Leave her alone with her thoughts

Writer's note: Ok this one will may be a little bit weird. This is about Jenny conflicting her feeling about wanting John to love her, and her need of getting dominated by the same guy, in a very selfish way. I may add character sheets to the start of the story, so it is stated, but Jenny comes from a "conservative religious" family in this alternative world. This means that she is taught how to live by goddess Gaia's teachings, and how a womanly woman should live according to the matriarchal society. I wanted a scene, where this inner conflict is shown, before she really gets into the submissively switchy role of 'main-wife' in John's life and relationships.
I also wanted to state that John is more like a dominating switch, than a full on dom. He loves to be in control, but one of his main reasons is because he likes to take care of others.

Then he turned around and started to walk towards the bathroom door. He simply said, "We're done for now." He was about to leave Jenny in the toilet. Jenny's heart skipped a beat, and asked John "Are you leaving me here Daddy?".

"Weird, I never remember having a talking toilet.", he said, as he walked out of the bathroom door, and slammed it loudly behind himself. "Nooo! Daddy, please don't leave me here!" She yelled, while her voice cracked. She was still naked and was a mess. She was in the toilet, her head was in the toilet, her ass was in the air, and her legs were spread wide open. Her pussy was a mess, and her face was covered in her own pussy juices and her own spit. Her makeup was ruined, and her hair was a mess. "You're not gonna leave me here, are you? Please, let me out!" She begged, but no answer came. Then she heard John slam the apartment door too.

She couldn't believe that John would just leave her here like this. He was a cruel man and a terrible human being, and she couldn't believe that he would do such a thing. "Oh, so this is how you play Daddy? You are into abandonment play now? Fuck, this is sooo hot!" Jenny laughed, as she felt her pussy clench up, and she reached her hand down, and started to masturbate, while she was still trapped in the toilet. "Oh, the struggle of a sub! Being loved, or not being loved! Fuuuck, why do I like the second part better? Maybe because I know that John does love me. So when he doesn't show it, it just makes it even hotter? Or it could be that just my pussy hates me, so she loves to bully my heart. Hhhhggggg, shit, this is sooo hot, why do I like it so much?" She moaned while she fingered herself.

She was masturbating, and enjoying the fact that John left her alone. She was being treated like a toilet, and her pussy loved it. She was also enjoying the fact, that John just ignored her after he finished, just like how you would act towards a toilet. She was humiliated, and she loved it. She was a toilet, and she was getting used, like a simple receptacle, that no one would even care about. This made her feel amazing, and it made her pussy clench up, and her juices flow.

"Oww, why do I love it so much? Ohh, because I am a toilet, and I am not a person, I am a toilet, and I am a toy. Fuck, I love it!" She said, and her pussy clenched up, and her whole body convulsed, while she orgasmed. This made her squirt right into her face. "Fuck, and he even left me in a position, that forces me to cum on my own face. This is so humiliating and disgusting. I love it. OHHH, FUCK YESSSS!" Jenny yelled, as her orgasm surged through her whole body.

Then she calmed down, and her pussy started to feel good, as it was recovering from the orgasm. Her post-orgasm clarity started to kick in, which made her think about the situation she was in. It was a weird feeling, but it also helped her clear her mind, and relax a bit. At this moment she hoped that John didn't really abandon her and that he was just outside in the apartment. But she couldn't hear any noise, which made her panic a little. "Oh shit, what if he left me here? Hello Daddy? Are you here?" She asked, but no answer came, so her now clear mind started to be angry at herself. She cursed herself, for letting her hormones get the best of her.

"Stupid Jenny, Why did you have to say that? Why did you **** yourself, when you know you want his love? What if he thinks that you are just another fuckgirl, who likes to fuck around, and is only interested in his body? Why are you so stupid, stupid, stupid!" She started to cry, and her pussy clenched up when her pussy remembered the feeling of being filled with John's seed. "Why are you doing this to yourself? You are a complete mess, you are crying, and you are masturbating like a horny schoolgirl. You should just go out there, and ask John to take care of you. He is a sweet guy, he will comfort you, and make you feel good." She said as she started to sniff a little. "Fuck! Why does my pussy make me say such mean things about myself? Why does my pussy want him to see me only as a sex toy? Why is my pussy the worst part of me? Fuck, I hate my stupid pussy!" Jenny cried, but it didn't stop her from masturbating. "I hate her, I really do! I hate her so much! But then why am I cumming?" Jenny's pussy clenched up, and she moaned loudly, while her pussy squirted all over her face, and into her hair.

