Going to go full out.

With coffee in your blood and having conquered such a stressful first day, you are ready to take on the world. You are going to do your best to make something great for Nate, Your not the greatest cook but you're sure you tube will help you figure things out. You in a great mood, still super upbeat and wanting ride this vibe for whats its worth. Besides Nate's been good to you, for the short time you've known each other, you don't want to be the one to break that streak. So with your ear buds in and a 'great foods to impress' playlist you head for the store.

By the time you get there you have settled on a dish that sounds fantastic and you think you could probably manage: Honey Glazed Salmon with Asparagus and apple pie turn overs. It takes you longer than you would like to admit just to find all the ingredients but with the help a super nice, and cute, shopkeeper you are out the door and on your way home with your bounty. [Look to others women as examples, be polite and courteous, Do your best to look cute.]

Once home you start to separate out the ingredients and start looking for cook wear and measuring cups. The how to video playing on repeat in the background.

'This is going to be great!' you think as you open and close the cabinets, when you stumble upon a cute little apron. You imagine Nate naked except for this making you dinner before getting under the table and sucking you off . You decide that is a fantasy you are going to want make a reality. You go to close the cabinet when you almost hear that whisper you haven't quite been able to make out but keep hearing. [Maybe you should wear it, you would look cute too, and your wanting to impress Nate right now, his submission can come later, forget you heard us as normal but let yourself be changed and guided, You want to be the cute subby one for now, give into your self] whatever it is, its just out of hearing, but as you close the door you it might be fun to wear the apron, Nate might get a laugh out of it.

With the cute apron affixed, the cook wear and food ready, you say out loud. "Nothing to it but to do it, how hard can this real cooking thing be?"

'Hard very hard!' You scream into your own mind. "I just had to tempt Murphy!" Its with these thoughts that you hear the front door open and you sink to your knees. You may have been on a roll and in a good mood, winging it may have work on other things in the past, but it seems no amount of a can do attitude will save you from the curse that has afflicted man kind since we figured out fire. Every one messes up their first real home cooked meal. How ironic that you had all these plans for Nate, wanted to sit above her as her Dom, control her life and turn her into a sissy. It would seem you have over estimated your self. This was something Nate could do and make it easy. Not only that but Nate seems to be confident in who she wants to be, with only a few moments of doubt you've seen, she was transforming himself into a sissy before you showed up and all you've done is tease her a bit. Such great Dom material. Yeah right. [You might be getting it, but that doesn't mean you are a failure, it does mean you will need to change your plans, besides don't you want to be cute like Nate. He can help you be better. Look up to Nate, don't look down. Still tease her, she loves that.] Your on the verge of tears, you've been emotional the last few days but you were always and emotional person, its just always been easier to hide to below the surface, The last few days has been way harder, but you feel something shift inside your head, you still want to do things with Nate but don't feel like it would be ok to **** him the way you had planned. That was more of a forceful idea then you would have been OK with normally anyways.

You are trying to regain your cool and salvage the situation when Nate calls out "Jer are you in here? I smell burning." After you hear him closing the front door.

You've not fully gotten off you knees but you've started to turn as you are getting up when Nate see rushing in. You freeze, not only is she cute as ever, she has a look of genuine concern, not anger over what her kitchen had become. "I, uh, I tried to make us some dinner but I'm not sure that's working out the way I had to planned..." You are close to losing your grip and might have started crying is Nate hadn't walked in. [Why try so hard to keep your emotions in, I'm sure she would understand, you can wear your heart on your sleeve with her, your both going to be girls soon after all.]

She steps towards you, eyes going over the room, inspecting the damage. "I can see that, are you OK, what happened?" Nate is now in-front of your form, Still half way between movements. Nate puts a hand on you shoulder and you straighten yourself out and start to stand again.

Your eyes fully lock and in that moment you feel safe enough to not try to sugar coat it and be honest. Its all starts pouring out, you've never lost your composure like this and even as it floods out of your mouth you're freaking out about being this open and raw, hoping you're not scaring Nate away. "The salmon is burnt, I've put out one small fire already, there is smoke in the air. I left the Asparagus AT THE STORE! The only thing I don't think I've managed to ruin is the little apple turnovers and that's because I haven't even started the yet. I wanted to impress you and then talk about our days, maybe flirt for a bit and then have that talk you wanted. Now all I did was ruin the night and almost burn your house down. I even put on this stupid cute apron when I found it cause I thought you would get a kick out of it. How are you so good at this, you made it look so easy?" In a whisper "I'm struggling with everything how do you make it look so easy to do everything.", left unspoken but not un-thought, 'even your kink and femization, you knew you wanted a Dom and you went to find and get one.' A thought strikes you like a core 'After that little break down, I doubt Nate will still want you, the conversation will probably now is how fast can you move out, not to set guild lines for our relationship...' [Not as a Dom, no, but she may still want you, it was better to show this side early, better to show this must soft emotionality before she had any real exceptions of your Dom side. wasn't it nice to get that off your chest, really Nates to nice to get rid of you. You acted like a girl looking for that emotional support maybe you can let her make you one.] Your eyes are wet but not crying, you still feel pathetic, ever memory of every-time someone talked about how tough guys are supposed to be in in your head right now.

