Meet up with Christopher

A/N:
Having been a part of and hearing about many apology conversations, I know this isn’t fully accurate to how most of them go. Please just remember this is just a piece of fiction and the author really wants to keep the couple together in the long run while setting up the space for cuckquean play (it’s a tough line to walk, which is why the lifestyle isn’t recommended for most). Also, this is a long chapter with no actual sex, but these types of chapters are important for the story. We get back to fun stuff starting next chapter. Hope you enjoy!
-ASW

I woke up after actual decent sleep, especially considering I didn’t go to sleep until a few hours ago. I mean, I’m not ready to run a marathon, but I’m more than rested and ready to go for whatever else today might throw at me. Well, maybe I’ll need a nap….whatever. I’m just excited.

You see, I had a realization somehow while I slept. I realized that today isn’t just about talking to Christopher to make sure something like last night doesn’t happen again. No, there is more to it. I think that everything that happened these past couple weeks just happened so ridiculously fast that I didn’t have time to feel normal. And I want that today. I want to feel loved, to feel wanted, to feel like I’m in a strong relationship with my boyfriend.

I know, I know…that’s probably not what you want to hear when I clearly told you my story was about being cuckqueaned by my friends, but I promise this is not the end of my tale. No, this is the self-discovery part of my story. Don’t worry, you’ll enjoy this part too (I know I did). So, let’s get back to it!

Suddenly, I was awake (shout-out the office). I rolled to check the time. I know I hadn’t overslept because I’m pretty good about waking up whenever I set an alarm, but still, you never know. But instead of finding out something like that, I found I’d received another few messages. Britney and Kayla had each sent their love and support to the group in response to my message. But they had each also sent me personal messages. I’ll start with Britney’s message.

Britney: girlie, I hope he didn’t do anything unforgivable. If he did, let me know and I’ll be there to back you up however you need me to. I think I could take him, especially if he hurt you! Please don’t worry at all about our game. I love you and this doesn’t change anything. I hope I didn’t push you too much. If we need to talk, please don’t hesitate. I love you and you won’t hurt my feelings. I’m tough, just like you are, even if you’re a softy on the outside lol

That was the spicy Britney I knew and loved (is it racist to call a Latina spicy? I hope not). Kayla’s message felt different.

Kayla: I don’t even know what to say. I don’t know what happened between you and Christopher, but I can’t imagine it had nothing to do with stuff he and I did last night. I am so sorry. I cannot apologize enough. I am so sorry for pushing things too far. I know it may not feel like it, but I love you and hope we can talk this through to stay friends. I can be free whenever you need me to be. I am sorry, Maddison.

I knew she was likely to feel guilty in some way. Is it weird that I really didn’t expect her to be this apologetic, though? She was so strong and confident these last couple weeks. Maybe it really was all just a game for her too. That’s comforting at least.

So, three relatively different reactions from my three loving roommates. I’m really lucky to have them in my life. Ugh, even saying that felt disgustingly cliche and gross. I’m getting all mushy. Come on, Maddison, get it together! You’re writing erotica, not a romance novel, and especially not some young adult story. Ok, sorry about that. I’ll keep the story going properly.

I got another message from Christopher just then. It just said he was on his way. But that made me sit bolt upright! He lives only 20 minutes away depending on the traffic, so I didn’t have long! Fuck me, and I just told you that I never oversleep an alarm. I guess that’s still true since I didn’t set one.

That’s gonna make the new goal for today harder. I gotta find something to wear quick, since I want to remind Christopher that even though he’s been fucking Kayla a lot lately, I’m his real girlfriend and he is lucky to have me.

I jumped out of bed and went to my closet. Thankfully I took a shower last night, so that’s one thing out of the way. I went through my dresses quickly, pulling out 4 different options. Fuck me again, I’ve never been good at deciding things like this quickly. Usually this involves trying each one on and inspecting the dresses in the mirror a few times. I don’t have time for that. Nope, I am going to have to call in some help making choices. A quick message sent, and then I picked out some nice underwear for today while I waited. I was moving towards my vanity to do my makeup when the knock came. I expected it to take a few minutes, but it was a grand total of something like 52 seconds for her to show up.

