Our Unlived Life, Part 1

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Andy woke to daylight. Not the endless sun of the HH, but pale, honest winter light, thick and white as cream, pouring through tall windows and splashing the bed in winter warmth. For a long, slow moment he didn’t move. The sheets beneath him were soft, lived-in, too heavy for the tropics but exactly right for January in Illinois. Above him, the ceiling arched higher than it had any right to, with thick wood beams painted white, and hanging from the central beam was a glass globe lamp he was sure he’d seen once, in a different life, in someone else’s house.

Beside him, Laura lay awake, side by side, twin faces turned up to the ceiling. She wasn’t looking at him, but at the beams above, both expressions perfectly still. For a second, he wondered if she was sleeping with eyes open, or if he had drifted into some recursive level of dream.

The only thing that made it feel real was the way the air smelled: not the neutral, recirculated vacuum of the hotel, but something like bread and citrus, maybe the after-echo of laundry, sharp and homely.

He sat up. Laura didn’t move, but he could feel her attention flick to him—one left, one right. He blinked, took in the rest of the room: walls the color of birch bark, a pair of battered trunks at the foot of the bed, a reading nook punched into the far corner with a blue corduroy bean bag, and a tall window, nearly floor to ceiling, showing a front yard and the blue-white of January snow.

He said, “Where are we?”

Laura rolled her heads in sync, then spoke, voices soft as the pillow behind her. “This is the Dream Date package,” she said. Then, a beat later, as if reminding herself: “I bought it from the Commissary. Two days ago.”

Andy said, “‘Dream Date package.’ What’s that?”

“It’s—” She paused, both mouths. “The other girls get a day. A real-world date, outside the hotel, just them and you. It’s built into the game, this round.” A small, dry note crept into her voice. “I’m not a Contestant anymore. So there’s no day for me. No slot in the schedule.” She looked at the ceiling. “Arabella must have seen that coming, because when I asked her about this, at the transformation ceremony, she said she had put this in the Commissary. It’s not cheap. But it gives us a full day, real world, slotted into a moment in the HH so when it ends we’ll come back to the morning after Sam’s date. Like it fit between the seconds.”

“You spent your points on this.”

“Most of them.” She said it without apology. “I triggered it last night before I fell asleep, so we’d wake up inside it.”

Andy took a second to let that land. “Is it just us?”

The other Laura, right-hand side, lifted her hand and pressed it to the top of his. “Just us,” she echoed. Then, “At least for a while.”

He pushed the covers aside and swung his feet to the floor. The boards were walnut, worn smooth. He glanced at the wall clock: ten after eight, which made no sense unless this was a perfect copy of some real-world time. He said, “This room is cozy.”

Laura sat up, both bodies at the same time, hair falling into the exact same mess over both faces. “It’s a real house,” she said, stretching. “Not a hotel room. Not the Suite. A real house.”

She didn’t say whose, but he could see it in her eyes.

Andy said, “You’ve seen this before.”

Laura went silent. She stood and paced to the wall, hands laced at the smalls of her backs. She placed twin right hands on the surface and stayed silent for a long time, then said, “I dreamed up this house when I was a kid. I used to build it in my head every night. All the rooms, all the stairs, even the backyard.” She glanced back at him, almost shy. “I never told anyone. Not even you. Not even Emi.”

He stood and reached her by the dresser, glancing through the nearby window at the snow-covered front yard, the quiet street, the day that had not really even begun. He looked down at her, both of her, with a strange ache. He tried to picture thirteen-year-old Laura, blueprinting this house in her mind while the world she lived in fell apart outside her door. “Why this one?”

Laura shrugged, watching the yard. “It was big, but not too big. I wanted a room with a window seat, and a real bathtub, and enough space to never have to hear anyone yelling unless they wanted to be heard.” She smiled, a small, crooked thing. “I used to imagine living here as a grown-up, with you.”

