Monday

As you checked and double checked with the nanny once again you reluctantly left little Anthony in the suite taking your rifle and what little school supplies you needed you soon set about to school once more boarding a train bound for campus before exiting the train. With a deep breath you focused on the task ahead of you before walking towards your classes.

It was odd to say the least your heard plenty more whispering and muttering as you walked down the hallways with some students pointing at you but no one dared to stand in your path as you made your way to your classes for the day. Maybe it was the cuts and scars that were on your face after all why conceal your true self if you the only person who cared about you was back at a hotel besides Anthony was just a baby he wouldn’t mind.

By the time you had finished all of your classes you were tired physically and emotionally. Right you craved nothing more then eat a hamburger and made your way to the dining hall. As you walked over to and were about to pick up a hamburger however you smelled strawberries and looking around found a plate full of strawberries sitting on one of the buffet tables.

You sighed remembering Harmony’s perfume used to smell like strawberries and like that you walked away from the dining Hall your appetite gone like that. As you walked along you realized you needed some time to yourself and so you walked and walked until you soon found yourself in the evergreen forest near where your dorm had once stood. You allowed your mind to wander as your hand touched the green needle like leaves as you walked the dirt road.

You walked along the path taking in the scent of the evergreen pine trees and the ever present pine cones their smell filling your nostrils. Before long you found yourself at the familiar lake its eerie fog beckoning to you like a siren’s song.

You sighed fighting the urge to walk over to the lake before you reluctantly walk to the lake’s edge and sat down on its dirt embankment. “Maybe I’m crazy or maybe its the fog but you know this time I don’t want to see my innermost desire can i just be here?” You said to the lake as you peered out into the fog.

Of course nothing happened the fog remained floating over the lake as you found some stones and began to skip them across the lake. “You know I miss her already hell its only been a day and I already feel like half a man.” You said aloud to no one in particular.

You chuckled to yourself before continuing. “She always smelled like strawberries no matter how much she tried to change her perfume or how much she put on she always smelled like strawberries and now I get sick to my stomach even smelling or seeing strawberries.” You as you skipped another stone.

“She had this beautiful laugh the kind that made my heart skip a beat and the way she looked at me and Anthony hell I felt like I was luckiest bastard in the world maxims or magic be damned I couldn’t give a flying fuck what challenges I faced when she was next to me.” You said as you skipped another stone

“But like anything in life it doesn’t last everything good eventually ends.” You said skipping a stone harder. “Nothing ever lasts *skip* Everything good has to end *skip* Everyone in life will leave me one day *skip* and in the end I’ll be all alone again.” You whispered to yourself as you skipped another stone.

You chuckled once more. “Hello depression and despair here to keep me company once more?” You said as you skipped another stone. “You know its funny really I thought she was one, the one I would have a family with, the one who would take care of me when I’m sick and ill, the one who would grow old with me, the one who would love me when the rest of the world would hate me, the one who would never leave me.” You said as tears began to fall down your face. You wiped away some tears before continuing to skip stones across the lake’s surface.

“Hell I was a fool to believe I stood a chance with her. She was perfect in every way from her beautiful face and personality to those blond locks of her she was everything and more then I could have ever imagined and yet I still found a way to fuck it all up.” She was right I am just a selfish bastard.” You said as you took out a metal flask.

“You know I’m so glad that the drinking age is 18.” You said as you took a swig from the flask. “You know what they say if your demons are too much to handle kill them and if that fails drown them in something strong.” You said before taking another swig from your flask. As you began to feel a buzz in the back of your head you smiled drunkenly stumbling to stand up.

“Whew thats some strong stuff.” you said as you took another swig. “But at least it’ll take the edge off for now.” You said as you pocketed your flask and drunkenly stumbled your way out of the forest.