Blow her off and try to scam on some young 18 or 19 years old sluts on tinder

You watch Ava and Kyler go to the shopping center in town as you lie about a last-minute work emergency. You watch there car turn out of your long driveway and you close the door. The house is silent, a tomb of good intentions. The lie sits on your tongue like ash. *Work emergency.* The words are flimsy, transparent, but she'd nodded, her face a mask of tired acceptance. She didn't have the energy to question you, and you didn't have the guts to tell her the truth, that you were choosing this. This cheap, hollow thrill over her, over a chance to mend the cracks.

You go to your study, the sanctuary that became an armory just yesterday. You sit at the heavy mahogany desk, but your hands don't reach for business ledgers or the phone to call a client. They reach for your phone. Your thumb is a traitor, finding the app with the speed of muscle memory. Tinder. The familiar orange flame icon blinks to life.

You don't log in as yourself. You haven't for a year. You open the other profile. The fake one. The name is generic, something like "Mark," or "David", a name that belongs to no one you know. The pictures are carefully curated, a shot from a work conference you attended alone, your silhouette against a sunset from a "business trip," another of you holding a fishing rod on a boat you rented for an afternoon.

They show a man with resources, a man with a life separate and apart from a minivan and a mortgage. You edit the bio now, your fingers typing with a nervous, predatory speed. "Generous, successful. Looking to spoil someone who appreciates the finer things. I'm a sugar daddy looking for my sugar baby." The words are sleazy, but they're a key. You know this. They unlock a specific kind of door.

You set the age range. 18 to 22. Then you hit "swipe." Right. Right. Right.

A gallery of young faces blurs past. Each one a possibility, an escape hatch. You feel that old, addictive tingle, the thrill of the hunt, the anonymity of the screen that makes you feel powerful and invisible at the same time.

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