He tried to speak, but nothing came out. Laura was already moving—she turned, each body taking one of his hands in both of hers. She looked at him, faces raw with hope and a little embarrassment. “I used to imagine we’d get married, and live here, and be happy.”

He squeezed her hand. “You could’ve told me.”

“Would you have believed me?” she said, but there was no edge to it, just a kind of fierce love.

“Every word,” he said.

She made a face like she didn’t believe it, but he could see she wanted to. Then she stepped away from him, moving in uncanny stereo, and crossed to the large window. One of her leaned against the frame, her cheek pressed to the cold, the other folded herself into the seat and watched the street below. Andy followed, coming up behind them.

It was Warrenville. It wasn’t a copy, but the real deal: the sweep of the road, the snowbanks curled against the mailbox. Not the Twin Yews development, though. This was Saddle Ridge, he could recognize it. The houses on the block were older, solid, large and well-kept. It was the kind of place that made you think of hot cocoa in winter, of cookouts in the yard, of things that lasted.

Andy looked out with her, and through the bond he felt what she felt—the giddy, rising disbelief, and under it, a joy so brittle it would break if he touched it too hard.

He put his hands on her shoulders, both bodies, and Laura let herself lean back against him, one head resting on his collarbone, the other on the crook of his arm. She was warm, and she smelled like his favorite memory.

They stood like that for a long time. Then Laura, both faces, turned to look up at him.

“We have a whole day,” she said, “to live the boring, simple life I wanted yesterday.”

He wrapped an arm around each of her, anchoring her in place.

She closed her eyes, both of her. “Thank you,” she whispered, and it wasn’t clear if she meant for the Dream Date or for everything.

They stood at the window, three shadows made one by the pale winter light.

Then Laura, always the one to move things forward, pulled him toward the door. “Come on,” she said, both voices in stereo. “I want to show you the rest.”

Laura’s grip on his hand was tight, urgent. Both bodies pulled him along the hall, bare feet whispering on the boards, and for a moment Andy thought she might be racing herself, a competition he would never see the end of.

They started with the next room over—a guest room, but not the kind that ever really saw guests. Two beds, twin-size, made up with mismatched quilts and old pillows, a dresser against one wall, and a window that looked out on the backyard. It was spare, the way real houses always were—no hotel gloss, just a place for someone to sleep when they had to. Laura let him peek in, then steered him away, her second self already two paces down the hall, glancing back with impatience.

The next room was a bathroom, light blue tile and a real, honest bathtub, claw feet and all. Laura leaned in to inspect the tub, then made a face like she didn’t trust it not to bite. “I used to want one of these,” she said, both voices. “Never had one, growing up. I thought adults got them automatically.”

He grinned. “You could take a bath whenever you wanted now.”

She looked at him, both faces dubious. “What a world,” she said, dry. “Come on.”

They continued down the hall, every room they passed like an exhibit from some museum of the ordinary. The second guest room was a little larger, with a window seat, just as Laura had wanted. There was a throw blanket folded neatly at the foot of the bed, and in the corner, a reading lamp, its shade slightly crooked as if someone had bumped it and then tried to fix it, but not quite right. Laura paused at the threshold, then opened the closet. Andy stepped in after her. The closet was nearly empty except for one thing: an old stuffed animal, a blue rabbit with one ear partly torn, sitting on the shelf.

Andy smiled. “Is that—”

Laura nodded with a smile, both bodies at once. “Floppy. You remember?”

He took it down, brushing the fur with a thumb. “You used to say you’d pass him down.”

“I never got the chance,” both Lauras said. Then, with a little shrug, “Guess I get it now.”

He set Floppy back and closed the closet door, but not all the way, and when he looked at Laura, both faces had gone soft. She looked down the hallway, like she could see the rest of the future waiting for her.

