibility, still made her hands shake sometimes. But this morning, Laura’s two forms seemed more like themselves: a little awkward, a little proud, eyes hungry for everything.

After a time, Laura spoke, both mouths shaping the words as one. “You know that photo wall in the Dance Hall, the one you and Andy showed me?”

Emi nodded. She had shown it to Laura a few days earlier. The three of them had stood together for almost an hour, picking out faces from the timeline, tracing Andy’s life forward from babyhood to that very moment. Emi remembered the way Laura’s hands had hovered just above the photos, as if she was afraid to smudge them.

“Where did the pictures come from?” Laura asked, eyes fixed on the pool.

Emi shrugged, upper right arm folding across her chest. “I think Claire and Erin asked Arabella for them. Maybe some came from Andy’s mom’s closet. I’m not sure.” She looked at Laura—both forms—curious. “Why?”

Laura smiled, but it didn’t reach her eyes. “I just wonder what it’s like for people, seeing that wall. If it feels like a real history, or just a collection of ghosts.” She watched the reflection of the trees, the way the light shattered around her knuckles. “Does it feel like a life that kept going? Or like a shrine?”

Emi considered, then said, “It made it more real for me. The years I missed, the things that happened when I wasn’t looking… it’s all there.”

Laura looked at her own hands, thumb tracing the curve of her knuckle. The other body mirrored the movement exactly, two pairs of fingers splayed in a nervous, self-soothing fan. “He smiled more back then,” she said. “I didn’t remember.”"

The words hung, and Emi felt the sting of them—a small, clean wound. Laura didn’t sound like she was fishing for reassurance. She sounded like she was taking inventory of damage.

“Do you remember,” Laura went on, “the last time we all did something together? Before the footbridge?”

Emi thought back, her lower left hand going still on the sketchbook. She knew what Laura meant: not the accidental meet-ups or brief crossings, but the *last* time, before the sharp edges of adolescence started slicing them apart. “I think it was the fireflies,” Emi said. “You made us chase them until midnight.”

Laura’s mouth curved. “My mom was waiting on the porch. She looked tired. She was always tired.”

Emi nodded. That was true.

“She wasn’t mad,” Laura went on quietly. “She didn’t really do mad. Just… sad. Or quiet.” Both shoulders lifted and fell. “I think I learned my anger somewhere else.”

Emi swallowed. Laura’s father hovered in the conversation.

Laura laughed, but only a little. “She was always worried. You were the only one she liked.”

Emi shrugged, a four-handed gesture. “I was quiet. Moms like quiet.” She glanced at Laura, then away, then back again. “Do you wish things had been different?”

Laura drew her knees closer. “After I died,” she said, and the phrase was so matter-of-fact it made Emi’s breath hitch, “did people move on? Or did it just… calcify?”

Emi went very still. She felt the fork in the path. The easy answer. The soft one. The one that would let Laura go back inside still fragile but intact. She could lie. She was good at lying gently. But something pressed at the base of her skull, a quiet insistence. Not loud, or cruel. Just certain. Tell her. Emi’s hands tightened on the sketchbook. The instinct wasn’t hers. Or not entirely. It felt like the same thing that had nudged her into Marissa’s dream. The same spark that sometimes hummed loudest here in the Forest. It scared her, a little—that certainty. Because she could see how thin Laura still was beneath the surface. How easily the wrong word might send her spiraling back into apology and self-punishment.

Laura was watching the water, not Emi. Both of her reflections wavered in the pool, two shapes trying to align with a past that would never quite match.

“No one moved on,” Emi said, softly. “Not really.” The words hung, crystalline. “You were the first person in our school to die that young. There were assemblies, counselors, people bringing casseroles, flowers. But it wasn’t normal. Not for months. Maybe not ever.”

Laura’s lips parted, but she didn’t speak. Her fingers pressed into the moss beside her, bracing.

Emi closed her sketchbook, hands folding around it like a shield. “I didn’t see Andy much after that. I didn’t really try, I was hurting too much and I remembered our fight, you understand. But also… I think I reminded him of you. So I watched from the side.” She picked at the corner of the paper, not meeting Laura’s gaze. “He stopped coming to school for a while. Then when he came back, he was… empty. He didn’t hang out with anyone, didn’t do clubs or sports. He just went home, did homework, and waited for time to pass.” Emi’s voice grew quieter with every word. “Sometime I’d look out of the window and see him standing across the street from your house. As if he hoped you’d come out, if only he waited long enough. People said he was depressed, but it was more than that. He wasn’t there, not really. Like someone cut the cord.”

