On Top

Panic filled me as they both stared at me expectantly. I could tell Adam was getting annoyed that his night with Kaylee being directed by me. Still, he said nothing as he awaited my decision—which I needed to make quickly. I took a second to recall the countless times she’d talked about sex. Considering that was all her female friends seemed to talk about, the issue was finding the metaphorical tree in the middle of a forest. If my recollection was correct, Kaylee enjoyed being on top. Since this entire thing was for her, it was probably best to go with her favorite position… right?

Decision made, it took a second to find my voice. “Why don’t… you get on top?” I felt a bead of sweat run down my temple as I watched my friend nod. Her smile was radiant and I knew I made the right choice—at least in her eyes.

“I was hoping you’d pick that.” Her head turned to Adam, still wearing her smile as she waited expectantly for him to comply.

He didn’t waste any time getting on the bed. Flopping back, he hooked his hands behind his bed and waited, erection standing tall.

“Lay the other way,” she said, directing him to move vertically on the bed. A brief look of confusion followed as he quickly moved to comply. Kaylee crawled onto the bed after him, tossing her leg over so she was straddling him. I looked away, struggling to control my breathing. A few seconds later, I felt something brush my arm. Jerking, I looked up to find Kaylee’s fingertips just barely reaching my arm. She smiled sweetly as our eyes met.

“Can you see?”

I blinked a few times in confusion. She was still hovering over him, his erection between her legs.

“Huh?”

“The view. Can you see everything?” I wasn’t sure what she wanted to hear. I glanced over to find Adam watching Kaylee expectantly. Movement brought my attention back to Kaylee. She had a hold of his erection and was guiding it towards her as she inched down atop him. It wasn’t in yet, but soon…

“Scott. Scott look at me.” Lightheaded, I glanced up at her. With an encouraging smile, she nodded as she held out her free hand. I stared at it before realizing she wanted me to take it. Eyes meeting, she nodded. Reaching out, her hand grabbed mine.

“Watch,” she whispered, blue eyes commanding me to obey. “Watch me take his big cock inside me.” My hand tried to pull away, but her grasp tightened. Her mouth opened wider, matching her eyes. “I’m putting him in me,” she gasped as her body lowered down. “Look at it, Scott. God his cock is so big.”

I don’t know why I did what she asked. I hated watching as Adam’s cock disappeared inside her. It was agonizing. The noises they made didn’t help matters. Kaylee made a soft cooing noise as she took everything he had to offer. She rested against his hips, enjoying the sensation. It was agonizing watching her as she tipped her head back, eyes closed as she enjoyed the moment. Adam had a blissful look on his face as well, grinning like an idiot as he settled his head back onto the pillow. He was enjoying the moment as well. Envy burned within me. How many guys knew that feeling?

Not for the first time, I wished I was normal. If I was normal, none of this would be happening—or if it were, it wouldn’t hurt this badly. Maybe it would be me under her with some other poor sap watching.

Her hand tightened, bringing me out of my thoughts. She was looking at me with an expression I couldn’t place. “I’m going to fuck him now. Okay?” It felt like I’d spent a week in a desert, my mouth dry. Unable to speak or move, I just stared as she tugged on my hand to come closer. She wasn’t happy until I was on the edge of my seat, leaning towards the bed.

“Watch closely Scott,” she said, her eyes not releasing me from their prison. “I want you to watch me fuck Adam.”

Kaylee didn’t let go of my hand as she began to rock back and forth. Her gyrating motions increased as she began to lift herself off him. Just when I thought she was about to rise off him completely, she sank back down, eliciting a low moan from Adam. Her free hand trailed down Adam’s chest as if admiring what she felt and saw there. Her slow pace didn’t last long. The faster she slid up and down on his cock, the more my arm hurt as I realized I was helping her keep her balance. Satisfied that I was watching, her eyes released me as she turned her attention to Adam. A smile erupted on her face as she let out a moan. Those moans continued as she kept her forward and back, up and down motions.

Adam wasn’t just content with that. Reaching out, his hands found her hips and he began to thrust up against her downward movements. Kaylee really enjoyed that, her eyes lighting up as she cried out.

“Oh God,” she gasped, tipping her head back. “Right there. Right there, Adam. Oh, fuck.”

I felt sick. My eyes didn’t know where to look. At first, I tried enjoying the smooth contours of her alabaster skin, only for Adam’s grabby hands to interrupt my view as they stroked her skin. Lower than that, I was treated to the sight of his cock disappearing and reappearing into Kaylee, which only caused my stomach to roil violently the longer I watched. Turning my attention upwards, my eyes were treated to the sight of Kaylee’s pert breasts as they bounced up and down. Even if they weren’t the largest, the speed and force she was riding were giving them an impressive range of movement. From the way she was crying out and the death grip she had on my hand, she was enjoying every second. As I watched her pink nipples on their up and down journey, I momentarily forgot myself. The only thing that ruined this moment was the sound of Adam’s name on her lips as she shouted his name again and again.

My eyes moved up to her face. Her lips were wet and parted as erotic noises danced from them. Pleasure danced across her features and filled her gaze as she looked down at the man on the bed with her. She urged Adam on. Crying out again and again for him. This wasn’t like what happened with Sean. Even though she was holding my hand, her attention was focused solely on Adam.

I don’t know how long it went on, only that I was in a confusing place. It felt like my stomach was trying to force its way out of my mouth and take everything with it. I wanted to look away. To leave. Her grip on my hand locked me in place as if she knew the moment she let me go I would flee. At the same time, I couldn’t flee even if I wanted to, my eyes transfixed on the sight before me. It was the same when I watched her with Sean. This was a side of Kaylee I’d never seen before, and it was utterly beautiful.