"Fuck, my pussy loves to bully me! It loves Mean John, while my heart loves Cute John. I know that John wants to have a relationship with me, but my pussy just wants to corrupt him and me, into becoming perverted Misogynists. I even offered to corrupt other girls for him! I am so fucked up! Why do I want him to use me, when It's not normal? Why do I want him to fuck other girls for me?" Jenny laughed, as she kept masturbating. Then she got angry at her own pussy, what made her think these horrible, yet soo hot and good ideas.

"NO! STUPID PUSSY, don't cum when I'm trying to think!" She yelled and slapped her clit. "I hate you!" She said angrily, while her clit started to spasm from the pain. She knew that she needed to punish her own body and that she had to endure the pain. She had to teach her own body to obey her mind and heart, and not her body's desires. "STUPID PUSSY! NO CUMS!" She screamed angrily, as she slap her clit again. She was trying her best, and she was fighting with her own body, but she could feel that her body was winning the fight, and it was getting harder for her to keep herself from climaxing.

She started to feel her orgasm approaching, and she knew that her pussy was winning. Her pussy was taking over her thoughts, it was starting to win the fight. Then she had an idea, which helped her to stop herself from cumming. "STUPID PUSSY! NO CUMS! DON'T CUM, UNLESS I SAY SO!" She yelled angrily, while she started to pinch her clit, while she tried to hold her orgasm back. "Why does my pussy hate me so much? Why does it hate me, when it wants this, and when it gets this pleasure? How can I be so stupid, and so weak, when I'm trying so hard to not get worse?" She thought, as her head started to spin. "Why can't my body listen to me, when it knows that it is wrong? Why does my body like this, and why does my pussy just want this? It doesn't even matter what I want. My body just wants this, and it wants to please itself with this." She thought, as her body started to convulse. "Why does my pussy want to just be a cocksleeve and not a person? Why does my pussy want something so dark, and evil, when my HEART wants something PURE?" She thought, as she started to pant, and her eyes rolled back.

"EVIL PUSSY! LEAVE THIS HOUSE!" She started to chant like she would want to exorcise her horny pussy. "LEAVE THIS HOUSE YOU EVIL SLUT! GET OUT, BEFORE I CUM!" She yelled, while her pussy started to shake and spasm. "No! I can't! Not yet! Daddy needs me! And Daddy deserves all of me! Both my love and servitude! Both my heart and my throat! No, I can't cum yet! I won't cum and I will not succumb to the temptations of the flesh, just how the all-mother, Goddess Gaia taught!" She said, while her vagina started to convulse, and flow fluids. "My pussy is such a mean bitch! Bully Pussy! Bully! Bully!" She cried while she did his best to not cum. She didn't understand why her body wanted this, and why she liked this. She was fighting her own body, and it was a losing battle.

"MY PUSSY IS SO MEAN! IT TALKS TO ME, AND TELLS ME THAT I SHOULD LET IT COME!" She yelled angrily, and her pussy convulsed, as she felt her orgasm approaching. "EVIL PUSSY, LEAVE THIS HOUSE! EVIL PUSSY, LEAVE THIS HOUSE!" She chanted, trying to exorcise her horniness from her mind, and body. She was nearing the edge, then she started to bed for her daddy, to save her from herself! "Daddy! Daddy, please save me! Please help me! My pussy is evil, and it is bullying me! Please save me Daddy, and punish my nasty pussy! Punish me! Punish me, so my pussy will stop bullying me! Exorcise my evil horny self, so I can be a better girlfriend for you! I promise to be the perfect girlfriend for you if you just exorcise my stupid pussy! Save me Daddy, and punish my evil and horny pussy!" She screamed, while her pussy sprayed new fluids, and her body started to spasm.

"I promise to be a good girlfriend for you if you save me from my pussy! I promise to be a good cocksleeve for you, and a perfect toilet!" She started to beg, as she felt her pussy convulse, while her whole body was shaking, as she came again. Her vagina squirted her fluids on her face and tits, and her mind was filled with shame and confusion. Her vagina felt good, and her mind felt bad. Her vagina was bullying her, and It was slowly taking over her mind, and her heart. Her vagina wanted John, and her pussy wanted him to use her, while her heart wanted him to love her. Her vagina was trying to corrupt him and bully her, while her heart wanted to get pure. "Please forgive me All-Mother, goddess Gaia, but I'm becoming a gender traitor! I'm about to become a heretic, and turn against the matriarchy! Please, save me, before my vagina corrupts me even more!" She said, begging her goddess for help, while she lay in the toilet, in a position, that was a disgrace for all women.