Saying it out loud felt like reopening something she had carefully sealed years ago. She half-expected the Forest to protest. But the Forest was so silent that even the glass trees seemed to lean in, listening.

“I heard from Marissa,” Emi went on, “that his parents tried everything. Therapy, tutors, doctors. Nothing helped.” She risked a glance at Laura, whose expression was flat, unreadable. Contained, like she was filing each sentence into a mental ledger. “I’m sorry. You probably didn’t want to hear all this.”

Laura shook her head. “I asked.” Her voice didn’t tremble. That steadiness frightened Emi more than tears would have.

Emi nodded. “He did get better. A year later, he started to come back. Not all the way, but enough to pass for normal. People forgot, eventually. They always do. But Andy never did. Even after college, even after the startup, he was always—” She stopped, searching for a word. “Lonely, I guess.” She hesitated. “I wasn’t really… myself, back then. But I remember when my parents sent me the link to the news that Andy had sold Aural. There was a picture of him there, and even though he seemed normal, I could see it in his eyes. The loneliness.”

The word felt inadequate. It had been more than loneliness. It had been a space carved out and left empty on purpose.

Laura sat with it. Both bodies stilled, as if a wind had caught and held them in place. She didn’t seem to breathe for a long time. The pools, the stars, even Emi’s six hands—all were suspended, waiting for a verdict.

“Did they blame me?” Laura asked, not looking up. Her voice was as small as Emi had ever heard it. “Did Andy’s parents think I… ruined him?” There it was. Not self-destruction. Self-indictment.

Emi shook her head, upper right hand pressing gently to the back of Laura’s sleeve. “No. Never. They only ever blamed themselves, or the world, or fate. They thought you were the best thing that ever happened to Andy. To their whole family.” Emi remembered Andy’s mother’s eyes at the funeral—red, hollow, but never angry. Just broken in a quiet way. Laura needed that detail.

Laura’s chin dipped, and the other body mirrored the motion, folding in on itself. For a moment, Emi worried Laura might actually break, that this was the last truth she could handle. The spark inside Emi held steady, but her stomach twisted. Had she misjudged? But then Laura drew a slow, steady breath and **** herself upright. Both bodies, at once.

“I was always so angry,” she said, wiping her face on her sleeve. “And those last two days, I remember being angry at Andy, at Chloe, at everyone.” She swallowed. “But I never wanted anyone else to get hurt.“ She didn’t sound defensive. She sounded like someone presenting evidence in her own trial. She added, “And now I keep thinking maybe I was bad for him. Maybe I always have been.”

“You weren’t bad for him, Laura,” Emi said, insistent. The spark aligned with her now, not pushing her but reinforcing her. “You were his light. That’s why it hurt so much when you were gone.”

Laura’s gaze didn’t lift from her own reflections in the water. She heard the words. She simply didn’t accept their conclusion.

“That’s not how it works,” Laura said quietly. “If I was light, I wouldn’t have burned everything down.” Emi opened her mouth to protest, but Laura continued. “I got angry because I thought he betrayed me. I got angry because Chloe kissed him. I got angry because I thought everyone was laughing at me.” Both bodies watched their reflections ripple. “And then I ran. And I dragged him with me. And I died.”

The Forest felt tighter somehow, the air thinner.

Laura wasn’t spiraling. She was constructing a narrative. “My dad got angry like that,” she went on, almost thoughtfully. “Not loud at first. Just… controlled. Certain he was right.” Her jaw tightened. “If that’s where it came from, then it’s mine too. Maybe I just dressed it up prettier.”

Emi’s stomach dropped. “That’s not the same thing,” she said quickly. “You’re not him.”

Laura didn’t argue. That frightened Emi more than anything. “Maybe not,” Laura said. “But if his anger hurt people, and mine hurt people… I don’t get to pretend there isn’t a pattern.”

Silence pooled between them.

“Do you think he’s better now?” Laura asked again, but the question had shifted. “Andy, I mean. Or am I just reopening something that was finally scabbing over?”

Emi hesitated. She could say he needed you. She could say you saved him. But the spark pressed her toward truth, not comfort. “He was functioning,” Emi said carefully. “He built things. He succeeded. He smiled.” She swallowed. “But he was still so lonely.”

Laura absorbed that, and Emi prayed it was as romance, not as confirmation. “So he learned to live without me,” she said. “And now I’m back, and he has to relearn everything.”

