Intrigued

Large portions of this chapter were generated by an AI at aidungeon.io and edited by me.

Ms. Raynes continued, "Nin once said that sex should be a sacred act, a mystical and spiritual experience. So, are you interested in Nin's beliefs, or not? I'm waiting."

"Yes," Anna whispered.

"Yes," echoed half the class.

The rest of the class mumbled incoherently, or remained silent.

Ms. Raynes beamed at the class. "Good, good," she said. "Nin's teachings are a wonderful foundation upon which to build our own beliefs.”

Ms. Raynes turned to Anna. "We're going to go down this path. You're going to listen to your body. You're going to follow your bliss. You're going to do what makes you feel good. No regrets, no hard feelings. Are you with me?"

Anna nodded, unable to speak. Her whole body was tingling with excitement.

"Good," Ms. Raynes said. "Now, let's get started. We'll be doing exercises to help you better understand your body's wisdom. I want you to pay attention to every sensation, every feeling, every twitch and tic. Nin tells us that we should always be listening to our bodies, that they have much to say. Now then, let's begin.

Exercise number one: the meditation. It's really quite simple. Are you ready?" she asked the class.

Anna nodded, still incapable of speech. She stared at Veronica's beautiful face, her wide, intelligent eyes, and her smiling lips, and she felt a rush of desire for her.

"Good," Ms. Raynes said. "Now, close your eyes."

Anna obeyed.

"Take a few breaths and relax, okay?"

Anna did as she was told. She breathed in and out.

"Great,” Ms. Raynes said, observing the class. “Nin says that we should always be willing to look inside ourselves, to examine our deepest beliefs, our most cherished fantasies, our hidden desires. She calls this type of meditation 'the sacred quest.' "

Anna had no idea what she was talking about, but Nin's words, in Veronica’s voice, felt like tiny droplets of water dancing on her skin.

Ms. Raynes continued, "Nin tells us that in our quest for self-knowledge, we may come across obstacles. We may find that our bodies and our minds present us with mysteries. This is part of the process. Part of the sacred quest. If we are willing to look within ourselves, to examine our beliefs, we will find that the body is our greatest teacher. The body will reveal things to us that we never knew. Now then, close your eyes and pay attention to your body."

Anna obeyed. She breathed in and out. She felt a tingling in her toes, in the soles of her feet, in the roots of her hair. Her body felt so good.

"Good," Ms. Raynes said. "Now, I want you to reach deep inside yourselves, class. What do you notice?"

One of Anna's classmates replied, "I... I don't know. I think I'm... getting horny.”

The class laughed, but Ms. Raynes only smiled.

“Exactly. No need to be shy. The body is a temple, as I said. Let the priests perform their rituals. Who’s next?“

Silence. Ms. Raynes called on another girl. "Tell me, what do you notice about your body?"

"My... My body?" she asked.

"Yes," Veronica said.

"It's... I don't know... I mean... I can't really... My body is just... You know..." she said.

"Yes?" Veronica asked.

"My body... is ugly."

Veronica's smile faded. "Never say that about yourself. Your body is beyond compare. Your body is a miracle. Your body is unique and sacred. Each part of your body is perfect. Your body... is a temple. When you are in your body, you are holy. Your body is a place of enlightenment. Do you understand?”

The girl nodded, visibly emotional from these words. She blushed gently.

“Good girl. Never forget that.”

“Now then, who’s next?"

"I... I don't feel good," one girl said.

"You will in a moment," Veronica said. "Just keep your eyes closed."

The girl closed her eyes.

"You feel your toes and the soles of your feet?"

"Yeah."

“Your hands and arms?”

“Yes.”

"Your neck and the back of your head? Your scalp? Your face?”

“Yes”

“Your breasts and your stomach?”

The girl paused, before answering, “Yes.”

"Your hips? Your thighs? Your buttocks?”

"Umm, yes.”

"Your genitals?"

The girl’s voice grew ragged. She quietly answered, "Yes.”

“I know. Keep breathing. I want you to feel every part of your body."

Tears suddenly welled in the girl’s eyes, not from sadness or pain, but simply from a great swelling of emotion.

"It's all right," Ms. Raynes said. "There's nothing wrong with crying in an experience like this. You're feeling powerful emotions. Crying can be a healthy and fulfilling form of release. Do you understand?”

The girl nodded.

“Now. Do you feel good?”

“Yes.”

“I’m glad. Who wants to share next?”

"I…," a voice said, but it trailed off mid-sentence.

“Who was that?" Ms. Raynes asked. “Don’t be shy.”

A boy in the back of the class raised his hand. “I did," he said. "But I... I don't know what to say."

Veronica smiled. "That's okay. Go ahead and share. I'm interested in how you feel."

