Kris makes a decision? Oh, that never ends well.

Kris Pov:

Liz thought I couldn't think when I was in this head space, but that was only true while I was tired enough to sleep, once I was rested it was more like forced meditation where all my horny thoughts were added to a pressure cooker I'd have to deal with later.

For now I was left with my thoughts, and what thoughts they were.

Alice was here, she was back.

She wanted me!

I would let her break me.

Even with her claim she wouldn't, didn't want to, a part of me knew it was only a matter of time before she would do it again.

I would mess up, or remind her of something I hurt in my earlier misguided attempts, and she would realize I needed to be broken for her own peace.

I would know it wasn't out of hate and that would be enough.

She changed more than expected, the Alice I knew wouldn't be this cruel.

Was this my fault, would she act this way after losing her best friend?

Or was it just the pain point of seeing me again, what I was, the path I walked as a man, the fuck toy I had become, that drove her?

In that hotel room I saw something dark in my best friend, something I should have been there to stop.

She once told me I was her sunny day in the rain.

What would someone as strong as Alice become when they lost their sun to such stupid behavior like mine?

I wouldn't let something like my sense of self or safety be the thing that stopped me from being whatever she needed.

When she snapped, I would be ready for it, she would have me.

Heart, mind, body, and soul.

Which ever one she wanted to torture this time.

Before we were torn apart by my actions, she already had my Heart, and had my body when I dedicated myself to change for her.

Might as well add Mind and Soul.

I knew Liz wouldn't approve of that, but for as much as I loved Liz, her approval was worth less than being there for Alice.

I would play it cool until it happened, and keep it from Liz if possible.

Liz and Alice had somewhat made up, I didn't want to damage that.

I 'woke' with my convictions seared into my mind like always.

It was the only way anything survived the flood of flash hot arousal, as that pressure cooker finally went pop, at Liz's words.

I knew I was too much for Liz, most days I could tone it back, but with recent events I needed everything her or Alice could do to me.

I needed to be used, useful, their pleasure seen to, served.

More than that though, I needed to be fucked hard enough I could think clearly again.

It was a godsend when Liz bought the fucking machine.

The videos she took of me in it paid for more than just it, living here I felt the need to contribute, especially with how much Liz had already paid for my care and transition.

Took me to long, more than I would like to admit, to learn what she did for a living.

She was an editor for professionally made porn, flexible schedule and good money, it was her side hustle that made me think I could contribute, despite how I could barely function without my Dom around anymore.

She was making porn of herself and a few girls from the club, amateur stuff but she was making more money because she basically got to keep it all.

Paying only the other girls, the upkeep for her place, and equipment to be in good enough shape for filming.

She never brought it up, pressured me, or used the videos we had of me from those first few days.

Problem was she was abstaining from making anything while I was here and had little time to work her real job while fixing me.

So I demanded she let me help, film me and sell it.

Tie me up and live stream it whenever she needed to work without worrying about me.

With Alice being here and what I knew would happen from that, I was thinking about leaning into that type of work more.

After Liz fixed me, I looked at my course work and summer independent study materials to get a refresher and finish anything I'd forgotten.

I couldn't keep up with my own notes, it was beyond me, only enough that I knew I could get it all back down if I tried, but if I had to do this every time Alice used me that way?

It would be a waste of money to flunk those courses and have to take them again, besides if Alice wanted to keep breaking me she could be the bread winner and take care of me, she was a business major anyway, she'd be able to afford it.

So while they were asleep, I unlocked my restraints and grabbed my phone, sending off emails to all my profs and the appropriate officials.

I would leave doors open if I ever tried to go back, but I would drop out, I needed more time to serve Liz and Alice.

More hours streaming my sessions wouldn't hurt either.

When I was done I put everything back and locked myself back in, never letting my dead man switch trigger, I may have also changed the setting on the machine while I was out, I needed to feel spent after the NEED from Seb being here and the long ass time spent under that meditation thing Liz does.

Something was special about this time, My need was high even by my warped standards.

