Jessica's Summary

Original chapter by Sordisi.

Bang.

The door slams shut and my daughter is out of the house with Dirk.

I almost collapse. The tension is driving me crazy and I need to sort everything out first.

Hm.

So there's Dirk, and there's no denying it, Dirk is my... What? My lover? Right?

In any case, he's the man I have sex with. With Thomas's consent, mind you. Well, and that's not all. Thomas watches. Being the generous guy he is, he hands me over to his best friend.

That's confusing enough. Even more confusing is the fact that I go along with it. Okay, I admit, it's not entirely selfless. I'm grinning to myself now.

“Oh Jessika, you do have an exhibitionist streak after all,” I mumble. Or is that already an exhibitionist disorder? With an ICD code?

The fact is, Thomas enjoys it. There are lots of couples who get off on that. Right? So far, so good.

It could have been worse. I mean, Dirk isn't what you'd call ugly.

Last night, when he lured me into Sina's room, I felt sick at first, of course. That pig. It wouldn't have taken much and our daughter would have caught us. It's such nonsense to let Dirk stay in her room. It makes me feel hot and cold. Whose idea was that anyway, I wonder.

One possibility is that it was Dirk's idea. A mother-daughter party with hands-on fun? Holy moly!

There must have been a reason why Dirk provoked it yesterday. Or did Thomas do it? There are men who like to watch their wives have sex with other women.

And not just a few. Almost every man I was with before Thomas preferred the female version when it came to threesomes and stuff like that. Once I was almost ready to do it, but my boyfriend at the time got cold feet. I grin. His appetite was bigger than his mouth.

Or maybe Dirk and Thomas cooked it up together.

Anyway. I have a great relationship with Sina, even though it's been stressful lately. It's exasperating.

I'd have to explain to her about Dirk and me and her father first. Sooner or later she'll find out anyway.

Thomas is in a good position. He's the ambitious observer. That's all he's been so far. If only he would join in.

The thought scares me. Did I just suggest a real threesome with Dirk and Thomas?

I could cry. “You're completely messed up,” I scold myself.

Thomas won't bring up the subject. Neither one nor the other. I'm not so sure about Dirk. I think he's capable of doing it.

So what's better: Sina, Dirk, and Jessica, or Sina, Thomas, and Dirk, or maybe Thomas, Sina, and me?

Everything is spinning around me. Where is Thomas, anyway? He's never there when you need him.

I plop down on the bed.

“THOMAS!!!” I yell, “Come here right now!”