Next was the study, tucked between two more guest rooms. It was not what Andy expected: the desk was huge and old-fashioned, with claw feet and brass drawer pulls, covered in stacks of fake papers and neat lines of pens, but most of the shelves were crammed with trophies and framed certificates. Half the trophies were for things Andy knew neither of them had ever done—equestrian, chess, even a couple for science fairs with dates that overlapped in impossible ways. There was a world map thumbtacked to the wall, every major city circled in red. On the desk, a toy stethoscope. Next to it, a real one, the kind doctors used.

Andy glanced around the room. “Did you imagine we were both geniuses?”

Laura, one body inside the room, the other hovering just at the edge, said, “I was twelve. It was either this or a moon base.”

He took it in, the ambition of it, the way even the mess was organized, as if some young mind thought that’s how adults did their business. “It looks like you worked really hard in here,” he said, “but never sat at the desk.”

“I didn’t know what adults did at desks,” Laura admitted, both faces going faintly pink. “I thought you just… made lists, and read about the world, and then did science.”

“I think that’s basically right,” Andy said. He lifted the stethoscope, looping it around his neck. “Paging Dr. Cooper.”

Laura grinned, then rolled both sets of eyes at herself. “Don’t make fun.”

He was about to say he never would, but Laura was already pulling him back out into the hall, leading him forward with the promise of something even better.

They passed a second bathroom, this one done in sunflower yellow, the kind of tile Andy remembered from every childhood sleepover. He peered in, taking in the double sinks and the pile of guest towels, and said, “How many guest rooms did you think was the right number for a house?”

Laura answered without hesitation, as if she had anticipated this very question for decades. “Enough that nobody fights over the shower, but not so many you have to have a housekeeper.”

“Four,” Andy said, counting back.

“Plus the master bedroom, and the study, and the basement,” Laura said, both bodies at the same time. “You need a real basement.”

He glanced at her, trying to see if she was making a joke. Both of her looked deadly earnest, like this was the unbreakable logic of the universe.

He snorted. “Were you planning on running an orphanage?”

Laura’s face went a little defensive, but she smiled anyway. “I was thirteen the last time I added to this house. I thought maybe we’d have friends who’d visit. Or kids.” She said it without looking at him, and for a second there was a strange note in the air, a new tension.

He let it pass, only squeezing her hand.

“How many rooms does this place even have?” he asked, almost afraid to count.

Laura just shrugged, one of her bodies pulling ahead, the other pausing to look out another window at the street below. “I never finished the upstairs,” she said, “so it keeps growing.”

They climbed the stairs, the banister worn to a smooth shine, and at the landing, Laura turned left, then froze.

“Something’s wrong?” Andy asked, noticing her expression.

Laura shook her heads. “No, just… I don’t remember setting up that door.” She hesitated, then reached out. When Laura opened it, the self that did, did so with both hands on the knob, like she was bracing herself.

The room was a nursery.

Not a kid’s bedroom, but a nursery. The walls were the color of old cream, and the crib stood against the far wall with its bars turned gold by the window light. A rocker faced the window, a folded quilt draped over one arm. The shelves held soft animals, a few board books with their spines uncracked. Above the crib, a mobile: small soft plushie animals, elephants and giraffes and horses, ready to spin off a little motor whenever required. Everything was new, pristine. Waiting for a baby yet to come, perhaps.

Laura stepped inside. She went to the shelf first. Her hand passed over a rabbit, a bear, then stopped at a small stuffed lamb with a bright yellow ribbon around its neck and one glass eye that caught the light differently than the other. She didn’t pick it up. She just held her fingers against it.

Andy, standing behind her, could feel through the bond the way it landed in her, the shock and the wanting all tangled up together. She didn’t say anything for a long time.

Then, she whispered, “I didn’t put this here,” she said, both voices thin and soft. “I dreamed up this house when I was a girl and there was never a nursery in it. I didn’t think I could ever be a good mother. I don’t know how this got here.”

Andy looked at the room, then at Laura, then back again. “Maybe you wanted it and didn’t know,” he said, and even as he said it, he realized it was true. The feeling in her was like the taste of snow: clean, cold, and so old it was almost new.