"AAHAHHAHA oh god, so Goood, please ohhhh!!" The sounds I made after getting it just right had to be music to my Owners ears.

When I finally let it stop Liz didn't come as fast as she normally does, my after glow was fading and I needed her.

The only thing that kept me sane and not spiraling was the aftershocks and the machine stopping at full depth, but soon even that faded.

After that it just became another problem.

Liz Pov:

When I woke from our nap, it wasn't from my alert playing.

It was from a crying Sub stumbling towards us.

Relief palpable in her eyes at seeing us waking on the couch.

"Kris? What happened, are you ok?" She looked a mess. Worse than normal post fuck, normally the mess is offset by the absolute joy during the after care.

"I am now, I.. I thought, I don't know what I thought, but the machine went off and you never came. Something had to be wrong, you never lie to me about stuff like that, never on purpose."

"How did you even get out, last I saw you were in some pretty tight bondage girl." Alice sleepy brain on full display, like we didn't cover this already.

"I can lock pick, I told you I could have gotten out of yours, why would this be different?" Was Kris' reply as she collapsed in front of us, unsteady but trying to be present.

"Because mine are those single pin tumblers you get at a magic shops, I saw what Liz had, those are real real. Not just for show."

"Oh, I didn't notice. I never tried to get out of them."

That got my attention, as always Alice didn't seem to know the significance of that.

"You didn't even test them? Like I've seen you subtlety do with every other lock or bondage when you think no one is looking? Girl I got the good locks, because I noticed if the locks weren't at least pick resistant, you wouldn't get the endorphin spike of letting yourself get locked up. You telling me I could have saved that money if I had dragged Alice over here sooner?"

A weary nod was my answer, very frustrating, made more so when I figured out why my alert hadn't gone off. I would tell them when this was over.

Alice seemed to keep underestimating my girl and I wanted to see the look on her face when she started to see how special my girl was, even if on something like this.

"Wait so is she some kind of escape artist now, Kris I thought you just learned how it pick some cheap locks."

"Nuh uh, well at first yeah but, some things happened and I learned more." Even in this state she was trying to hide something from Alice, from that I could guess what had happened.

There was only one thing she would keep from Alice now.

Alice would have to pull these answers from Kris without me, I was not admitting to spilling the one thing she made me promise to never tell her bestie.

Thank god the bestie seemed to have fully booted up by now.

Just hope she didn't throw me under the bus.

"What things Kris? Please don't lie to me, I know enough to worry when you are vague like that. The Truth, for me?"

"Aly please don't make me tell you."

Aly? I'd not heard that before.

"Really? That nickname? From back then, really pulling out the big guns already, does that mean I can call you Sisi, Puppy, or Risa? You haven't called me Aly since you left me for that caaamp." The way she drawled out that last word told me how she was planning to play this and quite frankly the deviousness impressed me, I'd seen her clever before, but this would be fox like.

Was this who she was when Kris was around, a hell raiser and trouble maker, willing to twist the truth if it protected her friends and screwed over assholes?

When she stood up, grabbed her phone and started dialing, I knew she was going to fully commit to the bit.

I preemptively pulled my pet into my lap and a hug.

At least I now had an idea where the puppy mentality came from when I was fixing Sarah's fuck up.

Kris shot me a betrayed look, once her eyes stopped following Alice as she stopped far enough away to have a phone call but not leave the apartment.

Clearly she drew the correct conclusion that I had spilled the beans, but before I would have to explain myself, Alice's voice was covering the whole apartment as her conversation turned into her screaming into the phone. "The FUCK! YOU! MEAN! OF COURSE?! HE WAS YOUR SON AND YOU SENT HIM TO THAT TORTURE CAMP, YEAH WAS! THEY'RE MINE! YOU DON'T DESERVE THEM, AND NO IT WASN'T BECAUSE OF YOUR GOD DAMN BIBLE THUMPER NAZI CAMP, IF NOT FOR THAT BIGOTED BS WE'D HAVE BEEN TOGETHER LONG BEFORE NOW! IF I EVER SEE EITHER OF YOU RAT BASTARDS NEAR THEM AGAIN I'LL SEND YOU TO YOUR GOD, SAME DAY SHIPPING!"

