Explain life

I sat down in front of the fire and eating my food that Carmen had made looked back to see Tanya sit down next to me, "How are you settling in?" I shrugged before mumbling, "Okay I assume, just keep on moving from place to place hoping for me to finally find a place to stay!" Tanya moved closer before putting her hand on my shoulder spoke, "You'll find that place, maybe it's here maybe it isn't but you will!" I sighed before saying, "I just miss my family. My dad disappeared one day, now I know he was murdered, the relatives wouldn't have anything to do with us which now makes sense, it's safer for them and my mum and brother tried to stop me from turning into this monster and the result was the same. Then my aunty tried to help and I ran away from that, I thought I loved Alice but it's just the chemical unbalances that is made me think it, at least it was better than this constant anger I feel to everyone and everything!" she looked down before saying, "It's okay, unlike them we are used to the hazards, we are the one's that converted the Cullen's to a vegetarian diet, we also train the new-born's control so a wolf is hardly a problem!" I laughed before comment, "Do you even know what the wolf looks like?" she shook her head before saying, "You are Leah's and Seth's cousin right...so just a large wolf!" I laughed before smiling at her she saw the arm shift to fur and the hand turned to a large clawed paw that could easily rip flesh off anything, "Shit, can't stop the full transition!" I growled but not moving she studied the transition and only leaving for a few seconds returned with a book looking down at it before back up almost curious in between her shock, distress and puzzlement, “Now you are rare! A pure Lycan... you don’t know how valuable you are!” the wolf growled but sitting there not intimidated she spoke, “You are a beautiful creature aren’t you! Look at your shining coat!” the others who heard the distressing cries rushed in to only immediately back track. “Grrrrrr” the wolf snapped at them before nodding Tanya wrote, “Interesting, hostile to all you but not to me! Carmen walk slightly forward!” as she did she was met by another growl, until they watched the wolf shift back to me, constantly struggling to regain control wanting to be longer but failing to get control over each other we wrestled changing parts back and for until I was left exhausted and in human form, “I’m so sorry!” but smiling Tanya said, “It’s fine, I actually learned stuff about you, Alice get him a drink while I’ll fill him in!” and sitting up was met by Tanya who joined my side...