Doesn’t go exactly to plan

Whenever I tried to talk about Nathanial hanging out with us I lose more and more of my conviction to fight it with each time being met with a cold shoulder. Now she is my loving girlfriend who I love to be with more than anyone. More and more I found that I wanted to be with her than any other of my friends. Giving up chances to hang out with ‘the boys’ to be with her instead. Eventually they stopped inviting me because they knew my answer. They didn’t fault me for it or were not even mad. They all agreed they would be the same way if they were with Jenny. What was frustrating was how much it seemed she was more focused on Nathanial and wanted him around.

Looking at all of his different profiles, professional or social. Showing the different Instagram posts of him surfing or skiing or going hiking. Whenever I saw her on her phone, there would be something about him on it. Then there was all the times he would come over now, it came to a point where even date nights had him seeping into them. We were having a nice dinner, just the two of us, but the whole time she was on her phone watching his live stream. Constantly typing away in his comments. It got too much for me and soon enough I was so annoyed I knew I had to talk about it. Despite knowing how all of the previous conversations have gone.

“Hey Jenny.” No response, more typing, and giggles as she watched her phone. “Jenny… Um Mommy.” That got her attention for some reason, I subconsciously make a note that she responded to that as I find myself referring to her as such more. “Um I was kinda concerned that you are spending too much time on your phone instead of with me.” It hurts when I put so much time and effort into this dinner that I prepared to feel so neglected. “Oh, I am sorry baby. Mommy gets so distracted sometimes. I bet my little cute boy wants all of Mommy’s attention, right?” This is when I expected the turn for the worse. Somehow, I was wrong and that she is okay to give all the attention to where she wants. So, what if it is towards her Ex. Already wincing, I am taken back at how she continues.

“I understand that I have been a little distant and that is wrong of me. You are my boyfriend and deserve for me to focused on you.” Putting her phone down she looks up at me. “I think that we should see a couple’s therapist. Help me get through why I am doing all of this and help you with all of your issues as well.” A confirmation of my issue and then a solution to it that is not just me bending over backwards for her? This was so different and unexpected that I was so happy I immediately agreed. “Amazing. I already know a therapist that would be perfect for us. Nathanial.”