Chicken out

I opened my mouth to speak, but no voice came out. I just sat there indecisively gaping at him and looking like a moron.

"What's going on?" Jamie asked looking confused.

"Nothing sweetie, just lost in my thoughts. How about we find something to watch?"

Having found an acceptable movie, we cuddled up on the couch with our snacks to watch. I didn't catch much of the movie, my mind was elsewhere. In the end I had taken the fourth option like a coward. I would simply continue to cheat on him behind his back. I was hurtling straight towards a cliff, yet I was unable to bring myself to change direction.