Emi winced, and shook her head. “He chose this. He chose you.”

Laura nodded once. “That doesn’t mean it’s good for him.”

There it was. The thesis. Emi reached out with one hand, resting it on Laura’s sleeve. “You didn’t ruin him.” Laura finally looked at her, both faces. There was no hysteria in her eyes. No collapse. Just a quiet, terrible certainty.

“I didn’t mean to,” she said. “That’s worse.”

Emi felt the spark falter—not because it was wrong to tell her, but because this was the cost of it.

Laura stared at her reflection again. “If I hadn’t been so jealous, so angry, I wouldn’t have run to that bridge,” she said. “If I hadn’t run, I wouldn’t have fallen. If I hadn’t fallen, he wouldn’t have spent sixteen years in mourning.”

Each sentence was calm. Sequential. Clean. She was building a straight line from anger to **** to Andy’s loneliness.

Emi tried one last time. “You also jumped in after him. You also saved him.”

Laura’s mouth twitched. “I always did both,” she said. “That’s the problem.”

The air was so clear it felt fragile, like one wrong word would shatter it. Laura’s two bodies huddled a little closer, consolidating. Like she was gathering herself into something smaller and tighter. Emi set her sketchbook aside and reached out—six hands, slow and careful—resting them against Laura’s shoulders, her backs, her arms. Neither of Laura’s selves leaned into the touch. But she didn’t pull away either.

“I’m sorry you didn’t get to see what came after,” Emi said softly. “You would have liked some of it.”

Laura gave a soft, humorless breath. “Maybe,” she said. “Or maybe I would have found a way to break that too.”

They sat like that for a long time. The Forest hummed around them, indifferent. After a while, Laura straightened, both bodies rising in perfect unison. She wiped her nose and looked at Emi. There was something in her eyes — not hope. Resolve. But not the healthy kind.

“Can we walk?” she asked.

Emi nodded. “Of course.”

They moved forward together, not touching. Laura’s steps were measured. Controlled. Emi realized, with a sinking feeling, that Laura hadn’t been comforted. She had been confirmed.

At the edge of the Forest, Emi tore the drawing from her sketchbook and handed it to Laura. Laura traced the lines with her finger, lips pressed tight. When she folded it and tucked it into her hoodie, it felt less like a keepsake—and more like evidence.

“Thank you,” Laura said. She sounded steady. Too steady. Emi nodded, watching her go. When she was out of sight, Emi brought her hands to her face and wept.


The bedroom was silent except for the soft clatter of a pen, the tick of the ceiling fan, and the distant shriek of tropical birds through the half-open window. Room 5 was the smallest in the hotel, barely more than a king bed and a chair, but it was always where Claire felt most at home. It was the room she and Marissa had shared during the very first round, when none of them truly knew what to expect. She liked the simplicity: the cold linens, the sunlight painting exact rectangles on the driftwood floor, the slow creep of dust motes through the air. It was a room that didn’t expect conversation, only that you keep it company.

Marissa was sitting on the edge of the bed, her posture perfect, hands folded on her lap. She wore a navy tank top and slate yoga pants, as if she’d dressed for the possibility of a run, or a disaster, or a surprise audit. Claire watched her for a while, not writing, not signaling, just letting the scene play out. The therapist’s presence was strong enough to fill the room, but today it felt smaller, contained. Not diminished, just... filtered, like sunlight through frosted glass.

They’d been sitting in silence for a few minutes. This was not unusual. Claire had learned that Marissa never said anything until she was ready, and that sometimes, the waiting was the thing that mattered.

At last, Marissa exhaled and looked at Claire, her blue eyes not quite meeting Claire’s own but settling just over her left shoulder, as if Marissa was keeping watch for an incoming threat.

“I was never good at apologies,” Marissa said. Her voice was a gentle near-whisper, and for an instant Claire felt the faint, familiar pulse that always accompanied Marissa’s speech: that hypnotic, involuntary charge, the arousal that lurked beneath the surface of every word. But today, it was muted. Maybe it was the hour, maybe it was the melancholy in Marissa’s posture. Or maybe Claire had just gotten used to it.

She shook her head, offering a tiny smile that said: please, go on.

Marissa’s lips curled. “You don’t have to humor me. I’m not here to hide, I’m here because I wanted to be.” She stretched her legs, flexing her bare toes against the carpet. “But I think I owe you an explanation, at the very least.”

Claire tapped her pen, waiting.