She clearly missed landlines because she nearly slammed her phone down on the counter top near by, stopping herself at the last second.

With a huff she marches back, pissed.

Clearly that part had been real.

Kris' head was bouncing back and forth between us, clearly unsure what to think.

Alice beat me to the punch, "God I forgot how much I hate those fucks, I just wanted to ask if that camp was the one I thought it was and they just had to act like it was good. That they should be proud of what they did! Sorry you had to hear that, fuck I should have figured it out some other way. Sorry Kris."

"You always stood up to them for me, quick to assume the worst of them, you were usually right. I should have guessed it'd be the same for this. I really didn't want you to know, how much did they tell you."

"Not much, but I remembered that news special on that camp near us, well more got reminded when it was mentioned in an argument on social about stuff like that. When You called me Aly, I started thinking of the good old days when we would give that small town hell, or I would and you would have my back, like a sidekick, or the cutest puppy ever. Right 'Risa?"

Alice was laying it on thick but Kris was down bad for her from the start, so she was eating it up. "If it helps you remember those days, you can use my old nicknames. I shouldn't have ever yelled at you to 'never call me them again!' I... I was in a dark place."

Like an expert, Alice extracted the skittish girl from my arms and was now holding her, petting her head and whispering sweet nothings, It looked so natural for them I was almost jealous. "I Know sisi, I'm sorry I never knew, was never there for you like I should have been."

"Aly it wasn't your fault, I hid it, was still hiding it, I was so full of shame!"

"Puppy, it was something those terrible people did to you, there was nothing you did wrong."

"Yes there was!" Holy shit I think that was the first time Kris has raised their voice like that to Alice. "ALY, I FAiled! I couldn't fight them anymore, I...I let them change me, tear off pieces of me, forced to hide other bits from even myself! I didn't mind the Idea of you breaking me, because since then I've never been anything but broken. At least you have a claim to my soul, my heart. You're the only one with that right!"

"Oh, Risa," Now they were both crying and I wasn't far behind, I felt almost like I was intruding, the only reason I didn't leave them to their moment is because Alice caught my hand and squeezed it reassuringly before it returned to Kris, "Do you remember what I promised you during our first sleep over?"

"Yeah, I never forgot."

"What was it, I want to hear that you remember."

"That... that you would protect me, but that was just because I was still scared of the dark and you didn't need nightlights anymore."

"Really? So me having your back the next near decade was unrelated to promising something to my most important person?"

"Its not your fault, you couldn't have known, I d-"

"Don't under sell my intelligence, there were enough clues. I just didn't want to see them. They did a terrific job keeping you lot from ever talking after the fact. I knew something was rotten, but on some level I just didn't want to poke it, too scared that what ever was lurking there would get me too. Do you know how they got busted?"

"One of the kids finally talked years later and proved they went beyond what even our state would let religions freedom get away with."

"Close, but no, it was a friend of that kid, figuring it out and piecing enough together to get the feds involved after a few years, that's when the interviews happen. So yes, If i cared to look I could have, probably, there has to be a reason this was the only secret you were able to keep from me for 10 years. I was too good at snooping in your life. Remember when I told off your mom when she kept dogging you to join a 'real' sport after they took you off the 'girly sport', like soccer wasn't manly enough. You came back more bloody from that then you did football.... Sorry got off track for a sec, my point was, you never told me she was dogging you and she never said anything in front of me, but I found out and took her to task."

"Yeah, she didn't bitch about that for a whole year. I wish you were there when I asked about joining volleyball, it was the only co-ed sport but you'd have swore from their response I'd asked to join the cheer squad."

"When did that happen?"

"Sophomore year. Don't go getting me so distracted, I know how you like to do that when you know I'm right, You didn't find out about the camp because it was the only thing I wanted to keep from you, everything else you figured out, sure I didn't help you figure them out, but I didn't actively try to block you either. For this I did. If I wasn't trying to stop you, you'd have figured it out, fuck you almost did. "

"What?" "WHat?"