The answer she couldn’t give Liesa yesterday—do you want children, Laura?—was right here, built in by the Dream Date package, the future waiting on the far side of the door.

Laura didn’t cry, but both bodies gripped the doorframe so tight the knuckles went white.

Andy stepped close, his chest just behind both of her backs. He didn’t say anything, only set a hand on her arm. One of her leaned into him, just barely, while the other kept watching the crib, as if waiting for something to materialize.

They stood there, long enough for the sun to shift a finger’s width along the wall. Then, without a word, Laura let go of the frame and moved them along, her hands cold but steady in his.

The last room at the end of the upstairs hall was supposed to be another guest bedroom. Laura opened the door and laughed, both voices breaking at once: inside, instead of a bed and a dresser, the room had been converted to a fort—a real one, built out of plywood and thick rope and a haphazard tangle of couch cushions and heavy blankets. The walls were painted in a swirl of superhero colors, and there was a tiny rope ladder up to a loft with a periscope made out of PVC pipe. A toy kitchen was set up in the corner, complete with plastic pots and fake food.

Andy stopped in the doorway. “Holy shit,” he said, and then, “I remember this.”

Laura grinned at him, both faces wide with mischief. “It’s the Cooper-Ashford Fortress,” she said, delighted. “You built it in your basement, the year we were nine.”

Andy stepped into the room, tracing a hand along the plywood wall. “We spent all summer working on this. I thought my mom would kill us when we cut up that old futon for the ramparts.”

“She almost did,” Laura said, eyes shining. “But you promised her you’d take it apart when summer ended. You never did.”

He ducked under the low arch, then crouched, peering into the fort’s main room. “I burned a hole in the carpet making soup in here.”

“On the old hot plate,” Laura remembered, both voices. “You said the label said it was safe for indoors.”

“It did!” Andy said. “It did say that.”

Laura giggled, then followed him inside, both bodies ducking and crawling, so that the two of her plus Andy barely fit. The space was tight, the way it always was, but safe.

They sat there, knees folded, shoulders touching, the dust and wood and old blanket smell sharp and nostalgic.

For a minute, neither of them spoke. Then Laura, voice quiet, said, “I used to imagine that if I could keep it safe, I’d never have to leave.”

Andy put his arm around her. “You don’t have to now.”

She smiled, both of her, and leaned into him. For a while, they just sat in the dark, pretending the outside world didn’t exist.

On the way back down, Laura stopped on the landing.

The wall along the stairs was covered in framed photographs.

Andy hadn’t noticed them on the way up. But now, stopping on the landing, he saw the whole staircase wall at once—a timeline, photographs in mismatched frames running all the way down.

The early ones were real. He knew them the way you know the smell of a specific house. There was the park photo, him and Laura as toddlers, the one where she had a fistful of his shirt and he was leaning away from her, both of them laughing. He’d seen that photo on her mother’s mantle. Another at seven, mouths stained with popsicle, arms slung over each other’s shoulders. He remembered the afternoon that was taken—the way the popsicles had melted faster than they could eat them, the sticky run of it down his wrist.

Laura paused at the baby photos, both faces going still. She reached out and touched the edge of one frame. “I had this,” she said, both voices low. “In a shoebox. I kept it in a shoebox.”

Andy looked at it. He didn’t remember that one. But he believed her. “You were such a chubby baby,” Andy said, and Laura elbowed him, both sides at once.

He laughed. “Sorry. It’s true, though.”

She moved on, and he followed, through the years he did remember: the soccer uniforms, Laura mid-kick, her face furious with concentration. The school play at twelve, Laura in the wolf mask and Andy in his dad’s old suit jacket, the sleeves too long. He remembered she’d bitten him through that mask during rehearsal and told the drama teacher it was an accident. The Polaroid from the memory wall. Andy and Laura sitting on the Chevy, the summer before her death, holding onto each other and knowing everything would be well, as long as they were together.