Marissa looked out the window, then back at her hands. “Yesterday was supposed to be simple. I hadn’t expected to see her like that, but I thought it’d be easy enough to follow the pattern. Step one, make peace. Step two, clean break. Step three, everyone moves on.” Her smile was bitter, self-aware. “Except I must have lost the script, somewhere, because it doesn’t feel like that.”

She paused, letting the self-indictment land.

“I’m not proud of it,” Marissa continued, softer now. “But when I saw her—when I saw how small she was, how unsure—I remembered being thirteen, and wanting so badly to be the one who had the answers. Even if I didn’t.” Her voice caught, just once. “And I realized that I’d spent my whole life since then trying to be a person who could fix anything, for anyone, except myself.”

Claire watched, nodding, but not writing. It seemed wrong to interrupt. She wanted Marissa to keep going, and the best way to do that was to let her think she was still in control.

They sat for a while with only the hush of distant birds for company. Claire watched the way Marissa’s toes flexed, the faint pulse at her throat. It wasn’t her job to fix Marissa, and she knew better than to try.

“I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do now,” Marissa said at last. “My role here has always been to keep things together. To patch the cracks, to make everyone believe the next day will be easier.” She gave a dry, self-mocking laugh. “That’s what therapists do, right? We manufacture hope.”

Claire tilted her head, the way Samson Drei did when he didn’t quite follow. She liked to think she had more dignity about it, but the effect was the same: What do you want?

Marissa tapped her heel on the floor, a staccato that betrayed nerves she never let anyone else see. “After the fight at the 88 Club, I thought I’d be the grown-up. But I exploded. I shouted at Laura. I wanted her to feel guilty.” The confession was a whisper, but it didn’t lessen the charge of the words. “And when I saw her in the gardens, I expected a meltdown. Or an argument. But instead, she apologized to me.” Her voice was tired, and this time, Claire felt a flutter low in her gut—the pulse of Marissa’s transformation, that undercurrent of arousal. It was not the main event, just an undertone that made everything more vivid, more real.

“It’s strange,” Marissa continued, picking at a thread on the hem of her pants. “Yesterday, after Laura and I talked, I didn’t feel better. I felt tired.” She gave a short, dry laugh. “I don’t know who I am if I’m not the one holding the net.”

Claire rested her chin on her fist, tail swishing idly. She offered a small, slow nod, ears tipped forward in careful attention.

Marissa’s gaze moved to the far wall. She didn’t seem to notice. “She’s still angry, you know. Not at me, I think. Not really. At herself. I think… I think she blames herself for Andy’s pain.” Marissa rubbed her eyes, as if she could scrub away the tiredness. “I’m supposed to help with that. But now, it feels like helping would just make it worse.” Her breath came out in a tight, trembling rush. “So what do I do?”

For a long moment, Marissa didn’t say anything after her question. She pressed her palms together, rolled her eyes up to the ceiling, and let the hush take over the room. Claire saw the effort it took, the way Marissa’s fingers whitened at the knuckle and her breath quickened ever so slightly, a metronome speeding up when she was nervous.

Claire waited, pen resting on her thigh, tail curled around her ankle in a show of patience.

At last, Marissa found the thread. “I think maybe,” she said, “I’m supposed to not do anything.” She grinned, all teeth, and there was a note of self-mockery, as if she were daring herself to believe it. “Maybe I’m supposed to let Laura do her own repair work, and just… be available if she wants to talk.”

She let her hands drop to her lap, shoulders slumping. “I don’t like it, but it feels right.”

Claire nodded, just once, in solidarity.

Marissa looked at Claire, really looked, and then shook her head in disbelief. “You’ve grown a lot, Claire,” she said. “It’s amazing. You—” she gestured, almost helpless, “you wait. And you listen. And you don’t try to help me fix it.” The words, for all their gentleness, sent a subtle tingle down Claire’s spine, that familiar current, but she was practiced now at ignoring it, or at least redirecting it into the quiet hum of her limbs.

“My mentor was like that,” Marissa mused, her smile growing bittersweet. “I told myself I’d never do it that way, that I’d be the kind who gave you a cheat sheet. But every time we met, she just waited, and I ended up telling her everything. Even the stuff I swore I’d never say out loud.”

Claire tapped her pen, then wrote:

It’s not hard to listen to you. You always make sense.

Marissa saw the words, and for the first time that morning, her smile was genuine. “Thank you,” she said. “I don’t always feel like I make sense. Especially lately. With the transformations, and the Laura thing, and Andy being, you know, Andy.”

