Making Amends

The morning was heavy. Well, emotions led everyone to feel heavy. We sat around the table in the kitchen and I spoke my peace, "It's been a struggle and it has taken a toll on me mentally. I hate that it hasn't happened yet but Warren and I are a couple. We are a family. We've decided to try some other options so I can get pregnant and nothing is off the table."

His mother sat with her lips turned over. My mother touched my arm, "It's okay sweetheart, we will support whatever decisions you and Warren make."

"Thanks, Mom."

My father stood and hugged me, "Yes, sweetie, we will support the two of you any way we can."

Warren looked at his mother who sat quietly, "As Jackie said, we want everyone's support."

She grumbled, "It's your life and your family. Who am I?"

Warren huffed, "Come on Mom, don't be like that."

She tossed up her hand, "No, no, no, everyone is mad at me. I'll be the bad person."

She was still upset that Warren told her that she had to apologize to me for her unkind words. I walked over to her and reached for her hands. Her eyes watered. I spoke to her kindly, "I love you."

She stood and hugged me, "I'm so sorry Jackie. I don't know what I was thinking. You're the best thing that has ever happened to Warren. I love you too."

I felt his arms around us. The morning suddenly felt lighter. It felt good to clear the air.

******

I loved Warren with my whole heart and I could talk to him about most things. However, there were times when I needed what I needed. A deep comforting conversation without feeling as if I had to guard my words for fear of being told I wasn't being Godly enough. Those were the times I'd go away to be by the water and sit on the ground and watch the boats sail by on the sound.

I sent a text message to Kelly, "Can you talk?"

Immediately he responded, "Give me a second."

Two minutes later, the phone rang and I answered. His voice made me relax instantly. It wasn't often that I called to bend his ear but it was enough to make either spouse suspicious if they knew. "What's going on?" he asked.

"Nah, not too much," I replied which made him chuckle.

"That means you feel like the world is collapsing around you."

"You know me all too well."

"I know you better than I know my wife."

I sighed and spoke my peace. I told him about my Christmas and all that transpired. I told him about my plans to get pregnant with medical help. He didn't judge me. He listened and was supportive.

When he asked me about my relationship with Ro, I had to pause. I didn't know the status of it. I decided if she didn't put forth any effort to make things right, then I wasn't either. My level of petty could exceed anyone's if they wanted to go there.

"She still thinks we had sex on deployment," I told him.

He chuckled, "Well..."

"Well, what?"

"I mean we almost did a couple of times."

"Almost is not the same as you putting your cock inside of me."

One night as we lay in bed talking, playfully, he rolled on top of me and looked down into my eyes. I felt his bulge pressing against my clit. He rolled his hips and few times, well, more than a few, until I gasped and felt my swollen clit pulsate. He leaned in to kiss me.

Things were heating up until I said, "No wait, we can't do this." He rolled off me and we looked at each other. There was never any penetration. I didn't say I was a saint.

"You don't know how hard it was for me to stop," he said with sincerity, "God I wanted you so badly, Wilkes."

"It's Warren."

"I know but you'll always be my Wilkes."

After talking with Kelly, I made my way home. Warren was in the kitchen cooking. I kissed his cheek, and he looked at me, "So, I noticed you haven't been hanging out with Ro much."

It was a day before her birthday and I still had not heard from her. I shrugged and grabbed a glass from the cabinet. As I got some water from the refrigerator door, he looked at me, "I know y'all got into it."

"Do you?"

"Yeah, I talked with Diego. He said Ro was upset because you weren't there for her. That you've been busy with your sister."

My face scrunched, "What?"

He shrugged.

"Come on, you know that's not true."

He made a face. I placed my hand on my hip. He laughed, "Don't be like that Jackie. I'm just saying. Try looking at it from Ro's perspective. She did just lose a baby."

I damn near rolled my eyes out of the sockets.

"She's used to having access to you and only sharing you with me. Now she has to figure out how to share you with a biological sister."

I sighed. Damn, I didn't think about that. Was I wrong for cutting her off? Did I act too quickly or judge too harshly? Suddenly, I felt bad.

He kissed my forehead, "Go over and see Ro."

I went upstairs, showered, and later, I went to her place with flowers and a card.

****

That drive over to Ro's house on base felt long. I guess it would if I had to dial back my attitude and own my actions. I parked in the lot and headed to her back door since that was the first door, I saw from the parking lot.

I knocked. I heard little D playing in the kitchen and his voice, "It's Auntie J."

Moments later the door opened and he hugged my legs, "Where have you been?" he asked.

I suppose Warren was right. Ro and I did spend a considerable amount of time together before Silvia arrived. Yet, Silvia was my sister and I was going to spend time with her. "Happy almost birthday," I said to her and handed her the bouquet of colorful flowers.

She smiled, "Thanks, Jackie."

"How are you?"

"Good. Just missing my best friend and my husband."

"How is he?"

"He's fine. You want something to drink. I have a bottle of coquito. His sister dropped over three bottles for Christmas."

"Three wow, sure, I'll have some."

I said some but we ended up taking out half the bottle as we sat in the living room chatting. Little D was in bed and we were still laughing. Warren sent me a message, "Hey when are you coming home?"

"Soon," I replied. I stood, "Let me go see about this man. You know I can't be away from him too long."

"Y'all nasty."

I laughed, "This is true."

We hugged. It felt good to have my friend back with the understanding that just because I spent time with my sister didn't mean I didn't have time for her. When I stepped back and looked at her side, I could see why she was all over the place.

*********

Going home to my man felt refreshing. I had a clear path forward. Our families supported our decisions and my friend felt comfortable again. As soon as I made it to the bedroom, Warren greeted me with a wet nasty kiss as he squeezed my full tits, "I want you to take off these clothes, bend over and grab those ankles."

"Okay."

I removed my clothes quickly and did as he said. First, I felt his tongue lapping up my moist center. Then I felt his thick cock penetrating, "Oh my god," I moaned sweetly as he began to thrust. So good having him stuff me from behind.

Every time he pulled back, I attempted to lock his dick in my pussy by squeezing my walls on his shaft. I started throwing it back. His hand came down on my ass, I ignored the pain and continued to push wildly. I felt the build-up. I felt the initial surge, we moaned loudly. I was salivating it was so good. I wiped my mouth and yelled, "Fuck!"

He pulled out and had me lay on the edge of the bed. My legs rested on his shoulders. He looked down at me lovingly as his hips moved. I played with my full tits and squeezed as he thrust making my body shake and rattle.

My legs trembled on his shoulder, "Sssss, ah, yes, babe, I feel you cumming on my dick, shit," he moaned and groaned. He continued to stroke and smiled, "Another one?'

I nodded, "Yes," I felt my pussy pulsating, and then wetness was everywhere. He pressed into my body and we kissed as he rotated his hips and burst inside of me