What sickened me the most was the flicker of hope that burned within me. Anticipation kept my eyes locked on her. I wanted her to call my name. To look at me with those pleasure-filled eyes. The building expectation was worse than watching her with Adam, and it was only getting worse as she grew closer to orgasm. My heart fluttered as I stared at her lips, waiting for my name to be the one she cried out. My breathing was shallow and fast as I searched for her eyes, wanting them to look at me. Without me realizing it, the nausea building within me had nothing to do with watching her with Adam, but the fear that I would be ignored. That it would be Adam’s name she called as she came. That her only link to me would be her tightening grip on my hand.

She was getting close. I could hear it in her voice, the way her voice quivered. She wasn’t going as far up anymore, going instead for rapid, small hops atop him. Her breaths were rapid gasps, and Adam’s name was getting higher every time she repeated it.

Crushing despair loomed over me as I realized she wasn’t going to do it. That I was just an afterthought in her journey to ultimate pleasure. If only I wasn’t so messed up inside, I could be the one helping her to her destination.

Blue eyes met mine as her head turned at the last moment. They were wide, almost frantic. “I’m cumming, Scott!” Her hand jerked at mine as I gaped up at her, surprised. “Scott, I’m cumming!”

Her lips quivered as she came, eyes wide. Body jerking atop Adam, he grabbed her sides as he struggled to keep his pace. With her climax in full swing, it was up to him hammering his cock up into her to get himself off. Just as her orgasm began to fade, Adam quickly pushed her over the edge again. This time, she didn’t call a name, opting for a loud scream of passion.

Adam was getting close himself. Grunting, his back lifted slightly off the bed as he switched to incredibly fast, shallow thrusts. “So close,” he grunted, the only warning Kaylee would get. Seeing he was close, she looked at me.

“Tell him to cum in me,” she commanded. Shocked, my mouth worked but words refused to form. “Scott! Scott tell him to cum in me!”

I didn’t look at Adam, my eyes holding onto hers. I didn’t understand why she wanted this so desperately, but she was practically frantic.

“Cum in her,” I felt myself mumbling, finding my words at last and botching them.

“Again,” she gasped. For a second, I thought she was about to have another orgasm. “You want him to. You want him to cum in me.”

I wanted nothing of the sort. That wasn’t what she was suggesting though. She wanted to hear me say that was what I wanted. The strength of the desire in her eyes was shocking. Seeing that, there was nothing I could do.

“I want you to cum in her. Cum in her, Adam.”

With a loud grunt, Adam gave a final thrust to get himself as deep as he could. Baring his teeth, he groaned the entire time he game. I knew what was going in her. Even if he was infertile, something in me wanted to attack him. To pull Kaylee off him and beat the ever-loving shit out of him. It was shocking to think of murder so brutal. It was fucked up and wasn’t me.

Before I could act on this almost primal instinct, Kaylee released my hand. Leaning slightly towards me, she grabbed my shirt and tugged. Off-balance, I slammed my hands into the bed to stop from face-planting onto the mattress. That wasn’t what Kaylee had planned though. Before I could react, she wrapped her arm around my neck and forced her lips against mine. The shock wore off quickly and instinct took over. I put everything into that kiss, even if it was awkward positioning. All my pent up feelings towards her. The anger of this situation. The excitement of hearing her call my name. It was our first real kiss. Not as friends, but as something more than that. A kiss that was years in the making.

All while another man emptied himself inside her.

It was her that released me from the kiss, struggling to keep her balance as she tried to right herself atop Adam. She was breathing hard, trying to catch her breath. Blue eyes stared down at me, gazing at my lips as if she was holding herself back from kissing me again. Something I desperately wanted. But the excitement within me was tempered by the fear in her eyes.

“Scott,” she whispered. Before she could say anything else, I lurched forward and kissed her, cutting off whatever she was going to say, afraid of what she was going to say. I felt her arm wrap around my neck, holding me against her. When we broke for air again, the fear was muted. A smile formed on her face as her arm kept me close.

“Let’s date.” I blinked, not quite sure I heard what I thought I did. Her smile widened. “Scott?”

“Yeah?” I breathed.

“Will you be my boyfriend?”

I had heard correctly yet I still couldn’t believe it. Kaylee had asked me to be her boyfriend. Yes, girls usually asked guys out, but this was Kaylee. She could have had practically any guy she wanted—and she wanted me. With Adam still deep inside her, I thought the timing could have been better, but I wasn’t going to complain. It was just like her to ask this way.

I was about to accept outright until reality came crashing down over me. I shouldn’t be hesitating like I was. Dating Kaylee was something I’d been dreaming about since the day I met her. That dream was about to come true and here I was actually having to think about it as if ‘no’ was a valid option.

The problem was twofold. One, I had a suspicion that nights like this would become a lot more common if I was her boyfriend. Kaylee, like any normal girl, had plenty of sexual partners. I knew some girls liked to have their significant others watch them with other men, but that was a pretty rare kink. I never thought Kaylee would be one of them. Considering how she acted tonight and with Sean, it was safe to assume she really enjoyed me watching her. A problem considering how much I hated it.

An even larger issue was me. Managing to pull away slightly, I could look down to where she and Adam were joined. Adam was still fully inside her and she made no move to climb off him. Like all women, Kaylee hadn’t thought twice about letting him cum in her. Why worry? It wasn’t like she was going to get pregnant from him. A problem since I definitely could, and asking to use condoms would cause her to ask questions I wasn’t ready to answer.

“You’re not answering.” I looked back up to meet her eyes. Worry was beginning to creep into her features as she forced her smile to stay in place. It looked like she was bracing herself for rejection.