After the experiment.

“I am worried. She keeps waking up, doesn’t say anything, and drifts back into sleep.”

“She needs to rest now, Alex. She never did anything like this. It exhausted her completely. Her body and mind **** her back to sleep, whether she wants it or not.”

“Sure Kylie, I can understand that, but how will she feel when she wakes up?”

“Exhausted beyond anything she ever did, Alex, like I was, when I woke up.”

“I mean in her mind. How will she feel about being **** like that. We left her no option to control the outcome.”

“That was the whole point of it. She couldn’t **** herself to do it, so she complied to let us take over.”

“Yes, but did she still comply during it, Ella?”

“Once you start this, there is only one end. If we had stopped, we would have failed, she would have failed to reach her end. And she would ask to do it again. She would get addicted to it. And that is something we must avoid. That is why I didn’t ask you to edge me again, Alex.”

“Hmm...”

“Perhaps I will later, but I still get aroused just thinking about it.”

“Will she?”

“Oh... yes...she will, but then she will remember the feeling of being controlled... there is no way of knowing how she will feel about that. Perhaps it will arouse her even more, or it will lower her arousal. Perhaps she will not even know how to feel.”

“Kylie, I have to admit though, I am worried too about...”

“Whether you lost control? We all lost control during it. But we stopped when she collapsed. If we had lost complete control we would have woken her up violently and restarted it again.”

“And really have started to see her as a test subject, not as a person. We would have lost ourselves in a real experiment then. And then we would really have hurt her.”

“We most certainly would have done so, Kara.”

“How do you feel, Alex, about losing control just a bit?”

“It is strange, Ella. A very strange feeling. A mix of more than one emotion. Worry, fear, sickening excitement, joy, and more that I can’t name yet. Most of the time I was simply on a kind of autopilot. Like I had shut down my empathy in the roleplay and in the act. It has been a very long time since I even lost control like that. Just thinking about it, I get a mental shiver.”

“It hasn’t been that long, Alex. You lost control while you were burning yourself out. Then too, you were engaging as if on autopilot.”

“True, Kylie, but I meant losing control... I mean...”

“In the case of losing control with Kate, your intention was to continue to pleasure her. If you had lost control completely then, just to get yourself off, you could have **** her into doing your bidding completely. Just for the feeling of power itself.”

“Yes... That is what makes me so afraid...”

“You will not end up like the people that have hurt you, Alex. You always stop. You always take into account the feelings of the other.”

“Thank you, Kylie... but...”

“I know, Alex... There’s always a tiny part in you that thinks otherwise... that it will corrupt you. It does so for me too. I like the control too, and Kate likes to be controlled. But since I love her and she loves me too, I never lose sight of it. So don’t worry about it, Alex. Your heart will control you more than your own morals already do.”

“Now, sleep, Alex, you need it too. I will check upon the others.”

“Okay, Ella...”

“I feel fine, Alex, I really do.”

“You’re still way too tired. So you stay in bed. No discussion.”

“But I’m hungry!”

“Of course you are. That’s why I will bring the food to you.”

“I am not a child, Alex.”

“You certainly whine and act like one...”

“What were you mumbling just there? I couldn’t understand.”

“I said, you certainly weren’t acting like one. Now, let me help you sit upright against the cushions.”

“Thank you, Alex.”

“It’s fine, Sophia, now let me help you with the soup.”

“Don’t glare at me, Alex.”

“I wasn’t.”

“You weren’t, but you almost did.”

“There, was that so difficult?”

“I need more.”

“And you will get more. No. Let me do it. Don’t frown, let me care of you, I like doing this.”

“Alex playing nurse, who would have thought?”

“Stop it, Kara, she’s resisting enough as it is... There you go, Sophia... Almost finished.”

“I wouldn’t mind playing his patient...”

“I can see that, you’re blushing already...”

“Kylie!”

“Quiet, you two... She needs to fall into sleep.”

“Now... How do you feel now?”

“It’s the strangest feeling, Alex.”

“How so?”

“I feel energized. I feel somewhat aroused, but at the same time I am not.”

“Hmm...”

“No, Alex, this is probably the best I could hope for. I don’t feel the urge to, I don’t want to, the energy is just enough for me to walk around now, talking to my squad.”

“Hmm...”

“Please, Alex, don’t worry... I really can.”

“Hmm... Fine then...”

“Huh? What was that for?”

“Just a kiss on your forehead, Sophia... No. No need to roll your eyes for that.”

“Yes, nurse Alex...”

“Oh... so cute...”

“Kara...”