Exhausted Housewife

Dear Mistress Kylie,

Oh god, I don't even know where to start. My name is Sarah, I'm 38, and I've been married to my husband Mark for twelve years. Lately, I feel like I'm losing him to some secret world I can't touch, and it's making me so fucking exhausted and wet with frustration at the same time. Every night I lie in bed waiting for him, wearing the little lace teddy he used to love peeling off me, my nipples hard just thinking about his hands on me. But he comes home from the gym, scrolls through his phone talking about other men's physiques "Fuck, did you see how shredded Jake is? That V-taper is insane" while barely glancing at my curves. My tits are still perky from breastfeeding our kids years ago, my ass round and soft from all the squats I do hoping he'll notice, but he just compares me to some Instagram fitness model dude's delts.

He barely touches me anymore. When we do fuck, it's quick and mechanical, his cock half-hard like he's thinking about something else. I catch him in the shower stroking himself to gym mirror selfies of his buddies, grunting about vascularity and pump. Instead of date nights with me, he’s out with "the boys," coming home smelling like beer and cologne, talking about their latest lifts. And now this Looksmaxxing competition online? He's obsessed – posting side-by-side photos of his jawline, his shoulders, rating his hunter eyes and measuring his wrists like some incel forum gone bodybuilder. He spends hours edging in front of the computer, pumping his cock while reading threads about "mewing" and testosterone maxxing, ignoring my texts asking him to come to bed. I’m dripping wet some nights just from the neglect, fingering myself to the sound of him moaning in the next room about another man’s glutes.Mistress, is my husband gay? Does he secretly want those hard, veiny cocks he admires? Why does he get more excited describing his buddy’s six-pack than sliding into my soaked pussy?

I love him, but I’m so horny and rejected. I want to explore his kinks with him maybe watch him worship those male bodies if that’s what it takes to get him hard for me again. Please help me understand so I can seduce him back or join whatever twisted game he’s playing.

Exhaustedly,

Sarah