There was a gap, a silence in the row of photos, as if the wall didn’t quite know what to do with the years that should have come next.

Then, at the turn in the stairs, the first photo of them as teenagers. It had to be after the bridge—Laura was older, maybe fifteen, hair dark and falling over her eyes. She wore a blue t-shirt and a scowl, but she was leaning into Andy, his arm wrapped around her in a way that looked both protective and proud.

Both of Laura’s faces went tight. Andy reached for her hand, not sure if she would let him, but she did.

She didn’t move right away. “When I dreamed up this house, as a child,” she said, both voices low, almost embarrassed, “I wanted photos on the stairs. The kind families have.” One of her exhaled. “I didn’t think it would invent all of this. I thought it would just be—I don’t know. The ones we actually took.”

Andy didn’t say anything. He just held her hand.

They moved down the rest of the wall, the photos skipping forward: prom, the two of them dressed up, neither looking at the camera, only at each other. Graduation, with Andy in a suit and Laura in a borrowed dress, both of them holding their diplomas like they were about to throw them into the air.

Here the photos glowed in the morning light, a thousand memories that never happened, and Andy felt as though the whole wall pressed against his chest. Lower down, at the curve of the staircase, he saw a university photo: the two of them on the UIC quad, older now, Andy in a faded engineering department t-shirt, Laura in a long-sleeve blue top and jeans, her hair tied up in a messy knot. She was holding a toy stethoscope, the cheap kind from CVS, while Andy held a battered calculus textbook like a bible. They sat cross-legged in the grass, their knees bumping, both squinting and smiling, not at the camera, but at each other.

Next to it, another: Laura and Andy in some cramped student apartment kitchen, the counter stacked with generic cereal, ramen, a half-broken coffee maker. Laura was perched on the counter, feet dangling, holding an overfilled mug and laughing with her whole face. Andy, in the background, was at the stove, burning something in a pan, gesturing absently toward her as if mid-argument. Laura wore his old hoodie, the sleeves rolled up, and Andy’s own expression was equal parts exasperated and besotted.

Andy paused at that one, feeling a muscle in his neck tighten, slow and deep.

He reached out and touched the glass. The image was so real, he could practically smell the burnt toast behind them, hear Laura’s laugh echoing through the tiny kitchen. But it hadn’t happened. None of it had.

Andy stopped, staring at the toothbrush photo. “I don’t remember this,” he said, because it wasn’t possible.

Laura squeezed his hand. “It’s not real,” she said, her voice breaking. “But it could have been.”

She stepped closer, both versions of her crowding in at his side. He realized then that each of her seemed to be reacting differently: one with a wistful kind of smile, the other more stoic, almost clinical, as if cataloguing these might-have-beens.

Farther down the wall: spring break in some sun-bleached place, Andy in a woven straw hat and Laura in a Cubs t-shirt and cutoff shorts, both of them sunburned, holding up plastic cups of something red and sticky. He couldn’t remember ever actually taking a vacation, let alone with Laura, but the photo felt like something he recognized, the way deja vu sometimes trickled into his dreams.

They moved together along the wall, with Laura pointing out a few more: a blurry selfie on a train, Laura’s head collapsed against Andy’s shoulder, her mouth open in sleep, his face in the camera’s lens, content and goofy. The Europe backpacking trip she’d always sworn they would do someday, chronicled here in snapshots of crowded city squares, cheap pensions, museum steps at dusk.

Then: a birthday party, a dozen friends raising glasses in a candle-lit bar, Laura wearing a paper tiara, Andy in a button-down shirt he didn’t own, their faces pressed together in the center of the crowd. In one photo, Laura’s eyes were watering from laughing so hard, her arms around Andy’s neck, as if she needed an anchor to keep from floating away.

He realized, then, that these were not just Laura’s dreams or wishes, but memories constructed out of the raw materials of love and mourning and possibility. The montage was elaborate and dense, each frame a version of the future that had diverged just slightly from the one he’d lived.

