Lindsey's P.O.V.

The next day, the trip to the beach began. I was dreading this. You see, I have a lot of scars on my upper body from when my mom would **** me and when I would punish myself after David died. I didn't want anyone to see.

Cutie had used some of the money Gina gave to him to book an inn for us. We would each sleep in rooms of four. I would be sleeping in a room separate from Susan, Cutie and Gina. Unfortunately, Cutie decided than Marcie should be kept close by.

So I had to choose between three other girls or three of the Leaders. I chose the Leaders. I didn't trust Gina's former cronies. One of the boys I was sleeping with was Ben. David used to be one of the Leaders until he killed himself.

I will never forgive Rina for that but now that I've found out Gina may have possibly never approved of it, I'm conflicted on her. She still has some responsibility as Rina worked for her but I've seen that there is good in her.

"Hey, Lindsey, let me help you with your bag." he said.

"No, its fine." I told him.

Unfortunately, Ben saw the whip in my bag.

"Lindsey? Is that a whip?" he asked.

I quickly zipped the bag up and tossed it onto my bed. I fought back tears.

"Are you alright?" Ben asked me.

"I don't know." I said. "I miss David. Maybe if I had fought Rina..."

"You did everything you could? Rina killed David. But why do have a whip in your bag?"

"It was something my mom gave me. Since David died, I... started punishing myself."

"You don't deserve what you put yourself through? Any of us could have done something. David wouldn't want you to hurt yourself."

Ben was right. I needed to stop punishing myself for something Rina did.

"I'm not really comfortable with a bikini." I said. "Because of the scars."

"Its okay." said Ben. "I doubt that Frank will **** you into a bikini."

Suddenly we both heard a noise from the next room.

"I'm gonna cum!"

I recognised the voice as Frank's. What was going on there?