Give up

I thought about it very seriously. I wanted to loose my virginity so bad. The girls were way out of my league. I want to do it but I also felt guilty at the very least I prefer they not suffer I have read quite a few article about how painful sex can be to women when not done properly.

So decided to give up for now, and find a way for the women to not feel pain if possible for them to enjoy it while I have sex with them.

If every thing fails there was always the hookers I have no reservation about stealing so that should be easy.

I cleaned her up and clothed her. I was still horny but I left after a awkward kiss( it was more like me pressing my lips on hers they were supper soft).

After distancing myself I started time and went home. Masturbated to them while fantasizing about seducing them. I came over 6 times enough that my dick wouldn't get erect any more. I started my research, I was serious when I decided I would find a way to have sex with women even in time stop. Knowing the women would not have pain.

First I thought of using **** to get them aroused but all the **** in the that said they were an Aphrodisiac sounded sketchy. There were no serious research on female aphrodisiac that looked promising.

While reaching those I also came across date **** **** but none of them were serious they just make it hard for the victim to think or resist I was seriously expecting something there.

I was always told I was a smart person and if I put effort I could achieve great things. So I decided to invent a **** to make my desire come true.

Well it was not such a big deal actually and I was not that smart I was still in highschool. The idea that I came up was to use different. Sex improvement **** and party **** to get the desired effect.

It was not simply just adding few **** and magically getting a new **** that once given to a women she just becomes your willing sex ****.( I did masturbate to that fantasy that night)

So I made plans about how to get the ****, since all female sex help **** need prescription and party **** are illegal. I also must choose a experimental subject or to be truthful a guinea pig.