My parents tell me the story behind this Arranged Marriage

So we walk into the house when my parents start to say "Well Tori we thought we should give you happy life when you turned 19 so we thought of who we could get to be with you. So we thought about who would love you right away so we thought of family because of the **** law was passed that allows family members to get married. So we thought about who got divorced recently and that is when Aunt Ashley who we hadn't heard from since she married Jerry calls us. She tells us that she got divorced from Jerry who cheated on her with his twenty something secretary so we told her that she should marry you who is still a teenager to get back at him. So you can show him that you can attract a young person also by marrying our daughter. She thought we were insane to even think that would work, but we were very persistent so she reluctantly when she realized that her daughter needed someone to be her friend since her daughter is a loner just like you." After hearing that story of how this happened I guess that makes sense since I have always wanted to feel like I was wanted and my parents knew that I always wanted it.

So I look at my future wife and daughter to notice that I do not know what they are thinking since I do have autism which is always hardest about being autistic is not being able to read a persons' facial expressions. So I do not know what they think about all of this even though Ashley did accept this arrangement with my parents so I do not know if they will ever love me the way I deserve to be loved.