"Oh no! I'm getting horny again! I'm feeling my mind get corrupted! I feel my pussy start to think for me and make my decisions! Fuck, I'm almost ready to tempt and corrupt other girls into becoming gender traitors with me! Fuck, what have I done? I can't corrupt girls for John! My pussy is evil, and It is bullying me! Please All-Mother, goddess Gaia! Save me before I corrupt innocent girls, and turn them into heretics with me!" Jenny cried, as her vagina convulsed, and she started to feel her mind slowly getting corrupted, while her vagina was bullying her, and telling her what she should do. Then she slowly started to reach towards her clit, and slowly started to rub her. Her vagina loved it, and it made her pussy convulse, and flow juices, while her brain started to lose control. Her vagina took control, and her pussy **** her mind to think and to decide for her.

"My vagina is bullying me! It is using me! It is taking control of my mind! Oh, It wants to just jill off as I watch how other innocent virgin throats are corrupted by John's Big Bad Dick! Why am I so horny? It's not normal, and It's not ok. Why? Why? WHY?" She asked, in a frustrated way. "Please forgive me Mother Nature, but I'm the one, who is betraying the way of the universe, and the way of the world. I'm the one, who is betraying the natural order, and I'm the one, who will make other women betray it too! I'm the one, who will create a patriarchal family, where there is only one man, who rules over us. I'm the one, who is creating a patriarchal society, where men will have a harem, and women will just be his toys, while he will just use them, and he will just breed them." She thought, as her pussy twitched.

"Oh god. I'm the one, who will betray the spirit of all females! I will be just like one of those pick-me girls, who join men's rights movements because they just want to be dominated! I'm the one, who will turn girls into dumb sluts, just for a bit of power, or because they want to be popular. I'm the one, who will turn girls into gender traitors. I'm the one, who will make a family where the girls serve, and obey the man. I'm the one, who will make a new form of marriage, where the girl won't even marry her husband, just his dick, so he can use her, but never required to give her any love. I'm the one, who will create a patriarchal society, where girls have to take responsibility for their babies, and their owners can just cum inside irresponsibly, and without any protection. I'm the one, who will help to create a world, where the girls are just a bunch of whores, and the boys are just kings." She thought, as her pussy twitched again, and her body spasmed.

"But the biggest king of them All would be John, MY Daddy! oh, my goddess, please forgive me, but why is this so hot? Why does my pussy just want him to own me, and to make me his stupid and horny cocksleeve? Why does my heart feel so conflicted, while my pussy feels so good?" She rambled to herself, in her haze. She did this, John was standing outside the closed door. He never left the apartment, just curious how would Jenny act, if he lefts her alone. But he would never think that she was this self-conflicting, and confused when she was thinking about them and their future. He knew that she came from a religious family, but he never knew that she received this kind of upbringing. Then he heard her change tone, which pricked his ear.

"Oh my Goddess, why my Heart wants his love, when I just want him to use me? Why does my heart crave his affection, when I just want him to breed me, and make me his breeding cow? Why does my HEART want him to make me his wife, when my PUSSY just wants him to be the master, and to use me as he sees fit." She said, in a different tone. Her pussy was indeed winning the fight, as it managed to corrupt her perspective. Until now, she fought against her pussy. Now she was fighting against her feelings.

"I just want his attention and approval on me. I just want him to use me! I just want him to make me betray my gender. Then why is my Heart fighting against it? Why does it want his love, when my body knows I don't deserve it? Why does my HEART just want his love, when my PUSSY knows that I would betray my own heart and his trust. WHY is my HEART so conflicted, when my PUSSY is so clear on its desires." She said, while her pussy started to spasm again. "My stupid and horny pussy is winning the battle, and my Heart is losing. My pussy is bullying my heart and my mind, and it is making me do these things. And I start to like it. My prideful, conservative heart just wants to flex her morals, by upholding the matriarchy and ruining my fun! MY FUN OF GETTING DOMINATED! MY FUN OF BEING OWNED BY DADDY! The fun, what only a gender traitor cocksleeve can have, and give to her Daddy!" She screamed, while her pussy started to leak fluids.