She trailed off, eyes flicking to the window, as if the answer was out there somewhere. Then she startled, as if she’d remembered something important.

“I’m sorry,” she said. “I didn’t even ask how you’re doing. I’ve been monopolizing the air.”

Claire shrugged. She wrote: I’m okay, but I worried about you.

Marissa’s brow furrowed, surprised. “Why? I thought I was hiding it pretty well.”

You seemed tired, Claire wrote. And then, after a pause: You helped me when I needed it. I should have helped you.

Marissa’s eyes glistened at the edges, but she didn’t break. “Claire. That’s not how it works. You don’t have to save me. I should’ve just asked for help. That’s what grown-ups do, right? They ask.” She laughed, then scrubbed her hands through her hair, dislodging a few wisps from her perfectly controlled knot. “I don’t think I’ve ever asked for help in my life.”

She let that hang. Then, softly, “I think I’d like to start.”

Claire nodded, writing quickly: I’m here for you. Whatever you need.

Marissa blinked at the page, then reached out and squeezed Claire’s hand, the pressure warm and steady. The touch was quick, but it lingered, as if neither wanted to be the first to let go.

“Thank you,” Marissa said, her voice suddenly thick. She pulled her hand back, looked down, and started to speak, then shook her head, changing her mind. “Would it be weird if we just sat here for a while?” she said. “I don’t want to go yet.”

Claire shook her head, not at all.

They sat side by side on the edge of the bed, not talking, not writing, just letting the sunlight creep across the floor. Claire watched the way Marissa’s toes curled and uncurled, the way her breathing slowed, as if she was finally, for the first time since the argument at the 88 Club, letting herself rest.

At length, Marissa said, “It’s funny. For years, I tried to teach people to forgive themselves for the little things. But I never once did it for me.” She looked at Claire, her gaze so direct it was almost an embrace. “You think maybe that’s what this place is for? Just… learning to let go of the guilt?”

Claire considered, then nodded. She wrote: Maybe it’s about finding people who help you do it.

Marissa’s lips parted, and she let out a breathless, startled laugh. “God, you’re good,” she said. “You should be the therapist. I should’ve known.” She wiped at her eyes, then straightened her shoulders, more herself than she’d been in days.

She hesitated, then said, “Do you want to know what Laura and I argued about? I feel like I owe you that, at least.”

Claire nodded, but it was a gentle curiosity, not hunger.

Marissa’s face changed, growing still. “She thinks she ruined Andy. That her anger, her ****, made him hollow, and that he’ll never really be able to fully heal from that. She’s convinced her return is just re-opening the wound. She’s—” Marissa stopped, fighting to keep her voice level. “She’s wrong, but I didn’t know how to convince her. I wanted to say it’d be fine, but I don’t think that’s true. I think he’s better with her, but I think the pain never leaves.”

She shook her head, almost laughing. “That’s what we argued about. Whether people can ever really heal, or just get better at hiding the scars.”

Claire sat with that. Then she wrote: I think healing is just loving someone anyway, scars and all.

Marissa let the words soak in. “Maybe,” she said. “Maybe that’s all it ever is.”

She turned to face Claire, her whole focus now on the smaller woman. “How are you holding up with Laura back? It must be weird.”

Claire’s tail stilled. She considered, then wrote: I don’t know. She still scares me, a little. But I want her to be happy. And I like her. I want her to be part of this.

Marissa nodded. “I think she feels the same. She just doesn’t know how to say it.”

Claire frowned, remembering something, and scribbled rapidly.

I said something wrong to her, last week. I tried to help, but I made it worse. She looked at me like I was a ghost. I don’t know how to fix it.

Marissa read, then covered Claire’s hand with her own again. “You don’t have to fix everything, Claire. You really don’t. Everyone makes mistakes.” She smiled, a little more wry. “You’ve done more for this group than anyone else. Even Andy. If you need proof, look at that damn photo wall in the Dance Hall. That was your idea, right?”

Claire blushed, nodding.

“Everyone loves it. Even the people who pretend they don’t. It’s a timeline, but it’s also a way of making the memories real. You gave them back to him.”

The praise, spoken in Marissa’s warm, velvet tone, buzzed through Claire’s body like a shot of very good bourbon. Her cheeks tingled, and she felt her pulse in her tail, her wrists, her thighs. She made a note to herself to remember this feeling the next time she doubted her value.

Marissa withdrew her hand, gently. “I think,” she said, voice low, “I want to do something for everyone. Not just for me. Not just for Laura or Andy. Something that reminds all of us that we’re more than our mistakes.”

