Humiliation and submission

You think back to the porn you have read and watched in the past. The vanilla stuff never really cut it for you. No, you always had a thing for the fetishes. Exhibition always seemed to make you wet. Bondage made you wetter.

You experimented with self bondage before in the past. At this point, you would consider yourself pretty good at it. You could tie knots, and successfully release yourself from situations if you had to. It all came with experience. You experimented with bondage with other boyfriends as well. But it never felt right with them. It almost seemed too safe. Like you knew what was going to happen.

No. You wanted to feel that feeling in the pit of your stomach again. That blissful nervousness that happens when you don't know what's coming next. The anticipation. And then finally the submission. That was also important. You only truly felt alive when you were treated like nothing--as rarely as that happened.