It's Going To Hurt

It may sound weird to say this, but getting fucked in my ass felt like more of a line than getting fucked in my pussy. And for the record it's not out of some puritan sensibility. I harbor no illusions about virginity, that it is a social construct and really in the end meaningless. Getting fucked in the ass is still getting fucked, even if it isn't technically. Even if it means keeping the barrier between my legs intact or maintaining my cherry or my flower or whatever precious term you want to use as a euphemism for the truth of not tearing my hymen.

If getting into heaven is dependent on me keeping my virginity intact until I'm married, then getting fucked in the ass is a kind of technicality and loophole on par with the ones billionaires use to cheat on their taxes. I may not be breaking the law, but that doesn't mean I've maintained the spirit of it.

No, my reticence and hesitation here has little to do with some vague notion that it'll keep me pure. It has far more to do with two simple aspects, one that is wholly practical and one that is almost positively the dumbest thing I've ever thought of in my whole damn life.

It's going to hurt.

That's the first problem, the practical concern. Having his dick pressing inside of me is going to fucking hurt and I think that's probably true. That seems to be an almost universal concept, even among people who get fucked in the ass regularly. It's not a place that things are meant to be shoved up into, especially not something as thick as a cock.

I may like pain. I may have gone through multiple internal monologues where I wax poetical on the benefits of it in contrast to pleasure, in fact. But in this circumstance I am wholly worried that it's on the wrong side of the scale of pain versus pleasure. I don't know that the benefits really outweigh the negatives here.

Isn't ass fucking kind of a thing for the guy only? Isn't that why guys are all obsessed and girls are less than enthused? That's why the stereotype is that it's something for special occassions, something to be done if they've been really good.

Then again, don't stereotypes say that same thing about blowjobs too?

So I'm worried that it'll be painful but I'm also intrigued by the possibility. I've done a lot of things, after all, that most 'good girls' wouldn't do and I've enjoyed every last one of them so there is every possibility out there that this would fall under the same categorization.

And with this body able to feel so much more than my old one it's entirely possible that it'll be even better than I can imagine. It's wholly possible that it'll be so good it'll leave me gasping and aching for more.

If it was just the pain in the way, I'd still give it a shot. But there is still that other concern.

That stupid idea that I just can't seem to shake.

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