She stood, and for a moment the sunlight caught her hair, turning the gray-blond into a halo. “Thank you,” she said again, and this time it was final. She touched Claire’s shoulder as she left, a silent blessing.

When the door closed behind her, the room felt lighter. Claire sat there, basking in the sunlight, letting herself feel the warmth of it, and the echo of Marissa’s words. She flipped her notebook to a fresh page, wrote two words in neat, careful script, and underlined them twice:

Good Enough.

She closed the notebook, hugged it to her chest, and exhaled. Then she got up, and made her way to the Sky Archive to start today’s work.


The Sky Archive was empty but for the faint, persistent crackle of the morning wind at the eaves and the sound of pages being turned, one by one, by a pair of careful, ink-stained fingers. Claire sat in the usual place: the northern alcove, far from the grand staircase and the ever-swirling main gallery, her notebook open on the little brass table beside her. The diary she was reading—Jaufre’s diary, the Provençal one Anna had all but dared her to investigate—rested in her lap, its leather soft with age, its title long faded into the color of old tea.

She’d been reading it for… well, did it matter? Time in the Archive was tricky, never quite moving the way it was supposed to.

Today, the text of the diary was in English. She was sure of it. The sentences marched along the lines with a rhythm that was old-fashioned but perfectly legible: I dreamt of her again, beneath the olive boughs, her hands the color of buckwheat and her voice softer than the bells at sunrise. I awoke with the taste of salt on my tongue. Sometimes a whole paragraph would revert to Provençal, then, on the next page, be back in English again. Claire wasn’t sure if she should be alarmed, or just pleased.

She made a note of this in her notebook, under the column labeled “Shift Events”:

— Jaufre Diary: Alternates between Provençal and English. Possibly linked to observer, or to Sky Archive itself?

She was halfway through copying out a particularly haunting passage—something about the “doorway of souls” and a place called “the First Gate”—when a distant echo of footsteps reached her ears, bouncing from far below up through the hollowed-out core of the Archive. She tensed, then relaxed; only one person stomped like that, all bravado and impatience, like she was daring the world to stop her from getting where she wanted to go.

Erin, green and glorious, appeared at the head of the stairs a minute later, completely nude but for her trusty, battered pair of trail runners and the scrapes of dirt on her shins. The light from the dome overhead rendered her skin almost silver. She stood in the threshold, fists on her hips, and scanned the room. She locked onto Claire and strode over, each step an act of muscle and momentum. She didn’t bother to lower her voice; privacy in the Archive was an illusion, anyway.

“Hey, Catgirl. Is now a bad time?”

Claire shook her head, dog-earing the page before setting the diary aside. She offered a small, tight smile—Erin always liked being the first to break the silence. She waved to the empty seat at her table.

Erin dropped into the chair with a whoosh, then slumped forward, forearms bracketing the edges of the table. She eyed the open notebook, the neat columns and cross-references. “You working on the master plan again?”

Claire grinned, then scribbled:

Not a plan. Just a list. I like knowing what’s real and what’s not.

Erin snorted. “This place? Good luck.” She glanced at the diary, then at Claire, eyebrow raised. “Is that the one Emi found?”

Claire nodded, then wrote: Anna said it might help. Not sure if she meant me, Emi, or everyone. It’s in English now.

Erin blinked, reached for the diary, flipped a few pages, then squinted. “Didn’t you say this was in English now?”

Claire nodded, reached over, and pointed to the passage she’d been copying. It was in English. Erin looked at it, then frowned. “You’re kidding me,” she said. “This is in French. Or Latin. Or whatever the hell.” She jabbed at the text. “Look, right here—‘la pòrta deis ànimas.’ That’s not English.”

Claire blinked. She leaned in, read the line, and, to her shock, saw that it was, indeed, not English. It was in the same Provençal she’d struggled with yesterday, and yet she could swear, swear on her mother’s ash-blonde head, that she’d been reading it in plain English all morning. Her pulse spiked. She flipped back three pages, expecting to see the neat, familiar lines, and found a wash of ink—half the words now blurred, some of them legible only if she squinted and guessed at the vowels. When she tried the passage she’d copied, it was still there, but now the meaning had to be dug for, like water from a dry well.

She looked up, pen trembling, and wrote: It keeps changing. Every time I look, it’s different.

