Mixed Feelings

"Honestly, this is impressive." Alexa said, checking your room. "It's like a little shrine dedictaed for me." She said, and you didn't know if its a good thing or not, "It is bother you?"

"I don't think so, no, i mean, it's alittle wierd , but it's not the wierdest thing i saw. I know i have alot of fans around the world, so one of them is also my neighbour. I can live with that." She smiled to you, and you sighed with relief. "I'm glad you let me saw your room though, i love that you try to be honest with me, it helps me to trust you." She went to her large poster on the wall, brush her fingers over her right nipple, then giggled, "It's a fine work, i wished i could see the face of the guy who print this for you. Are you going to keep it on your room even though i know it's exist now?" She asked and you stratled immediatley, "It's OK by me, i don't mind if you keep masturbate to my videos either, actually it's really flatters me that you like me so much." This was like a dream that came true, to hear Alexa give you a premission to keep jacking off to her even after all that happens was too good to be true.

"Really? It's not make you disgusted or repulsed ?" You scratched your head in confusion.

"Why would I?

"Well... i'm not used to this reaction from girls, most of the time when girls saw who i am they scream that i'm a pervert and they don't want nothing with me."Hearing that sentence, Alexa came to you and hug you shortly. "I'm not most of the girls as you already know, i'm not a prude. I think sex is amazing and not something that you need to hide, masturbation included. Believe me, i love to masturbate alot, even with all the sex i have from the job. I don't know if you know that, but the sex on job is excatly that, a job. I'm not often get an orgasm from it... So of course i'm sexually frustrated alot of times. The scenes that i enjoy most are the scenes when i'm alone, or when my bestie Elsa lick my pussy until i cum. Oh yeah, Elsa is also a pornstar, but as i know you i bet you already guessed it." She winked to you.

"Elsa Jean?" You dared to ask her, and she laughed in answer, "You horn dog, yeah it's her. I like that you are a pervert John. I'm still unsure about our realtionship though... I want to makes things right with you. I do. But it's not easy to me to open to other people and trust them."

"What can i do to make you trust me? Alexa, i know i might going to fucked it up, but i just can't keep it hidden anymore. I have feelings for you, i don't want us to be just friends... I want more." You said, and to your surprise Alexa blushed deeply.

"It's not something i heard alot... Actually i think this is the first time a guy tell me he actually want a relationship with me." She looked at the floor, ashamed.

"I can't believe this. You are the most beautiful girl in the world, you are so sweet and amazing, you have everything a guy wants in a girl, so what if you are a pornstar? Who cares? I don't! I love you just the way you are." You realized what you said, "I mean... Not love love you, i mean i like you but..." You stuttered, but Alexa hushed you, "It's OK. I understand what you say, and this is really makes me happy. I like you too you know, if not , i will not be so hurted from what happend month ago... It's just... It's really hard for me, and i don't want to get into this way and then you will regret it. I don't think you really understand what is the meaning of dating a pornstar."

" But..."

"Don't. You can't understand it fully, you never saw our industry. Would you never get jealous because a stranger touch me where you touch me? When i scream a script moan and tell a pornstar he is the only guy i love? Or that from now on i wanna fuck only black guys because of a fetish people have? Are you really think you can differentiate between real life and my job?"

"I don't know, this is the truth Alexa. But, i want to try. I will never forgive myself if i never had a try with you."

"But this is what makes me fell a little uncomfortable. I don't know if you are just want to make a fantasy true, or that you really want me because of who i am."

"So, what should we do?" You asked, frustrated.

Alexa sat on your bad, she looks so cute when she thought hard. Then she smiled and jumped from your bed, "I have an idea. What are you doing this weekend?"