Your just waiting for the concern in Nate's eyes to shift to disgust, You have never had a girl or guy look at you the same way anytime your fragile emotional state leaked out. Its why you kept working at it to hid it better. Its been years since it came out this much.

Nate's eyes change but not into disgust but into determination. She hugs you, something you were not expecting or ready for and now you ARE crying. "Don't fret, You look Nice in this apron by the way, very cute, why don't you keep it on. You can walk me through that slower, we can see what we can salvage." She ends by kissing you on the forehead, grabbing your hand, walking to the oven and turning all the heat off. it gives you time to wipe your tears and get back into the moment and ordering your thoughts. "What were you cooking exactly?" she starts while washing her hands getting ready to work this mess out. [See she thinks your cute still, in the apron you thought would be a funny joke too, maybe she will like seeing you in panties too, the more you show her your true self the more hers will come out.]

You explain what you wanted to make, how you thought you could make it work with YouTube walkthroughs and how you even planned to make a dessert. Then explained how you almost burned down the building with your one-man-three-stooge-act.

"Don't be too hard on you self babe, cooking is like sex, every bodies first time is a little embarrassing. We can save about half the fish. Smaller portions are better anyway, I'm watching my figure." she winks at you as she shows you how to cut off the bad portion and is setting up what left to be fried in olive oil with lemon and herbs on top. "There should be some broccoli and salad mix in the fridge, can you bring me the broccoli and then put the salad mix in a bowl on the table. Grab the dressing too." You do as asked, the return to her side. " I'm going to make a simple stir fry out of the fish and the broccoli like this, can you move the dirty dishes to the sink and we can get the dessert started in the oven while we eat." by the time you are done, she has the table set, Nate moves like a dancer around the table and meets you back at the counter with the apple pie turnover supplies. She leads you through the proper way to set them and the oven up and before you know it you are at the table eating delicious food.

You are still stunned how quickly Nate salvaged your mess up but before you can dwell on it too much she has you recounting your day, but being cryptic about hers, only getting a 'had an appointment then went shopping after.' When you first day at the job came up you very much did not tell Nate about your boss catching you in panties or what she said would happen if you were caught too many time. Before you know it the pies are done and you help her plate them and have them at the table. Your pretty sure this would be the best time to have that talk, if she still wanted too. You have your nerve fully back and you try to but your best 'I know what I'm doing and what I want' face on. "So Nate despite everything so far did you want to have that talk? About what we wanted last night to turn into?"

She Locks eyes with you fully and after a few second with you getting nervous you look away. You notice what you did and try to lock eyes again. There is a look on her face you can't quite nail down. [The dynamic has changed, she may still be a femboy or sissy but she will not be a sub to you, you will be hers] Something clicked in your head and you think maybe in hers. You know you don't see yourself the same and she does not see you as before but there is still affection in her eyes and yours. "I still like you, and what I've seen has not changed that, but I see now I may have been putting both of us in a box, I'm sure you figured out I was wanting you to be my Dom while I explored my feminine side, but that may have been too much considering everything you are trying to turn around in your life."

"What do you mean?" comes out in a smaller voice than you meant, yeah you have been doing a lot of work to change things but Nate should only know a little of that.

"Well I was going to keep this part a secret but if we are going to make this work I think I need to tell you, When I first talked to you on the phone my very next call was to a Private Investigator, and I only started to feel comfortable enough to open up at all when I got his preliminary report. Its when I apologized for being stand offish. That was one of the places I went today, To get the updated and finished Dossier. If I was going to trust myself, I needed to know you." You are stunned and seeing this she continues. "The life changes you have made really had me impressed, you really were a wreck and it seems you actually pulled your self out of it. I was more than happy to in-trust my self to someone like that, even if I was going to have safe guards either way, You already felt safe and this made me respect you."

You whisper, "It shouldn't have."

She gives you a look of concern and curiosity then continues "But maybe adding myself onto that wasn't fair to you and would have been too much, I still want to explore who I want to be, with your help, but I would like to propose I take the lead this time. We can lean on each other as needed and have some great fun together, but you won't have to be in charge of anything or lead us. Does that sound good or at least better." The headspace you were in, bracing for the worst comes to a halt. This was not what you were expecting. [but its what you really want, let her lead, be this women's woman] " You OK in there?"

She must have noticed your mind stalling. "YES, I mean I would love to get to spend more time with you like that, I really enjoyed what we did already." you nearly trip over yourself verbally. "But am I boyfriend or Just special friend?"

Nate smiles at you broadly. "I Would like to try Boyfriend but we can change it to special friend if that turns out to fit better" She goes to stand up and motions for you "then help me clean the table and we can take things into the other room. "