You worked hard to get your requirements done, so you actually have two periods of study hall. You set this up so you could do your homework and not have to do any of it at home. But, today, it has a different purpose. The first period you use to find a quiet place to sit by yourself and wonder which god you angered, why you agreed to do anything for a dare, why keeping your word was important enough to absolutely destroy yourself over. You use the first period to sort your thoughts and emotions and eventually settle yourself down.
Second period is different. You are calm now. You aren't over accidentally showing everyone your holes, but you aren't actively upset about it right now. Then, at some point you realize that what happened isn't as bad as it seems. People saw you naked. But what were they thinking when they did? Some of them were probably thinking that you're a bad person. But, like 90% of the boys weren't thinking you were a bad person. They probably liked what they saw. And you want boys to like you, right? The girls were probably mostly either entertained by someone who isn't them being brought down a few pegs or jealous of your body. If you don't let it bug you, it won't bring you down any more pegs. If you make them jealous, they're the ones with the problem, not you. You didn't become an exhibitionist or a nudist over this time, but you realized that your best course of action now is simply not to let this situation bother you.
And now, you are ready for your final class of the day.
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