is growing...

And what a week it was... I was depleted completely. I needed rest after Ella and Clara. I crawled into bed as much as I could, accompanied with always two women at my side. Ella and Clara, Sophia and Kara, Kate and Kylie.

I didn’t know who slept by my sides when I was in dream land for the night, but when I woke up during the early morning, I felt someone lying naked upon me and someone upon...

In a pajama...?

I opened my eyes and I saw...

“Ambra?” I softly asked, very surprised.

“Quiet, Alex.” Kylie was awake as well, having spent the night with me.

“Why is she here?” I whispered to Kylie. Ambra was peacefully at sleep with one hand upon my chest, another one under my neck, tucked away on the cushions beneath my head. I barely felt it.

“What did you expect? You were not seen the entire day. You missed Mina’s lessons. We took our turns napping next to you. She was worried. She missed you. And when the evening fell she couldn’t sleep, missing your evening hug before going to bed.”

Ah... my evening hug with Ambra. All week I had done that. Before she went to bed, however tired I was, when I saw her in the evening she had asked me for a hug in her room, before she crawled into sleep, smiling happy, when she closed her eyes.

“Ah... I understand...” I whispered.

“She has asked us to hug you in your sleep, and we granted her request if she wore her pj’s. She was so gently with you, hugging you in your sleep, careful not to disturb you. She closed her eyes, smiled content and fell immediately into sleep herself. I didn’t have the heart to wake her up... I doubt you would have done that.”

“No... I wouldn’t have.”

“She sleeps at ease with you. No nightmares at all. Breathes slowly and steadily. With a cute smile on her lips, as if she is dreaming about love.”

“Kylie... I feel I am falling for her... I can’t help myself... She makes me feel really...”

“Special.” Kylie finished my sentence. “I know, Alex. We all know it. I am very glad you are finally admitting it to yourself and to me. Not that you are special... well you are... but that you are falling for her. Enjoy that feeling, Alex and let it happen. No harm will come of it.”

“But Ambra is...”

“No, Alex. Ambra is growing up fast now, nurtured by your love for her. The only thing that is keeping her from fully grown, is her inexperience with mutual love. Sex she is familiar with. With pain too. But love without those? It’s completely new for her. And yet she says that hugging you makes her warm inside, like never before in her life. Just take it easy, Alex, she will come to you on her own one day, just asking to sleep next to you. That day may come sooner than you think, Alex. But for her it will important.”

“Yes... I know.”

“Also, be aware she has been asking us about kissing. Don’t look so worried, Alex. She has never been kissed by a man, nor has she kissed a man she loved. The monsters that have abused her never did. She saw you kissing us, she knows it is an expression of love for each other, but she’s gathering her courage to ask you. She is saving her first kiss for you. Don’t deny her that, Alex, she feels she has something unique in her life that she wants to share. Like some virginity she is saving, but then just a kiss.”

“Not ‘just’ a kiss for her. Nor would it be for me...”

“Correct. When she’s ready, she will ask for it, and then she will be a woman, Alex.”

“Hmm...” I sighed.

“I know, Alex... but sooner or later you will be in love with each other. And you will admit to her you love her the same way you love us. As she does for you already, like we love you. You can’t prepare yourself for it, just let it happen, don’t try to control it like you have done for the last weeks. Okay?”

“Okay, Kylie...”

“Good. I’ll leave you alone with her. When she awakes, I want her to be alone with you, so she can talk to you in peace.”

Kylie crawled out of the bed, looked upon Ambra asleep and embracing me.

“You look so cute together, it pains me to just leave seeing you both like this.”

But Kylie left, and let me gaze upon Ambra in her sleep. Content.

After an hour she finally stirred in her sleep. She embraced me stronger, then suddenly it must have dawned on her the man she was sleeping with in her dreams was of flesh and bones.

“Alex! I’m so sorry, I...”

“Easy, Ambra... easy... It’s fine. It’s okay. You slept wonderfully. It was a pleasure for me to see you so at peace. Kylie told me you asked them to hug me while I slept, and you fell asleep the moment you did. Kylie didn’t wake you, I wouldn’t have woken you if I had known. So, come here and give me a hug... there... that’s better, right?”

“Yes, Alex, that’s better...”

She felt warm. And I felt special.

“Come, Ambra, now we have to shower and get ready for the day.”

She broke the hug, smiled at me so brightly and while she was leaving my side, I regretted her leaving me, I still felt warm by her smile. I felt loved by her and I smiled back and followed her with my eyes until she was gone.

I no longer was tired, I had slept enough for a week, then again I had spent energy for two weeks. Images of the past week were fleeting in my mind: Kara’s roleplay and oh...

“I’m baaack!”

Another morning wood? Are you fucking kidding me? It didn’t respond, it would be very silly if it did... or well, very strange to say the least. Thanks to the women there were plenty of showers this time and I didn’t mind sharing the shower room with Ella, an early riser as well.

“Kylie said you finally...”

“Yes, Ella, you were right all along, how is the weather outside?”

A good as any change of topic to let her know I wasn’t planning to talk more about it. I missed a day, but a lot can happen in a day.

She smiled a bit smug, even under that cold shower, then became serious, a bit worried even.

“The weather is clearing up, Alex... Alex... A villager who came out early was looking for food on her bike to a village not in our area. It was dead silent over there. She saw no one. She went to a place in her youth on a mountain and could see plumes of smoke in the direction of a nearby city...”

“So it has begun then...”

Either citizens on a rampage, that somehow survived, plundering whatever they could find or worse, Russian deserters looking for food and anything they could stick their dick in.

I sighed. I wouldn’t like this one bit, even if it meant killing Russians, which I had never liked in the first place. It was just necessary.