That was both of us.

"Sleep overs."

"Its why you kept making excuses to not come, letting me talk you into them less and less... Said you didn't need my help with the nightmares, that it was the only reason you came over, they were getting better. I called you a brat too worried about looking macho ever since you got back from camp. "

"Yeah, I missed them, but the nightmares turning to night terrors and you holding me could result in evidence of what happened, what happened if I kept talking in them and you heard something I couldn't lie my way through or you got too curious about why they got so bad after a supposedly happy summer at camp? So I just had to get used to dealing with them alone."

"Sisi, that's, god I'm so sorry, I know you won't ever blame me but you'll also never convince me that I couldn't have done more. Please don't fight me on that, and please when stuff comes up from it don't lie to me, you don't have to tell things you don't want and I'll try not to be nosy."

"Ok Ally, I'll try, I'll try but only for you."

"So, escape artist, I can see how that would happen, lets leave it at that and I'll file that skill away for later when we buy toys. Wait does that mean the entire time your clitty has been locked up, you could get out? Seb must have been pissed."

"Actually I don't think he even knows I can pick locks, I only told Liz when she asked about my favorite memories."

"Oh, so you're still as sneaky as I taught you? Never got caught? Good girl."

I know better than that, but I'll let Kris brag if she wants to, she loves bragging about how good a sub she is. "I never took it off, It wouldn't have felt right. What use for it did I have, You don't like cock, Seb doesn't like cock, the first person to want my cock was Liz and Sarah. Liz got it, Sarah never did."

"Oh Liz you never told me you stole my Risa's virginity? How naughty."

"Actually that was Seb."

"But you said- wait, OH YOU naughty girl, losing your V card like a girl, still Liz naughty taking advantage of her like that, puppy did you even like it? You seem so much happier like a girl."

"I... uh, no comment." A blush was forming on Kris, from not only that but I bet from the freak out and conversations that followed.

"Shy shy girl, ok Liz was it really that good? Do I have to worry about you using your feminine whiles to keep my Risa all to yourself?"

"Is it ok that I tell her?"

Kris nods, not wanting to hide things from 'her Aly' but not wanting to dig anything else painful up. "Our little perfect slut here put on a great performance, however not only didn't she like it, she had a breakdown over it when I wasn't looking, really did a number on my ego. Until she explained why, turns out she'd rather get plowed by a guy then to plow a 10/10 like me, would prefer the 10/10 girl did the plowing but the important part was not being the guy. It was that breakdown that made me think she was trans and not just crazy enough to want GRS on the off chance you 'might' like her afterwards. Took her longer to admit that. Girl really thought it was normal to want to go that far to be with someone."

"To be fair, I was ok with being a guy to be with her before I knew she was a lesbian, even when being a guy made me want to delete my skin, so swapping parts on my meat mech wasn't that big a leap."

"Awe puppy that is the sweetest and most concerning thing anyone's ever said to me."

These two were just too much, frankly it was scary how well they meshed, but at least I now had a Kris translator on tap, apparently.

Alice could easily take Kris from me if she wanted to keep them for herself, I would have to trust her not to try and break my heart like that.

For now I had control and I wouldn't let them have a moment by themselves until I wasn't worried about Kris coming out of it broken, again.

"As sweet as this is, we need to get ready for the day, we are going to the mall, I've got to yell at someone about an android update, and a sensor error, breaking a 300$ alert system. Yes Kris, Alice can come with. We'll make a day out of it."

Kris was so happy Alice could come that she didn't even ask about missing out on cuddling with Seb like I usually set up when I went out.

I would still set something up for them later, Seb was really doing well being there for her and not trying to make it something more, maybe I'll let them play in another month or two.

Not sure there was a safe way to reintroduce Sarah, but did she really need to be?

I doubt the fear from Sarah could be as easily addressed as the fear from Alice, there wasn't a decade of good memories and trauma bonding to lean on.