He let go of her hand for a second and traced the edge of the birthday photo, as if he could press it into himself and keep it.

There were more. A camping trip: them sitting beside a small fire, bundled deep into ridiculous puffy jackets, Andy’s face red from the cold, Laura’s cheeks bright and wind-chapped. Her head rested on his shoulder, a book open between them, her smile quiet and private, as if she was reading only to him.

Then the last row, right above the bottom step: wedding photos, but not the footbridge, not the tragedy. Instead, there was Laura in a white dress she’d never owned, Andy in a dark blue suit. In one, he was holding her hand in the crook of his arm, both of them beaming out at the camera, luminous and terrified. Another showed them after the ceremony, standing under some ancient willow, the leaves a haze of green overhead. Laura’s veil had slipped, and Andy was fixing it while she laughed at him, her eyes sharp and playful.

The very last picture, off-kilter in a plain wooden frame: Laura and Andy seated in a hospital room, the lighting harsh, but the moment unmissable. Laura was in a hospital gown, her hair pulled back, looking exhausted but triumphant. Andy was in scrubs, a surgical mask dangling around his neck. Between them, cradled in Laura’s arms, was a newborn baby: tiny, red-faced, with a shock of brown hair and eyes that—at least in the photo—seemed too alive, too knowing, for a thing so new.

Laura went completely still, both bodies locked side by side at the bottom of the stairs. Andy saw the photo and felt something huge and undefined rise in his throat. The baby’s hair gleamed in the harsh light, and in its face, he thought he saw both of them—his own eyes, Laura’s smile, something more than inheritance, as if the universe had tried again and gotten it right this time.

He glanced at Laura, both of her, standing so rigidly he worried they might break.

Neither of them moved or spoke for a long time.

Then, at length, Laura reached for his hand with both of hers, and squeezed so tightly it almost hurt. When she spoke, her voices were small, one trembling, the other barely a whisper.

“I didn’t know it would be like this,” she said. “I thought it would just be a nice day.”

He shook his head. “It’s perfect,” he said. “Even if it hurts.”

Laura let go of his hand and stepped closer to the photo, studying it. Andy watched her, unsure whether she was about to cry or laugh or both. She turned both faces toward him, and this time her eyes were dry, clear and focused. “This isn’t a dream, is it?” Laura said. “It’s… a window. A parallel world. One where I didn’t drown, and you didn’t have to spend sixteen years walking haunted.”

He said, “I would have found you, no matter which world.”

At that, a crooked smile flickered on both of her mouths. She seemed to stand a little taller. They lingered there, side by side, the gallery of people they had never quite gotten to be watching them from the walls. Andy moved closer, taking her left hand with his right, then her right with his left, crossing their arms in front of them like the world’s simplest knot. “I see you in every photo,” he said. “You’re still here.”

Laura squeezed his hands, both at once, and then let out a breath that sounded like it had been waiting years to escape.

She studied the pictures again, slower this time. Her gaze stopped at one that Andy had missed: adult Laura in a white doctor’s coat, standing in a bright hospital hallway, an ID badge clipped to her chest. She was flanked by a child and a parent, both grinning at her—Andy recognized the subtle pride in Laura’s face, the relaxed way she stood, as if she belonged in that corridor more than anywhere in the world.

He saw the way she looked at it, and then the words came all at once.

“I’m a pediatrician in this picture,” Laura said, both voices perfectly steady. “An MD and a PhD, I think. I work at Loyola. I run a little research lab for children’s brain development. I have a colleague at the hospital—a real friend—and I love the work.” She blinked, both faces going slack with the magnitude of it.

Andy smiled. “I know that hospital,” he said. “I’ve been there. That’s… that’s where Myra works.”

Laura nodded, and he could see it click into place. The universes folding around one another, always trying to connect.

