I cannot describe the anticipation I felt when walking towards that room. After all, it was going to be just Corrine and I, with a bed to ourselves. This had been my biggest fantasy for the longest time, and now it was actually materializing. As every sexy possibility flashed before my mind's eye, I tried to set myself up for a healthy dose of reality. After all, everyone was pretty tuckered out at this point, so why wouldn't she be? Keeping this in the back of my head, I was completely prepared for her to be passed out in bed as I opened the door...
Corrine was standing in the middle of the room facing me, still wearing her red bikini that hugged in all the right places. My mouth was hanging open at the sight before me, and she couldn't help but giggle at my dumbfounded expression, or at least that's what I thought.
"Those don't hide boners well at all," she giggled, pointing at my obvious erection in the speedo.
"Yeah, not at all," I replied with a chuckle, closing the door behind me.
She cocked her head to the side and asked, "Where's Amy?"
"Not feeling well. Talia was worried about her, so she offered to let her cuddle with them tonight."
"Aww, I hope she's okay," Corrine said, looking a bit worried. "Talia will look after her. She's always been protective of Amy, ever since they were little."
"Yeah, I guess I never really noticed that before."
There was a momentary pause before she took a step toward me and said, "I'm sorry, by the way. I know you were looking forward to having both of us in bed and alert tonight..."
I cocked an eyebrow and smiled, taking a step towards her. "Am I that transparent?"
"No," she replied, blushing slightly. "To be completely honest... I was kind of interested too, but... in a way I'm kind of glad it's just us tonight, even if that makes me selfish."
My heart began hammering in my chest as we drew closer to one another, my brain functions seemingly shutting down as all rational thought began to fail me. All I could focus on was my sensory functions: how clean she smelled, how her body moved towards me; nipples poking the thin fabric of her bikini top. Soon we were right in front of each other, both breathing heavily as we stared into each other's eyes, even though we wanted to look elsewhere.
She smiled as she brought a hand to my face and said, "I can't believe that it's you."
She must have read the confusion in regards to this statement, so she continued, "Please don't take this the wrong way, but what I mean is... I can't believe that it's you who's standing in front of me. It's Ian, but not the same Ian I met a few months ago. It's like... it's like the real you is finally revealed, and he's this great man where this slightly-awkward guy used to be. I know that sounds awful but... no, no that's not right, either. Not completely. Sure, you grew into yourself and became the man I care so much about, but... part of it was me, too."
There was an almost sad look in her eyes before she took a step forward and wrapped her arms around my shoulders,burying her face in my neck. I wrapped my arms around her waist, holding her close while trying and failing to ignore how nice her chest felt against my own.
She went on, "I couldn't see it. I couldn't see who you were underneath. I just took you at face value instead of imagining what you could become. I know it's impossible to predict how things turn out, but... but I can't help but wonder if...if I had just looked closer, if I could have seen... could things have been different?"
We stood there holding each other, each of us contemplating her words. It made me realize that life is all about the choices we make and how those choices play out. We have no way of seeing what will happen any more than we do of going back and changing our decisions. If I've learned anything recently, it's that it doesn't bode well to dwell on the past, but even still, one can't help but wonder how different life might have been had they done things differently.
She leaned back to look into my eyes, our noses inches apart as she said, "For better or worse, things played out the way they did, and I realized too late how incredible you truly are, Ian. As deeply as I care for you, I just... I don't want to begin something with college just around the corner. I couldn't deal with the distance, with being so far away. It wouldn't be fair, to either of us."
"I know," I replied. "I get it."
And I really did, too. That doesn't mean that it didn't suck, all the same. Looking back at past decisions can certainly teach you some things, but it can be painful too.
"With that being said," she sighed, "I want tonight to be about us. You and me. I want you to always remember this as the night that I was yours, you were mine, and no one else had any say in the matter."
"Just so you know," I said, closing me eyes and leaning forward. "The bathroom door is very thin. You can hear everything in the next room."
"Let them hear us then," she replied.
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