Erin whistled. “That’s fucked.” She sounded almost impressed. “You writing that down? Could be important.” She flexed her hands, then **** herself to settle, like she was consciously taming the urge to take over the conversation. She watched Claire jot the new entry in her notebook.

For a moment, Erin seemed content to let the silence bloom. She watched the floating books, her gaze tracing the impossible heights of the Archive’s domed ceiling. Finally, she said, “What does it say? Anything useful?”

Claire hesitated. She glanced at the notebook, then wrote:

A lot about longing, regret. Some stuff about a promise, and a woman Jaufre couldn’t save. There’s a dream he has with a woman he doesn’t know, and he talks about a First Gate, like a door for souls. I get the feeling not all souls, though. Angels? Jaufre was very religious, so it’s hard to understand.

Erin scanned the line, then huffed out a short laugh. “Figures.” She watched Claire for a moment, then grew still, the mask of bravado slipping for the first time since she’d arrived.

Claire picked up on it immediately. She set the notebook down and let her ears lean forward, her body language telegraphing: You okay?

Erin was quiet, almost shy. She cleared her throat, then said, “Andy said something, a few days ago.” She looked up, trying for a grin and failing. “He said he thinks my missing cycle isn’t from the plant thing. He thinks it’s—” she stopped, then shook her head. “Never mind. It’s probably nothing.”

Claire’s tail froze. She’d been waiting for this, for someone to bring it up. She picked up the pen, tapped it against her palm, then wrote: Do you know how late?

Erin’s cheeks went pale green. She looked away, then down at the table. “Like, three weeks, maybe a month? I wasn’t keeping track, but I’m sure Andy was. He always does, apparently. Guess that’s what you get for dating a guy who could probably recite the last five years of his own bowel movements.” She tried to laugh, but it didn’t stick.

Claire nodded, then flipped to a different page in her notebook. She wrote:

I’ve been keeping track for you. I thought maybe you’d want to know, when you were ready.

Erin’s head jerked up. “You have?”

Claire slid the notebook over. She’d been running a separate log: Erin—Day 31: First day skipped. Day 32: Second day, skipped. Day 33: Third day, skipped. No further mention of menstrual blood loss. Day 60: First day, skipped. Day 61: Second day, skipped. Day 62: Third day, skipped. And on, in careful handwriting, each entry marked with a subtle symbol for mood, energy, appetite. She’d started the log for herself, a way of finding patterns in the chaos, but it had felt right to add Erin, too. A safety net, in case anyone wanted the evidence later. She pointed out to the day 60-62 dates. These were the last few days. Your cycle was due to come during the days of Dawn’s, Norah’s, and Emily’s date nights. You said you were always regular.

Erin stared at the notebook, her hands suddenly unsteady. “You’re sure?”

Claire nodded, and wrote:

I track everyone’s cycle if I know when it happens. You’re late by 32 days, and you were already late before the plant transformation. Based on your time with Andy, I speculate you became pregnant either during our threesome on Chloe’s first date day, or when he had you in the Suite just after the Au Natural transformation. She paused. So am I. I was due for my cycle on Day 35, but it didn’t come. I used a contraceptive on the previous date night, so I must have become pregnant when we had that threesome.

Erin let out a sound that was almost a whimper. She pressed her knuckles into her mouth, teeth gritted, and for a moment, Claire was afraid she’d start to cry. But Erin didn’t break. She **** herself to breathe, then squared her shoulders. “Could it be a transformation thing?” she asked, voice thin as ice. “I mean, the plant thing, or even the cat-girl thing, maybe it just—”

Claire shook her head, writing fast:

Transformations that alter fertility or cycle always say so. I checked. Yours doesn’t. Also, you were given the Green Thumb transfromation on Day 39 and you already had skipped your cycle once then.

She hesitated, then wrote:

I’ve watched every season. When they want to change something big like that, they’re explicit about it unless it's to make the girl more fertile. She underlined MORE.

Erin stared, green skin gone almost white around her lips. She ran a hand through her hair—auburn, streaked with gold now, like new growth in the sun—and blinked hard. “You think I’m—” She didn’t finish.

Claire waited, then nodded. She wrote: If you are, you’re not alone.

Erin made a strangled laugh, her arms hugging her chest. “This is insane,” she said. “We’ve only been here a couple months. Isn’t that, like, impossible? Don’t people try for months, and that’s with trying hard, tracking cycles, all that stuff?”

Claire reached out, hand gentle on Erin’s wrist. She waited for Erin to look up, then wrote: You and Andy had your first night just over a week after we arrived. We’ve all been consistent. It’s possible. More than possible.