She lingered at the photo, her faces a study in contrasts: one showing raw wonder, the other already quietly mourning its loss. She said, “I have all the knowledge.” Both voices at once, almost awed. “All of it. The whole education, all the years, the science. It’s all in my head. I didn’t even know I could hold this much.”

He watched her, wishing he could make it last.

“It’s the thing I wanted when I was small,” Laura said. “Back when I thought if I was smart enough, I could fix what was wrong at home.” She drew a shaky breath. “The package must have given it to me for today. When this is over, I’ll go back to being the girl who stopped at eighth grade.” Both faces were calm, but her hands trembled.

He hugged her, as tight as he could, both of her fitting perfectly under his arms.

They stood there for a long time, letting everything settle. The warmth of the imagined house, the phantom weight of the child in Laura’s arms, the simple fact of their hands laced together.

Then, finally, she pulled away. Something had changed—her body language had shifted, open and purposeful, as if she were already practicing how to move through the grown-up world she’d just invented for herself.

She gave his hands one last squeeze, and then, not looking back, led him down the final flight of stairs.

The outside world waited for them with the usual midwestern honesty: the street slick with snowmelt, the neighborhood silent except for the hum of a distant blower and the rush of cars two blocks over. Andy and Laura, both Lauras, walked out into it side by side, no coats, but somehow perfectly warm and dry, thanks to his Gifts.

The car in the drive was not his. It was a brand new Civic, the kind Andy and Laura had always imagined adults automatically bought upon getting married, like a rite of passage nobody warned you about. There was a parking sticker for Loyola Medical Center in the window and a lopsided cherry air freshener dangling from the mirror, the cold air sweet with it when he opened the door.

Both Lauras were already moving toward the driver’s side.

Andy stopped. “Do you actually know how to drive?”

One Laura paused with her hand on the door. The other turned around slowly, the way she used to when he had said something that required patience. “Andy,” she said, “when I came back, they put the whole world in my head. Tax forms. Touchscreens. Every password convention ever invented.” A beat. “I know how to drive stick.”

“This is an automatic.”

“Then it’ll be easy.” She got in.

He folded himself into the passenger seat. The other Laura took the back. They pulled out smooth and clean, both bodies easy, and Andy watched the neighborhood unspool past the window—not their neighborhood, never theirs, but one they’d known the edges of as kids, the kind of place where the hardware store had a dented bike rack out front and kept it there on purpose, where the grocery was a chain that had replaced some other chain, same parking lot, same bad angle on the turn. The kind of street they’d ridden past on their bikes without stopping.

Laura took the turn perfectly. Andy looked at the storefronts and felt the strangeness of it settle in his chest—that they were here, together, running errands, like people who lived somewhere like this.

He turned to look at Laura. Both faces grinned at him.

“You ever notice,” Andy said, “that you do the exact same expression on both faces?”

Laura, driver’s seat, raised one eyebrow. “Not always,” she said, and the other Laura in the back rolled her eyes as if to demonstrate.

He snorted.

Laura pulled into the grocery lot and took her time finding a spot, passing up two perfectly good ones before settling on a third that was no different. Andy didn’t say anything. He recognized the impulse—the same one that made you take the long way home, or linger over a cup of coffee that had gone cold. The day was finite and they both knew it, and parking took as long as it took.

She cut the engine. For a moment, none of them moved. The lot was ordinary in every direction: a cart return with a broken wheel lock, a minivan with a faded stick-figure family on the back glass, a woman in a puffy coat loading bags into a trunk while her kid tried to climb back into the cart. The kind of place you stopped twice a week without thinking about it. The kind of errand that filled a life.

“This is the boring part,” Laura said, both voices quiet, like she was naming something she’d wanted for a long time.

Andy looked at her. “Yeah,” he said.

“Okay,” Laura said, both voices soft. “Let’s go get groceries.”

They got out of the car.

