If I was not

After the movie, Demon said she is going work on a quiz for a student that was making up a test due to being in accident. Robb is going to make sure his headphones and mic work before hoping into voice with a few online friends for some gaming. This leaves Angel in the living room. She decides to grab her laptop and hook it up to the tv. She pulls up maps and starts planning out routes she can take to get where she would want to go.

School of course is the first thing. Her minion that was going to work in or near D.C. should be here tomorrow or the next day. Angel figures that Mr. and Mrs. Fields would allow an extra visitor for the night as Angel had made the deal that the minion would drive to where they needed. That would get her the clothes she needed to get through the summer and give her the freedom to move.

She knew she had to get a job if she wanted new things as her parents said would pay for her staying with the Fields and a small food allowance so she could concentrate on school over working. Angel knows that what they did not say is that if she wants to shop and other things, she would need to earn the money. She scanned around to see if there was anything interesting to her but the thought that seems to settle in is that she could tutor. If the bimbo slut of a sister, Angel saw how she curled up to Robb, could do it then it should be easy enough. Once she memorized the few streets and landmarks that would keep things simple, she then saved a couple of trips to her phone before looking at how to be a tutor.

Robb gets everything checked and jumps online. Two friends are already goofing around so he joins in while waiting for the rest of the group. Once everyone arrives, they form up the team and get to gaming. Robb knows it will be a short night since four of the group are friends in person and have to attend something but he is glad to get the session in as they are gone for week and his trip taking him so long has added up to what feels like forever of getting together. Everyone says good night and that it will be about 10 days before schedules align again.

Robb is thinking about if he wants to play something else as he pulls up Quest Master. He sees he can give quests and looking at time makes him think he probably missed the chance to do so earlier. He sits for a few before deciding what he wants to give. The first thing is something for his mom if he can make it permanent.

Angel
Quest: Do yoga with someone you live with
Reward: Perky 1
Assign: Yes No

Robb hope that Angel sees it before sleeping and tries to join his mom. His mom enjoys rising before everyone is moving around for yoga and then making breakfast. He remembers his mom saying that she would like having someone to do it with but it doesn't work for the time she does it as she wants to see her family off after feeding them. Robb hopes to make Angel into a companion for his mom and it will help Angel stay active.

Demon
Quest: Chauffeur Robb around for a shopping trip
Reward: Casual Affection
Penalty: Discussion of Quest Master makes quest automatically accepted

Robb feels anger and feels like the program is not being fair. He does not know if he can do this. Robb wants to tell Demon to not do the quest but that might be a really bad penalty. The possibility of ruining her life or worse is where his thoughts go. Robb feels sick so closes Quest Master and climbs in bed.

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The next part of the story is not necessary for story other than knowing Robb has a mental struggle to overcome
No need to read if it can cause discomfort or be a trigger
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Robb lays and tries to resolve his thoughts.

Robb does not realize his body is shaking for a conscious standpoint with how into his head that he is.

Why am I here? I know mom and dad didn't want me. Birth control and dad being fixed didn't stop mom getting pregnant. I know they love me. I know they feel guilty about leaving me behind. If I was not around then it would never have happened. They would have moved with Demon and been happy without stressing about me. Ness hates how much I ask why. She does not believe that I need to know so much. If I was not here then would she have a better relationship with the rest of the family? Was I the reason she felt the need to move away so fast? Demon says she needs me but is that really true? This program feels like it could change her and I do not know how. If I was not here then she would never have been chosen. What if I just disappeared. Just walked away to somewhere remote and got far enough that I lay down and just go to sleep forever? Would that fix anything? I would be happy to do that if it really did help the family. I just do not know what I really offer. I prefer my books and games over interacting but there are things I would miss but not more than messing up things for the people I love.

Robb keeps playing these thoughts and others lesser ones over and over.

Robb gets out of bed as sleep is not happening and goes does his night routine before booting up a mindless grinding game that has lots of fun explosions of loot. Robb finally feels tired enough to sleep and more stable. He will spend time tomorrow to check what perks there are for him to help with quests and perks. He hopes there is a way to turn them off. It only takes a couple of minutes of laying down this time before Robb zonks out.- - - - - -

Ok, that jumble of thoughts is not the exact same as me but those are similar to what I go through and how jumbled it is when I think I am causing way more bad than anything positive. It also has never lasted more than 2 hours before I stop the thoughts and go back to gaming, reading, or other things including spending time with my wife. I won't say there will be other instances of Robb doing this but unless I feel it extraordinarily important then it will just be a sentence to say he is having dark thoughts.