She hesitated, then scribbled: I think we should ask Arabella.

Erin grimaced, but then nodded. “Yeah. You’re right. Better to know.” She pressed her lips together, gathering herself, then **** a weak smile. “He’ll probably flip out.”

Claire considered, then wrote: He'll be happy. You know that, right?

Erin looked up, surprised. "I do. I mean, I think I do. But…" Her gaze drifted toward the Archive window, where the garden was visible. Her eyes widened suddenly, fingers tensing against the table edge. "God. Laura. She already lost sixteen years with him. And now I'm—" She pressed her palm against her still-flat stomach. "She'll hate me. Or worse, she'll smile and pretend it's fine while dying inside."

Claire followed Erin's gaze, her tail twitching with anxiety. She wrote: There's no right thing. It's okay to be scared.

They sat in the hush of the Archive, surrounded by shelves and shelves of stories, all the lives that had ever been written or dreamed. Erin's hands shook on the table. Claire watched her, then made a decision.

She wrote, in neat careful letters: You want me to come with you? We should ask Arabella together.

Erin nodded, fast, as if afraid she’d change her mind. She wiped her nose with the back of her hand, then looked at Claire and managed a smile. “Yeah. I want that.” She pushed her chair back, stood, then hesitated.

Claire rose, too, closing her notebook with a small, decisive snap. She tucked it under her arm, then gestured to Erin, leading the way. As they left the alcove, the floating books bobbed in their wake, as if bowing them out.

They walked side by side toward the garden level, the stairs echoing with each step. Claire glanced at Erin, who kept glancing at her feet, at the floor, anywhere but forward. Claire reached out, gently, and laced her fingers through Erin’s.

Erin squeezed back, her grip solid and fierce.


By the time Chloe found Andy, the lunch crowd was just beginning to ebb, and the corridors of the hotel had taken on their familiar in-between quiet: not silence, but a hush underpinned by faint echoes—laughter leaking through the doors of the gym, a rolling cart wheeled by Mildred, and, somewhere far off, the bray of a blender in the hands of a determined Dawn.

Chloe paused at the mouth of the corridor, catching her breath and running floury hands down the front of her apron. The fabric was lemon-yellow and as old as her teaching certificate, but today it was covered in the stigmata of her efforts: splotches of almond paste, a smear of cinnamon, dust from a mountain of sifted flour. Her hair, which she'd wound into a hasty braid hours ago, was losing its battle with gravity. She didn't care. If anything, the mess felt like armor—a way of keeping the world soft while she prepared to do something brave. She took off the apron and draped it on a chair.

She hovered for a moment, checking her reflection in the glass of the vending machine—her nose was still white at the bridge, a mark of her carelessness. She rubbed it away with the heel of her palm, then looked down at her hands. She'd been steady all morning, but now her fingers jittered, tapping out a staccato on her apron that would have driven her old pet Clementine into a full panic attack. The guinea pig would have bolted under the couch by now.

Chloe’s right hand strayed to her belly, then she caught herself. Chloe closed her hands into loose fists, inhaled, and moved.

She found Andy by the elevator, leaning against the steel with a book in his hand. He wore the slightly bemused expression of a man waiting for something he couldn't name; maybe time to pass, maybe the arrival of someone more interesting. He looked… worried.

Chloe stopped a pace away, not trusting herself to get closer without reaching for him. “Hey,” she said. Her voice was steadier than she expected.

Andy snapped out of his worry, closing the book and looking up at her with a warmth that went straight to the back of her knees. He smiled. “Hey, Chloe. You look…” He blinked, then grinned, as if the right word had been swapped at the last second. “Like you won a fight with a pastry chef. And lost.”

Chloe stuck out her tongue, her nerves dissolving a little. “You should see the kitchen. It’s a war zone. But it was worth it, I think.” She twisted the hem of her apron, feeling her heartbeat drum through the cotton. “Can you come with me? I have something to show you.” She hesitated, then added, “I mean, if you’re not busy—”

“I’m not busy,” Andy said, closing the gap. He wiped his hand on his jeans, as if worried about transferring whatever invisible library dust might have lingered there, then took her by the wrist with a gentle, sure pressure. “Lead the way.”

The touch, so casual and unforced, did something to Chloe’s composure. For a moment, she was thirteen again, breathless and certain that the next step forward was either the beginning of everything or a disaster she’d never recover from. She squeezed his hand, then let it go, walking ahead of him toward the main doors.

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