I opened the door still in my slip from last night and my fresh panties underneath. Megan stood there, a slight smile on her face, friendly smile, not the predatory/knowing one I had seen flash across her face so many times these last couple weeks. That smile replayed in my head and made me lose my train of thought while she stood there.

“Uh, good morning Maddison.”

“Oh, yeah, sorry. Good morning! Thanks for coming so fast!”

“Yeah, I didn’t expect you to want to see any of us so fast, honestly.”

“Megan, we are ok, I promise.”

“I know, but still…”

“We can and will talk later, I’m sure of it. But I really need your help right now.” I reached out and pulled her into the room, closing the door behind her.

“Look, I’m going to give you the shortest explanation I can, just so you’re kind of caught up.”

“Ok.”

“So, basically, I felt that at the end of the night, after Christopher and I…you know…”

“Had sex. Maddison, we’ve done that too, you don’t have to be nervous talking about it with me. You know there is no more judgement between us.”

“Ok, ok. I’m working on it. Anyway, after we finished, he just kinda got up and left. Like, after his time with Kayla they hung out for like half an hour and I only got five minutes?! I don’t know. I know none of this cuckquean stuff makes any sense, but that just hurt.”

“Oh yeah, i can understand that.”

“Anyways, so we are going to get brunch and I just want to…I don’t know…”

“Remind him how fucking hot you are and what a catch he’s got with you?”

“Yeah!” Damn, she really gets me. That’s another comforting feeling.

“Fantastic! I love it! How long do you have?”

“Uh, like 10-15 minutes?”

“Damn, ok, let’s get going.”

I’ve read enough erotica since that day to know that everyone reading this is hoping for some really sexy play between the two of us at that point, but I’m sorry to say that didn’t happen. No, this was purely a quick scene of one woman getting ready for a date while her best friend helps her get ready. I did flash Megan when I took my slip off to put the dress she advised on, but we’d seen each other naked enough times to make it not a huge deal. I mean, i did hesitate for a second, but then it was back to business.

In the end, I found myself standing in front of her in an off-shoulder black mini dress. My phone vibrated with a message from Christopher a couple minutes ago that he was waiting for me in the car, so I needed to finish and head out. I looked to Megan for final approval.

“Fuck, you look good. 1000% approved! I don’t know what it is, I just like the off-shoulder look.”

“Haha noted! Ok, I gotta run. Thank you so much! I promise we will talk about everything later.”

“Go go go! And good! Have fun babe!”

I grabbed my purse and phone and I was out the door. Before walking up to the car, I took a deep breath. As much as I was feeling sexy, I didn’t feel confident and I didn’t want to forget everything that happened last night. One more deep breath and a mental reminder to speak my truth today, and maybe flirt my ass off (hey, I am not gonna lie and say I wasn’t hoping to have one of our long fuck sessions that we hadn’t had in a while).

I turned the corner and there was his car, and he was standing in front of it waiting for me. I’m not going to lie (do I have to keep saying that or do you believe I’m just going to keep telling the truth by now?), seeing his eyes light up when he saw me felt good. That was exactly the feeling I was going for! I gave him a big smile and went to him. The way he grabbed me, pulling me close and kissing me, almost made me forget I was mad at him. Almost.

“Ok, ok. Down boy. We need to talk before you get anything more than that.”

“Ok, but geez, you’re gorgeous! You did that this early in the morning?! Now I feel underdressed.” He was just wearing jeans and a t-shirt.

“Imagine what I could’ve done with another hour or two. And you’re right, you are underdressed. Let’s fix that. Let’s go to your place so you can change real fast, and then let’s go somewhere great for brunch. I’m starving.”

