He eavesdrops

John tries to busy himself with menial tasks but before long he cannot stop himself, he had to know what his mother was doing with Hannah. Carefully John walks up to his old bedroom, heart pounding in his chest as he prepares to listen in to what they were up to.

John puts his ear to his old bedroom door, he can vaguely hear muffled voices but he isn't able to make out anything. John almost vocalises his frustration before remembering what he was doing, 'Come on get it together, man' John thinks realising he almost risked getting caught over just basic frustration. John spends a couple of minutes listening to the garbled mess of muffled voices before deciding that there's no way he's gonna hear anything like this, he needed to get this door open.

John's heart is in his throat as he gently turned the handle on his old bedroom door, praying that his mother and Hannah weren't looking at the door. They thankfully weren't so John was able to crack the door slightly ajar, with the door open John was able to eavesdrop successfully.

John listens to his mother and Hannah talk for a short while, before long he begins to hear the sounds of kissing. John's inner turmoil was going berserk, his mother was making out with his crush, John felt like he'd been stabbed in the heart..... But she was making out with who she thought was John. John hadn't even worked up the confidence to talk to her and now he wouldn't have to have that awkward first move this was good right? it was a sign she liked him, but did she like him or did she like the version of him his mother invented to portray him? What if when he comes back into his own body he fucks it up? John's mind was alight with questions and most of all anguish at what he was hearing, if this was him succeeding with a girl he had such a thing for why did it hurt hearing this success.

John eventually cannot stomach more of this eavesdropping, he quickly makes his way into the bathroom shutting the door and collapsing to the floor finally alone with his thoughts. John took a moment to compose himself, telling himself that this was the best possible outcome and he'd return to his body and everything will be ok, a funny story about a mad month he could reflect on as an old man. John gathers himself and stands up as he stands he hears the bathroom door open behind him.