New Wardrobe opening new doors or long repressed doors

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Arriving at the Mall carpark he once more entered the shopping complex. It was strange to think how excited he now was when previously he would never had never imagined anticipating a trip like this with such delight. Yet now he was entering a new person? Even though he was uncertain of implications of this evolution or change, he still knew something was occurring that he could not quite explain. It was wasn't harrowing, in fact he felt far more happier than he had felt in forever. Like a weight had been released from his chest. Living existence with existential squeeze had been ****.Now he felt like those boulders were suddenly no long crushing his very person. They were aware how comparing their former life to a medieval **** was revealing. But he had no other way to explain it. For once in their life they felt what could only be called happiness? The more they explored, the more the boulders were removed and his body felt less like a mental battlefield inflicted with scars. Instead just clarity.

Even though they were ready, standing at the atrium of the Mall, Dav-chelle found themselves hesitating. There was still a sense of doubt, worry about all this. Like who even were they anymore? Identity was flucating wildly confounding their senses. Yet they knew this other self was not manufactured or new, it was one that had long been buried, left in Sepulchre of their inner most recesses. Guarded by insecurities, fear and inability to even comprehend. Who was David, was he a mask, something to hide the true person within? Did they enjoy being David? Did it spark joy? Or was it instead a bulwark constructed from phobias implanted by years of self-loathing? Was David less of real self? More a shadow?

It hurt their head, like they no longer felt connected to their former self. It felt wrong, like when you put shoes on the wrong feet, it fits, but it hurts, it hurts so much and you try to keep walking, but instead you fuck up your feet. Had they been wearing shoes on the wrong feet? Existence was not meant to be this painful, surely?

How can one become so detatched to their former self without trauma? Can repressed trauma when addressed lead to such hollowness of former self? Their body twisted and mutilated into this perception, this expectation. It was a farce to perform for others but deny one self? Who was David? When the mirror no longer feels comforting, but instead feels like mockery just who are you? Remember when your understanding of self was simplistic? But existence is not simple? Self is not simple, the straight-forward answer is the coward's answer surely? Like a forgery you look good, you even trick people, but forgeries are not authentic, it's not the self you should be. Imagine committing a crime and not realizing you had done so? When you sign a name? When you declare with certainty who you are? It's all fraud, a con. Had they lied to everyone? Forgeries and Fraud were crimes that held stiff sentences, so why were they not in prison? Surely they should be behind bars if they had been committing these deeds. Lies, Fraud and Con.

Identity, just who was David, they were not David, they had never been David, they had worn the clothes, they had even claimed to be David. But David never existed. Identity just who were they? Identity that remained uncertain, but David? David felt like they had been forcing the wrong piece into a jigsaw in desperation to fit.

Sighing, they decided to deal with all this later, it was a lot. Taking a deep breath they head for the Boutique and immediately, being in this environment felt right? Correct less of ths torrents running through their mind. Their mind felt at peace. Exploring the various sections and selecting outfits. They knew people were looking, but this was correct, this was what they meant to do. Since their wages being garnished they intended to spoil themselves, picking out various outfits, some dresses, skirts, camisoles, blouses, leggings and a lot more.

1. Blouses - https://imgur.com/Lxl6PmJ, https://imgur.com/erCkr9P, https://imgur.com/91va8Kz, https://imgur.com/JGX44Pp
2. Dresses - https://image.s5a.com/is/image/saks/060623_SEO_WA_REFRESH_SUMMER_DRESSES_FOR_EVERY_OCCASSION_EDIT_SLICE1?scl=1&qlt=83&fmt=jpg, https://img.huffingtonpost.com/asset/5cacb7ac230000b603ea1ab3.jpeg, https://img.huffingtonpost.com/asset/5cacbaef240000ab00067b1d.jpeg, https://britishretro.co.uk/wp-content/uploads/2022/05/navy-glitter-50s-full-circle-dress.jpg, https://www.littleblackdress.co.uk/wp-content/uploads/2021/11/numoco_nicolle2_1.jpg
3. Camisoles - https://www.shirtsleeves.net/images/b-young-ash-rose-joella-camisole-p33661-193038_image.jpg, https://www.monsoon.co.uk/dw/image/v2/BDLV_PRD/on/demandware.static/-/Sites-monsoon-master-catalog/default/dw07a3f964/images/large/21_54277110_1.jpg
4. Leggings - https://files.cdn.printful.com/o/upload/variant-image-jpg/63/6324ff58f876471b409aa0dfe330db9c_l?v=2c5238b798d4d72a7303721dc8f4b5e0, https://www.tonedtotty.com/images/the-fuschia-is-bright-fitness-leggings-p924-13388_medium.jpg, https://i.etsystatic.com/6402842/r/il/0491ed/1866619652/il_fullxfull.1866619652_izqk.jpg, https://static.nike.com/a/images/t_PDP_1280_v1/f_auto,q_auto:eco/0aad23e7-2373-4622-81f4-780e44c4d3ee/one-mid-rise-leggings-VCXzqM.png

Picking out everything, they tried it on slowly, occasionally switching outfits that did not fit right, but by the end they had a great collection to start their new growing wardrobe. As they waited in the queue to buy the new clothes, they knew they had to go full way. But this was such new ground and honestly they were surprised they had chosen to wear one of the outfits currently, the https://handcmediastorage.blob.core.windows.net/productimages/LU/LUDZX018-J03-142290-1400px-1820px.jpg,https://static.nike.com/a/images/t_PDP_1280_v1/f_auto,q_auto:eco/0aad23e7-2373-4622-81f4-780e44c4d3ee/one-mid-rise-leggings-VCXzqM.png. They knew they were getting looks, but these clothes felt so much more right for themselves.

No they knew what they needed to complete this collection, lingerie and while uncertain the prospect of picking out bra and panties excited them to no end. They wanted so badly do this. Maybe even get their make-up done again. They had spent a lot already, but with changes there had to be sacrifices. Besides, they had already decided to embrace the role just to keep Ryan in check.

Despite them still trying to ignore elephant in the room, their physical changes started again, "Pecs" now far more resembling an A-Cup, hips widening with facial features softening and body changing shape as well as their member continuing to shrink. The most obvious change was their chest, as everything else was still subtle and easy to dismiss.