I'll get it over with.

"I guess I'll go ahead and get it over with..."

"Oh good! I'm definitely a little nervous, but I think some practice will calm me down. You're such a good son!"

You had never been super confident about your size, but the idea of being handled by your mom sure made you even less confident. You didn't know which would be worse, for you to have a "positive" reaction to being checked out or if your package would reflexively retreat out of fear and shame when presented to your mom. With there being no way out that you could see, you followed your mom to her office and dropped your pants for the examination.

"You're sweating. Don't feel nervous Chris, I used to see you naked all the time when you were little! Now go ahead and drop your undies too and I'll get this done. Oh. I'm sorry... Is it too cold in here? I should have asked if you were chilly or not. Um... okay. Turn your head to the right and cough. Good. Just a tiny movement. No signs of any issues... Now to the left..."

Your mom's comments had you sweating, blushing, and sick to the stomach all at once. Your penis had definitely betrayed you by failing to show up to the occasion. Not that you wanted to get hard, but you wanted it to not run from the spotlight either! You wish that you could fall back on the cold room excuse, but the sweat on your brow and the heat of your mom's hands made it impossible.

"Sweetie, try to relax. You're stiffening up on me. You'll pass out if you let your blood drain from your brain so fast. I would normally do a much more thorough exam, but I don't know if you're up for it. I don't see any big problems anyway, so you'll be cleared to play... Alright you can pull your lil' undies back up now Chris. I still need to check your back for Scoliosis, but I can do that with your little guy put away."

The fact that your mom had adopted the word "lil' and little" when she had made no use of it before was yet another gut punch. One that made you seriously consider jumping in front of a bus at the next opportunity, but you decided to take up your mom's offer of a nap on the cot in her office instead. This whole thing ended up being the worst of both worlds, you failed to show up AND it had started to get stiff when your mom examined you.

"I think I'm going to lay down mom, I don't feel so good. I think I might be coming down with something, sorry if I wasn't good practice, it's not usually..."

"Oh, I understand Chris. I love you no matter what. Thank you for being so brave for me! I'll pull this divider in front of the cot to block the light. I'll wake you up when the team gets here."