The Reality Adjustment was perfect. No one looked twice at the two Lauras. The old man by the carts didn’t blink as both bodies grabbed one at the same time, then started pushing it in tandem. Inside, they hit the produce first. Laura, ever the multitasker, split the list in half and worked both ends of the same aisle, one body plucking avocados while the other inspected oranges. Andy trailed between, holding up the cart as she loaded it from both sides.

The weirdest part wasn’t the doubling, or the way both of Laura’s bodies moved in eerie harmony—it was the sense of rightness, like this was how it was always supposed to be. He played along, walking the middle, waiting as one Laura reached past him for eggs while the other checked expiration dates on milk.

When he paused by the pasta, both of her converged from opposite directions, trapping him between.

“Penne or rigatoni?” she asked, deathly seriously, picking up a box and holding it under his nose.

Andy pretended to consider, then picked the spaghetti instead, for old times’ sake. Laura nodded, as if this was the answer she’d been hoping for.

At the deli, Andy ordered the usual, and the clerk—a woman with the kind of mullet that required real commitment—looked over the counter at them, sizing up the trio. “You all together?” she asked, neutral.

Andy glanced at Laura, and she replied, in perfect sync: “Yes.”

The woman shrugged, sliced the turkey, and made no comment when Laura’s bodies leaned over to check the specials board, identical blue eyes squinting.

It was only in the pharmacy aisle that the spell broke a little. Laura, leading the way, stopped in front of the prenatal vitamins. She picked up a bottle, studied the label, then, without hesitation, picked the best one for Chloe—he could tell by the way she muttered the brand and the dosage under her breath. Then she reached for a different box, and started comparing it with a third.

“This one’s for Erin,” she said, half to herself, half to Andy. “The absorption’s higher, and she’ll need the D3.” Then she reached for a third, this time frowning. “I don’t know which is best for Claire. Maybe this one? I should check with Dinah.”

Andy stopped. He stared at her, both of her, as she rattled off ingredients and recommendations like she’d been doing it for years.

“You okay?” he said, softly.

Both of Laura turned to look at him, surprised at the question. “Yeah,” she said, “why wouldn’t I be?”

He shook his head. “I don’t know. It just feels like you’re…” He stopped, not wanting to say: acting like a real doctor, when yesterday you were a kid.

Laura blinked, once, then twice, as if the realization was just landing. “I guess I am a real doctor, for today,” she said, both voices, quiet.

Further down, as they headed for the registers, one Laura’s hand drifted to a display of children’s vitamins, the kind shaped like cartoon animals. She picked it up, stared at the label, then put it down just as fast. Andy saw the moment hit her—felt it, even, through the bond. The desire was there, sharp and bright, then it faded, replaced by something gentler.

He said nothing. Just took the heavier bag from her, and let her keep the lighter ones.

At the checkout, the clerk was a teenager with six face piercings and a fading green dye job. He scanned their groceries, looked from Andy to the two Lauras, and then—without missing a beat—said, “How long you two been together?”

Laura answered, in tandem: “Since forever.” She smiled, and the clerk smiled back, nodded, and kept scanning.

“Cute,” he said, then bagged the groceries with a speed that could only be learned under duress.

Outside, the lot was bright, the sun now high enough to send little arrows of light off every windshield. They loaded the groceries, and Laura, both of her, insisted on doing the return trip with the cart by herself. Andy watched her go, two heads bent close together as if sharing a secret, pushing the rickety old thing across the icy parking lot.

On the way out, they stopped at a small café that Andy remembered had the best coffee in town. It was a newer place, which had not existed during their childhood. Inside, the place was warm and crowded, all the tables crammed in too close. Both Lauras squeezed into the same booth on either side of Andy, and for a while they just sipped their coffees in silence, watching the ordinary world spin by outside the window.

Andy felt the ache in his chest again, the one that always came when the universe was perfect, and he didn’t know how long it would last.

He looked at Laura, both of her, and saw two versions of the girl he’d lost and the woman he’d found.

The day was still wide open in front of them.