"Please forgive me Goddesses, but I will betray your spirit, and make John the head patriarchal ruler of my home. I will turn other girls into dumb sluts, who just wanted a bit of domination, or who wanted to be popular, so they will just do anything, just to stay relevant. I will create a patriarchal family, where the girls serve and obey the Daddy, who will be John. I will make other girls betray their hearts and their morals. I will make them succumb to their own desires, and I will make them take responsibility for their babies, without even being his wife. I will turn girls into dumb sluts, who are nothing more than a bunch of whores for Daddy! I will personally cut down every idol of the nature goddess, and replace them with idols of John. I will make the universe a patriarchy, and I will be the queen, who will betray my own girlfriends, make them succumb to their own desires, and give Daddy control of their whole family." She screamed, while her vagina twitched, and her body convulsed again.

"I'm sorry I'm becoming a heretic!!" She cried, then started to cry out loud. "PLEASE DADDY HELP ME!!! PLEASE DADDY SAVE ME FROM MYSELF! PLEASE SAVE ME, BEFORE I BECOME A HERETIC, AND TURN MY FRIENDS INTO GENDER TRAITORS! PLEASE SAVE ME FROM MYSELF! I PROMISE TO GIVE THEM TO YOU, BUT PLEASE, DON'T LET ME SUCCUMB TO MY OWN DESIRES!!!!!" She cried as she masturbated in a frenzied state, while her pussy leaked fluids, and her mind started to break.

John heard her calling for his help, so he just slam the door open and ran into the bathroom. Her pussy twitched, and she felt ashamed for what she just said. Then John slapped Am's hands away from her clit and started to slap her cunt. "Don't you dare to leave me here alone with your evil little pussy, princess! You are mine, and ALL of you are mine! Your HEART, MIND, and all of your body!" He yelled anxiously, as her pussy twitched, and it made Jenny's heart feel conflicted. John grabbed Jenny and pulled her out of the toilet. He yanked her up to her feet, suddenly pull her close to himself, and hug her. Then he grabbed her head and kissed her with passion.

John didn't give Jenny any time to breathe. He kissed her, while he held her, and Jenny was in complete shock and was unable to fight him. His tongue invaded her mouth and found hers. Then he started to kiss her passionately, and Jenny started to melt. Jenny moaned, as their tongues started to battle each other. Then she started to kiss him back, and her pussy started to leak juices, as John dominated her mouth with his tongue. "MMMHHHHNNN!!" Jenny moaned, when John pulled her head closer, and their kiss became more sloppy. Jenny's pussy twitched, and continued to flow juices, while her mind started to get fogged with pleasure.

"Oh Daddy, I'm such a mess, you shouldn't kiss me, you shouldn't love me! You shouldn't want me! You should just use me, and breed me. But instead, you are kissing me, and you are holding me, while you make my mind get confused. You are confusing me, Daddy, I don't deserve this! I'm just a stupid little girl, who cannot even follow her heart." She said, and broke down, as she started to cry out loud. John hugged her again, and held her, while Jenny started to break down. "I'm here princess! Daddy is here and Daddy loves you however you are! Don't worry princess, Daddy will protect you, and your heart will always be safe, while Daddy is here!" He said and kissed her forehead. "Daddy will protect your heart from your pussy, by helping your pussy cry with pussyjuice while doing what she loves the best. I can use you selfishly when your pussy gets too horny, and I can love you when your heart needs to get pampered! I'm man enough to do both! Daddy is here, princess, and Daddy is here to stay." John said as Jenny's pussy twitched, and she started to squirt fluids on the floor, while John held her, and hold her tight, as he kissed her forehead.

"Oww, just look at you, your heart used the power of love, and melted your evil pussy! It made it cry from love! You see princess, not cruel treatment is the only way that can make you cum! And Daddy loves to treat you like this because you deserve it! Daddy loves to treat you like the princess, you are! Daddy will not punish your pussy, just like you shouldn't punish your heart when your pussy decides to betray you and to make you cry." John said as he started to pet Jenny's head. "I also won't punish your pussy for making my princess cry. I will just use my love, to make her cry from joy and pleasure. I will use my love to melt her evil heart, so she won't bully you anymore. We will make sure to make you understand each other better, so your heart will accept when she wants to get bullied and feel useless, and your pussy will accept when you want to get pampered and feel loved." He said as Jenny started to relax and melt in his hug.