“Aye, aye, captain!”

I couldn’t help but give him a smile at that. It was already feeling like old times. Maybe today would go even better than I planned.

We jumped in his car, he even held the door open for me. I know, he’s only doing it because he thinks he’s in trouble or something, but it still feels at least a little nice. We took off towards his place, and it only took a couple minutes of just listening to our mutual playlist for him to break our lack of conversation open.

“So, do you want to jump straight into it, or wait a bit?”

“In my head I wanted to wait for brunch, but I don’t know if I’ll have the same courage to speak up for myself with this kink stuff in public. So maybe now is best.”

“Ok, sounds good to me.”

“Good! Ok, so, I know we’ve really been enjoying this…cuckquean…thing. I mean, the sex has been amazing and I honestly have just been turned on almost constantly because of it.”

“Ooo, that’s good to know.”

“Hey, none of that yet.” I gave him a playful swat on his shoulder and we both laughed.

“Mmm, ‘yet’, that bodes well then.”

“Yeah yeah yeah, stop interrupting.”

“You’re right, go on, love.”

“Well, from my perspective, there were times it really felt like I was losing you to her. I think you knew that which is why you broke character a couple times, but I couldn’t turn it off. And then to end the night with you leaving immediately after fucking me after you’d spent soooooo long with Kayla, it just felt like I was the side-fuck and she was the main attraction. I also know that with this cuckquean thing, it’s supposed to feel like that, but this felt real, not like a game.”

“I bet it did and I am…”

“Shh, stop interrupting please and let me get this all out at once.”

“You’re right, my bad. Sorry, continue.”

“Thank you. Anyway, I couldn’t sleep last night and just kept thinking on it for hours. I think I came to a realization though. I think we just dove in too fast. I think I needed to go slower, because going fast made it feel like you really did want to leave me for her.” He started to speak again, but thankfully stoped himself so I could continue. “I know you didn’t, but that’s what it felt like. I now realize that i needed time with just the two of us without the game in the background. I needed days where you weren’t secretly texting Kayla. I needed days we could go on a date where you didn’t come home and go kiss her first. I just wanted to still feel like your love was mine more than anyone else’s.”

I looked at him and paused for a second, wanting to give him a chance to talk. He looked at me too and then took the hint.

“Maddison, I completely understand and am so sorry for pushing everything so fast. I never wanted it to make you feel that way, and I wish I’d made us go slower. I love you so much and I completely agree with stopping the game. Kayla really was just part of the cuckquean thing, I would never leave you for her. To be honest, she’s a little spoiled for my taste Haha!”

“Ha, yeah, she does come from serious money. But I promise, I believe you. I just want more time for us. I guess the best way to say it is that I don’t want to be reduced to just my kink, and that you still valued me by your side.”

He was parking the car in the parking lot for his building when he started talking.

“Of course, Maddison. I hear that and we can make that our number one priority again. I’m sorry i got so focused on these games that I lost sight of what mattered most. I’ll fix that immediately.”

“Sounds good.” I leaned over and we shared a quick chaste kiss. “Now hurry up and change! I’ll wait here.”

“Ok ok! Be right back!”

I sent Megan a quick text, just to let her know she clearly did a good job choosing this outfit. Plus I wanted to tell her that everything was going to be ok with me and Christopher. Speaking of, he got back within just a few minutes, and then we were off. We went to a nice brunch place we had never been to but had heard of several times. It was nice to be together again and going on new adventures. We were shown to a table, which was on the far end of the dining room, but thankfully not in the middle of everyone because I was starting to feel a bit playful. Maybe we could have some fun already and I wouldn’t have to wait for later to start teasing Christopher. That could be exciting! I was staring at him when he looked my way.

“Ooo, I like that look in your eye! What are you thinking??”

Haha what a question! Oh, should I tell him the truth?!?! Or do I even know what the truth is?