No! It's too embarrassing.

You're too embarrassed by your apparent failure to bring this up with your friends. Some of them notice that you're not your usual happy self, but when you don't open up about it they don't push you.

You usually have lunch with Lis every other week or so - it would be more often if you both didn't have very full schedules - and she gently prods you to talk about what's going on. You let her know her sympathy is appreciated and then change the subject, and she lets it go.

Over the weekend you stay with Mairie, one of your old friends from the Academy. She's a kind and gentle dark-skinned girl, a year older than you, and you've always been perfectly comfortable with her. This time you spend most of your time in bed together, watching vids, making love, or talking about inconsequential things. Spending time with her always helps you relax, and having her go down on you or using your mouth and fingers to make her cum is a much more intimate experience than being fucked by the futas at work.