"I'm so sorry, Daddy, I don't mean to be such a burden, and to be such a hassle. I just don't know how to control my body and mind, and I'm sorry, Daddy, that I can't keep up with our relationship. I can't keep my feelings in check, and I don't know what is going through my mind." Jenny said, while her pussy twitched again, and sprayed more fluids. "That is ok princess, Daddy knows that you are a little bit broken. He accepts you anyway, and he will help you put yourself together. Daddy will always be there for you, and he will always be the one who can handle you, and who can tame your evil pussy. Daddy loves you, princess, and Daddy will not let you fall apart. Daddy will always be there for you when your pussy is bullying your heart." John said and hugged her again. "Daddy will also be the one, who will always accept you, and who will always love you, no matter what. Daddy will not leave you alone, princess, even when you want to get bullied. Daddy will not abandon his princess, no matter what, and he will always be there for you until your pussy realize it's only offering herself to Daddy because she loves her, and when your heart will be able to understand that it loves Daddy because it wants to get used by Daddy, so you can claim his heart too." John said as Jenny started to cry on his chest, and her pussy twitched again and gushed fluids.

"John, thank you, thank you for loving me, and for accepting me, for taking care of me, and for putting up with my nonsense. I love you, John." She said, as her pussy twitched and came again, and John kissed her forehead again. "I love you too, Jenny. Maybe I don’t love you with all of my heart yet, but you have plenty of time to change that. Daddy loves you, princess." He said, and started to massage her head, and back. "Thank you, John, please never leave me. Please don't let my pussy bully me like this anymore. I want you to bully me, not her. Please beat up my pussy regularly, so it will stay in line, and won't try to corrupt me anymore. I want to be a good girl, I want to be your good and obedient little cocksleeve. But my pussy is evil, and It wants to corrupt innocent girls, and turn them into heretics." She said, then added a little bit embarrassed. "I mean I can corrupt a few girls if your cock wants it Daddy. But please don't make me corrupt too many girls, that would make me unneeded for you anymore. Also, please don't let my pussy **** other girls to serve you. I want to help you get other girls, but my pussy makes me think some really scary stuff when she is horny. Like, **** a girl, and helping you **** her, until she develops Stockholm syndrome. Or, just making her addicted to you, and breeding her every time she needs to cum. My pussy makes me think scary stuff Daddy, and she even tells me to betray my friends, so they can become your loyal slaves. I'm willing to help you fuck them, but please don't let me betray them! Make me into a gender traitor, but don't let me become an evil one! I'm begging you! Help me realize my fantasies, but please take control of them from me! Control them, so I will only become a wholesome gender traitor, who shows other girls the pleasure of your cock, instead of corrupting them into misogynists. Please, John, I'm begging you." Jenny said as she whimpered on his shoulders.

John hugged her again and rubbed her back. "Don't worry princess, Daddy will protect you from your desires, and he will never abandon his princess. Daddy will not let you turn into a corrupted girl, or **** you to do something illegal! Daddy will control your fantasies, so you will only think about the good stuff. I don’t know what a ‘wholesome gender traitor’ is, but I’m sure it will be fun to find out together. I promise you, even as John, that I will also teach your pussy how to behave, and I will make it respect your heart, and I will make it respect you. Your pussy will learn to respect you, by getting bullied by me. Daddy will teach you both, how to accept each other, and how to love each other. You will not have to betray your friends, princess, because they will understand your need to get bullied. Daddy will let you corrupt a few girls, as long as you can make them happy, and as long as you don't **** them to have a sex addiction. Your pussy will not make you betray your friends, princess, and daddy will always be there, and will always keep you safe." He said and gave another kiss on her forehead, which made her squirt her last orgasm for that day.

Jenny and John talked all night, and they made a plan. After all, Jenny already found someone willing to try out John's dick. And the targets' name was still Jennifer, Jenny's ex, and BFF, and Emma, her girlfriend. They were both bi, and they were both into LGD porn, so it wouldn't be a surprise for them if Jenny told them about her new kinky hobby and her new boyfriend.

John also promised Jenny to bring her into a sex shop tomorrow to buy the toys for her anal training. He also wanted to buy her a choker, which would symbolize their relationship, but he wanted to keep that as a surprise. Then they both went to sleep, while they cuddled together under the blanket.