Some Clarity

I'm all cleaned up and dried off. The only thing I didn't do is my hair. It's clean but it's a mess. I put on the pink terry cloth robe Juan left hanging on the hook on the outside of the door and it is ohh soo comfortable. By the sound of the downstairs cuckoo clock it's half past midnight. Selena is sitting on an antique stuffed chair near to the fireplace as Juan puts some fresh logs on the fire. She's dressed in a long black silk and lace see through nightgown.

"Will there be anything else you require this evening Mistress?" She looks over at me before answering and I shake my head no." No Juan thank you. You may retire for the evening. Before I go to sleep for the day I will write out the day's instructions for you to follow and leave the list on the kitchen table as always." He bows then responds. "Thank you Mistress have a good evening." She nods and Juan disappears I assume to his quarters.

Selena motions for me to sit in the chair opposite her near the fireplace. The flickering fire providing the only light in the room. While I love the feeling of warmth the fire gives off it is kind of strange to have one in the beginning of summer when it's so warm out.

"Are you beginning to accept your new reality dear." How to answer that. I had looked at my face in the bathroom mirror after my shower and tried to look for any differences. Other than my skin being lighter and of course the fangs I saw when I opened my mouth I saw no difference. It hasn't fully sunk in yet what I've become. There is one thing above all else that bothers me, well I don't know if bothers me is the correct word for it. I just can't get it out of my mind. I decide to just blurt it out and ask." Selena, the man I killed , who was he? Will I always have to kill?"

She gives me a benevolent smile." You're a lot like I was when I was first turned from the light. I too had....issues about killing. To answer your first question I have no idea who that man was. Of course I could lie and tell you he was a murderer and/ or a **** but I honestly don't know. Kevin, another one of servants picked him out. I didn't ask him the details as to why. As for your second question. This evening being your first feeding yes. You needed to drain him completely to satisfy your hunger. It depends on how long you go between feeding. If you feed say, twice a month you won't have to kill. Unlike in the movies there are no marks left behind on the victim after we feed, no puncture wounds left behind. They completely heal once we finish feeding. That prevents them from going to the authorities and reporting us. After all what proof do they have." She giggles than continues. "Although in your case they can always point at their crushed testicles and complain that you castrated them. You're like me, a nutcracker."

She continues. "What you did by inflicting pain on your victim increased both the taste and for lack of a better phrase nutritional value of his blood. There are three ways of making the blood sweeter and more nutritious. Fear, find some way of increasing the fear factor of feeding off a victim. Some vampires will transform themselves into a monstrous form or use another method to make the victim afraid. Than there are those who like to provide their victims with sexual pleasure only feeding at the moment their victim has an orgasm. Lastly there are those that like to inflict excruciating pain on ther victims like you and I when we crush their balls."

Selena adds. "However most utilize all three methods depending on mood. I've sometimes used fear by transforming myself into a horrible creature. Allow me to demonstrate." She stands up and a split second later she goes from being Selena beautiful woman to being a horrid thing. A drooling demon with the wings of a bat and body of a woman with reddish brown skin, sagging breasts and a flabby belly, the hairy legs and hooves of a goat and muscular arms ending in clawed hands. Claws that look like they could rip through a steel door. And lastly the face of something looking like a cross between a pig and a baboon with glowing red eyes.

She stands in that form for a moment allowing me to take in the sight. I have to be honest. If I were a human and saw that headed in my direction I'd probably shit my pants and be so terrified I wouldn't be able to move.

Just as suddenly she's Selena again." That really gets their adrenaline pumping making the blood ..well... chef's kiss delicious. Once we're settled in to my townhouse in Manhattan I'll show you how to transform yourself into different creatures and yes before you ask you like all of us can turn into a bat."

I actually get a bit of a chuckle out of that. Next I ask about my car explaining about how my parents have probably reported me missing and how the police would respond if they caught me driving it. She tells me to get any personal items I want to keep out of the car tonight and that Juan will despose of it tomorrow. She then shows me where I will be sleeping today until tomorrow night when we leave for Manhattan. It's a finished windowless guest room in her basement with a bed and nightstand along with a dresser. On top of the dresser are my clothes freshly laundered. Again I have to chuckle. I was expecting a coffin.

Selena asks what's so funny and I ask her where the coffin is and she rolls her eyes then answers. "It's in Hollywood. Over the next few days we'll talk more about your new reality. I'll let you get settled in now and clear your car out. Oh and go ahead and have a cigarette while you clean out your car only please open a garage window and let the smoke out." She goes to leave than stops." Oh and go ahead and smoke the weed you have as well and yes it has the same effect on us as it does humans. " with that we head upstairs. Her to the living room and I to the garage. First I take a detour though to the laundry room where I take the robe off before heading out to the garage.