After some relationship talk

"I do." I swallowed a lump in my throat. The taste of Josh's fresh warm cum still filled my mouth. A few weeks ago that would have had me running to the bathroom to wash my mouth out with soap, but now?

Now I couldn't help but admit I liked it.

It wasn't just that cum tastes surprising sweeter than I would have thought. It was knowing that it was Josh's cum. That my throat had given him enough pleasure to coat my insides with his thick, creamy seed.

"Come on dude!" Josh jumped up, his heavy cock bouncing in the air. That thick rod of meat i had become more intimately aware of than I ever thought I would be. "I've got the perfect spot for us!"

Josh started pulling out clothes from his wardrobe as I threw on my clothes. Quietly thinking things over.

Just what were me and Josh now?

We weren't just friends anymore. Friends didn't make out, suck each other's cocks and swallow their cum. Normal friends didn't at least...

But did that mean he was my... boyfriend... now?

For the life of me, I couldn't explain why, but that just didn't feel right to me. It didn't feel wrong, but it didn't feel right. It's not like I was homophobic, certainly not after everything I'd done... but, me having a boyfriend? It just wasn't something I'd even considered before.

So what did that leave then? we're we fuck buddies? Friends with benefits? We hadn't actually had sex yet, by conventional standards, so was that label fitting?

Haven't had sex 'yet'

I mulled over my own thought. Was I expecting it would be inevitable we'd go all the way? Was Josh? Would he want to bottom, or would he expect me to be able to take his massive fucking cock? Or would he think I was a freak for imagining us together like that at all?

It felt like we were in this weird, nebulous zone right now, and I had no idea how to deal with that. Sure, Josh had seemed pretty into everything we had done, but what if he wasn't? What if he thought I was the one pushing boundaries and was just playing along to be polite?

Just... politely sucking me off first thing in the morning and swallowing my cum...

Fuck I'm so stupid. I couldn't handle the ambiguity anymore. I had to ask him.

"Hey, umm..." I started saying. Immediately regretting speaking at all the moment the words left my lips. Josh would think I was so stupid for even thinking about this. Or he'd think I was weird for assuming we were a couple now. How did I even know I was the only friend Josh did this with? A guy as cute as him, with a titian sized cock? He probably had dozens of other guys he'd rather hook up with...

"Yeah man?" Josh was pulling up thigh high socks over his calves. He wore a loose fitting crop top that let me look down his chest as he bent over, and these soft gym shorts that did nothing to hide the outline of his cock.

"I... uhhhh..." Seeing his creamy thighs, his soft boyish curves, hints of his feminine bubble butt... I couldn't put a thought together.

Sensing my nervousness, Josh walked up to me. Gently caressing my face and giving me his warmest smile. The kind of smile that told me there wasn't anything I had to worry about, a smile that only he could do.

"Feeling alright?" He asked, genuinely concerned about me. His hand on my cheeks sending tingles down my spine.

"WhatAreWeNow?" I spat out as one word. Instinctively wincing as if I was expecting him to slap me in the face for asking.

Instead, he raised his eyebrows. Not in a condescending way, but in a way that let me know I was being silly for worrying about this.

"River, honey." Josh smiled as he said the words. His tone melting me. "Is that what you're worried about?"

"I mean... I dunno... maybe..." I looked away, blushing. Savouring the soft touch of his hand on my face.

"You've got to spend less time worrying about labels, and more time thinking about how hot jerking to Tracy showering will be." Before I could respond, Josh moved his lips to steal a kiss from me. The quick contact of our lips making my heart skipping a beat.

"You're my Jerk buddy. that's all that matters." Josh winked at me. Taking my hand into his, locking our fingers together as he walked towards the door.

"Now let's go jerk off together."