"Okay..." he said, "I'm nervous."

"Why?"

"I don't know how to... You know..."

"You don't know how to talk to a girl. Especially your beautiful teacher,” she smirked.

Anna blushed at this. She was glad everyone had their eyes shut.

"That's... I mean..." the boy stammered.

"It's okay," Ms. Raynes said. "This is a lesson you will learn, like all the others. Now then, close your eyes and pay attention to your body."

"My body feels... good," the boy said.

"Yes," Veronica said. "Your body is a temple. You are in your body. You are in control. You can use your body to express love and respect for yourself. Feel your body. Allow it to speak to you."

The boy said nothing. He continued to breathe deeply, filling and emptying his lungs with each breath. His heart beat steadily. He felt the warmth in his body, in his chest and in his legs. He felt calm.

"Good," Veronica said, seeing the calmness come over him. "Who is next?"

"Me," another boy said. Ms. Raynes looked at him, and he stared at her, his eyes wide with fascination.

“Close your eyes, please. What do you notice about your body?"

He swallowed.

"I... My body is hot."

"Yes, it is hot," Veronica said. "Your body is passionate. Your body is wanting. You are in control. Allow your body to express its desires."

"I... I want to touch myself."

"Yes," Veronica said. "That is what you will do. Keep breathing. Allow your body to move you. Touch yourself… but inwardly. Not with your hand, but with your feelings."

"My body is moving me... I... I'm touching myself."

"Yes. You are using your body to touch yourself. Remember, there is more than one kind of pleasure in the world.”

The boy who spoke next was still, his breathing slow and even. "I never knew," he said. "I never knew my body could feel like that."

"You are feeling it now," Veronica said.

"Yes, I am."

"And how do you feel?"

“Like every part of my body is electrified. Like my body is a radio, tuned to the perfect radio station, and I’m moving perfectly in tune with the rhythm, and I am the rhythm.”

"Yes, exactly.”

"I feel… so strong,” another guy replied. “I feel like a tower of strength.”

"Yes, you do. That's good. That’s your virile self-expression. And how do you feel, sexually?"

"Powerful."

"Yes, good. Power is an important part of our sexual experience, as we will learn later. Who else?"

"I feel… like I want to… do it right now,” a girl said.

"Do what right now?"

"I want to have sex… right here."

Ms. Raynes smiled. “It’s okay. Exhibitionism is a common fetish. More common than people realize. But for now, let’s stick to visualization. Although,” she said with a smile, “feel free to imagine that you’re doing whatever you want. And wherever you want. Even here in this classroom.”

The girl let out a soft gasp.

"I'm hard,” one boy volunteered. “My… my penis is hard."

"Good. How does it feel?"

"I feel… like I'm going to explode."

“Me too!” a girl shouted suddenly, desperately. “I feel like I'm going to… come right here."

"That's fine. Keep your breathing steady. Think about how good it feels. Stay on the edge. But don't go over. Maintain the moment. Breathe, and come back.”

The boy took a deep breath and nodded. The girl still squirmed slightly.

“That's right. Who's next?"

"I'm scared,” a girl said.

"Of what?"

"I don't know… I'm going to say something wrong. I don't… I don't…"

"That's all right. It's okay to be scared. You’re not the only one who's afraid. Is she?"

A few members of the class shook their heads.

"That's okay. You can admit it. You're not the only one who's nervous.”

"I'm sorry."

"What was that?"

"I said, I'm sorry. I want to stop being scared. I want to… to embrace my sexuality,” she said hesitantly. “I really do. But I'm afraid. I want to, but I'm afraid."

"I know you do. I understand. But you must know that you are not alone in this. There are many of us who feel the same way. We are all afraid. But we are also all brave. And some of us are even willing to do something about it. Are you willing to do that? Are you willing to embrace your sexuality, no matter how scared you are?"

The girl nodded vigorously.

"Then I promise you: You are not alone. You have the support of everyone here. Class, tell her you support her."

Everyone muttered words of positivity and encouragement.

"Wonderful," Ms. Raynes said. "Then we're all in this together. Remember: Take your time. There’s no rush. You’re learning about your own body. You’re learning about your own sexual power. You’re learning about your own desires. This is a holy place. You are not being evaluated. You are not being tested. There is no right answer. There are no failures. There are no judgments."

"I… I like that," a girl said.

"I know. It's okay to feel good about this. It's okay to cry. It's okay to be frightened. It's okay to be excited. It's okay to feel whatever it is you feel. It's all fine. You are learning. Keep breathing. Allow your body to guide you. Allow your body to tell you what it wants. Allow your body to be your guide. That is all."

She paused for a long moment. “And what about you, Anna?” she asked. "Are you ready to embrace your sexuality?"