More Than I Can Give

CONNOR 11 AM

Today I feel good. I should stop watching porn. That’s it. I probably watched a weird video and my dreams mixed up with reality. Isabel would never cheat on me. She doesn’t even like to suck, you know… Yeah… Well, she doesn’t do that sort of thing.

Ben. My co-worker. He looks like a tall green bean. Thick glasses and a big nose. Bean Ben. He is my best mate at the office. Single and always jealous that I have a girlfriend like Isabel. Beautiful. Kind. Smart. Athletic.

“You know you got to be better at Isabel at that athlete stuff… Girls always want their boyfriends to be better… You got to lead her,” Ben said.

“Lead? What are we in? The 1950s? Isabel is good at some things, and I am good at other things… Girls don’t think like that…” I say.

“Wrong… All girls think like that… It’s in their nature…” Ben scoffed.

“Dude, are you watching those weird misogynist videos on YouTube again?” I laugh.

“It’s the facts man…” he said, pressing his glasses to his face.

Ben had only one girlfriend in the past. It was for 3 months. She was a gold digger and robbed him of $10,000 in gifts and gestures, only to sleep with his room mate. That was two years ago. He hasn’t recovered.

HARVEY 11 AM

I watch Isabel. Isabel peeks over at me and blushes. I want her to know that I like her. I want her.

Yesterday… Her tits were so soft and big in my face. I want to bang her brains out. Fuck her properly. Turn her into my little gym babe slut. My toy. Fuck. And I know she wants me to do it too.

That boyfriend of hers is such a waste. Such a fucking waste.

ISABEL 11 AM

Harvey keeps looking at me. It’s like he is stripping me naked with his eyes. He’s seen my breasts. Done way more than just look.

I need to confront him. He wants more than I can give him.

I love Connor. I really do. And I won’t betray him. I was tipsy yesterday – and so was Harvey.

Yesterday… We made a little mistake… I didn’t cheat.